this is me

2007-06-29T01:03:00.000-07:00

i've moved:)

and if you want to know where i've moved to, maybe... try asking me? HAHA
give me a peck on my cheek and maybe i'll tell!
i doubt i'll be deleting this blog because all my precious memories are stored in here.

loveeeeeee

2007-06-11T00:06:00.000-07:00

hello all:)

i'm somewhat done packing for church camp. Anyways was feeling a little down just now, but oh wells! Ok to those who are staying in singapore, just want to say that i love you guys and that i'll be missing you!

May: hello dear:) i will miss you a great deal! study hard and we shall go tanning when we all get back from camp ok? hang in there and remember that i'll be praying for you. You can do this dear:)

Isaac: uncleeeeeeeeee i'm still praying that you'll be able to make it:)

michelle lam: WOMAN!?!?!?!? where in the world are you? haha you somehow went missing after our last conversation, where did you go? Visiting your boyfriend in china ah? Haha aiya, i love you lah. Hang out soon ok? *winks

millicent/charlotte/evelyn/justine/sulynn: hello girls:) im not sure if you'll be reading this, but just wanna say that be good ok? anything just feel free to msg me even though i'm in malaysia:) take good care of yourselves and i love you girls very much. Continue to do your quiet time all ok? hug

emily/pam/yiru/sherlyn/vinni/ruby: HI:) haha i miss you girls already. Haha hope you babes are enjoying your holiday. Take care and we shall go for our marina south steamboat soon ok? i'm sorry that for the past few times that you all wanted to go, i can't make it:( but i promise that the moment my wound is fully healed, WE SHALL GO! haha and yes miss vinni, i know you love me very much. So feel free to msg me if you need anything, just like always:) take care all!

alrighty, got to go now! take care all:) and remember miss loke is turning 19 this saturday:) haha

2007-06-08T18:15:00.000-07:00

hello:)

i'm so bored at home. Roar! Anyways of late, i realised that i somewhat enjoy doing things by myself. I guess i have a love-hate relationship with the idea of doing things alone. Haha within the past week, i have shopped alone at marina square at 11am. Haha because i have absolutely nothing to do after my doctor's appointment, so i went marina by myself to shop. And also i went to parkway to walk around and to get stuffs for church camp.

I don't really know why i like doing things alone of late lah. Maybe i've gotten used to the fact that people are busy with their own lifes and i don't exactly wish to bother them with my affairs. I'm not trying to gain anyone's sympathy here but i'm just stating how i really feel:)

People who used to reassure me that they'll be there/our friendship is important to them and blah blah blah are the ones who have proven to me that what they said are just total rubbish. People whom i trust the most, somehow are the ones that hurts me the most. Well, of course not everyone is like that lah... i hope? Haha

Honestly, i'm pretty tired of doing what i do. I guess sometimes what i do will never get appreciated. Oh wells:) I guess something which i have to learn is to trust God and no one but myself:) Because i guess the higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment. Ok got to run along now. Take care all!

8 more days:)

2007-06-08T01:02:00.000-07:00

i love love love beyonce.
Ok shall run back to watching Beyonce Revealed on E entertainment!
byeeeeeeeee

where is the love?

2007-06-07T02:11:00.000-07:00

Sigh
i'm sorry for being this way.
i cannot help it.

just help me to move on

2007-06-04T01:55:00.000-07:00

Hello:)

my whole family was eating at marine cove's macdonalds and my darling mother bought my 2 sisters the shrek ears thing and while they were wearing it and this was what happened in the car.

p/s we wanted to thank our daddy for the dinner so marcus called him using his handphone and put him on loudspeaker

marcus/kristie/mae/myself: DADDY, THANK YOU FOR THE DINERRRRRRRR
marcus: kristie, can you please not shout into my ear.
kristie: but.. but.. but..
mae: eh er jie, can you shout into my ears?
kristie: AHHHHHHHHHHH
mae: ehhhhh er jie, I meant this pair of ears (and she pointed to her shrek ears)

Hahahaha my sister is so retarded lah but i still love her. Haha ok lah you all might not find it funny, but i'm laughing like mad now even though it has happened like 3 hours ago? Haha

2007-06-02T00:56:00.000-07:00

Wouldn’t it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

i love love love 50 first dates:)

2007-05-31T22:35:00.000-07:00

Hello

I should be studying my Managing People & Organizations now, but somehow nothing is going into my head. So i decided to do something more productive than watching tv or something. Anyways my dad was the one who accompanied me to Raffles Hospital to get my wound re-dressed today. It was so darn painful. Sigh i really pray that my wound heals quickly because i don't think i can take it any longer.

The effects of everything is making me feel really depressed. Ok this is when i should tell myself that everything is under control especially when God is around:) Ok enough of me whining. Oh yes and selena was so cute lah. She called me around dinner time and asked whether i would want to meet her at parkway. But anyways because of my examination tomorrow, i told her i can't. But oh wells, miss chua if you're reading this, we shall go out soon ok? and you can drive me around with your license:)

My SIM friends are going to kushinbo tomorrow to eat. Haha but i don't think i'll be going because i've got to stay away from seafood and i've an doctor's appointment. Sigh i feel like some handicap even though i'm no longer in the hospital. This is my daily routine.
wake up
eat
watch television
study
go to raffles hospital
home
sleep(because of the medication)
eat
study

I can't wait for my exams to be over. Oh yes and now i'm worried whether i'll do well for my English for Business paper because i felt so drowsy during the paper. I don't think i did my best. God, help? Ok i better go and study my MPO now before i start complaining about how i think i'm not going to do well etc. Take care all:)

the darkness, we'll get through

2007-05-31T00:10:00.000-07:00

hello everyone

i'm supposed to be sleeping right now, but as you all can see i'm still somewhat wide awake. Today's english paper was a little difficult. The invigilators were pretty nice, because some of them heard about the condition that i was in. So they came up to me and told me that if needed anything, just call them or something. Anyways my wound somewhat leaked today, so my jeans got a little stained. I was extremly disturbed by it during the exam, but what could i do?

Right after school, my mom came to pick me up to go to raffles hospital for them to re-dress my wound. Halfway in the car, i was feeling horrible. I guess it was due to the medicine taking its effect. By the time i got to the hospital, i didn't have any appetite to eat anything. So i told my mom to pack the food back because i felt really lousy. So we waited for my turn to see the nurse to re-dress my wound. For the first time, i saw my wound. It was so scary, i'm going to spare you guys the details and if anyone of you want to know, just come up to me and i'll gladly tell you.

While the nurse was cleaning my wound, i was in so much pain. Because of the hole in my leg, when she wiped the wound with antiseptic, it hurt so darn much. She had to wipe the inside of the hole with antiseptic and the pain was seriously beyond description. Imgaine going through this for the next 6 days. Sigh well i guess it's something i have to go through now. Do pray for me ok? thanks

oh yes, thanks isaac for the chocolates and your prayers. I appreciate it loads. Much love

:(

2007-05-30T00:53:00.000-07:00

ok this was what happened:)

12 noon to 6.30pm: at the airport studying

7:00pm: Got home from the airport

7:30pm: I told my mom how unwell i was and she suggested to go down to Raffles Hospital because my right thigh became more swollen and painful.

8:30pm: Reached Raffles Hospital and registered to see the doctor. While waiting, i freaked out big time because i was so afriad that he would need to operate on my leg etc:(

9:30pm: Saw the doctor and he thought that i should go for an immediate surgery/operation because of the condition of my leg. Ok at this point in time, i was super afriad lah. Because of my Business Math exam i had the next day and also the fact that this was the first time that i was scheduled for an operation.

10:00pm to 11:00pm: I waited at my hospital room before they send me in for the surgery. vanessa, michelle guna, aunty aye lan and faithe came to visit me before i went in for surgery. I had to change in this pink pj's. Haha i was such in an unglam state when they came to visit me lah. And before i knew it, i had to remove my nail polish and to change again into some blue coloured robe and i had to wear disposable underwear! Haha it was so huge, poofy and..... auntish? HAHA *tsk so unlike what i usually wear. Ha!

11:30 to 12:45pm: i was on the operation bed thingy and they pushed me in. I felt that i was in some drama. Haha on the way in to the operation theatre, it felt so scary. Everything was so quiet and cold. Anyways they injected me with some don't know what and put me under General Anesthesia. Haha they asked me to breathe deeply and within 3 seconds, i fell asleep and before i knew it. I woke up and realised that the operation was over. It was quite cool lah cause i felt that i just slept for 3 seconds. Haha

1am to 2:30am: Somehow i couldn't fall asleep, i guess probably due to the GA. But usually people would fall alseep after being put under GA, but somehow i was so awake. I guess different people react differently:) But thank God everything well very smoothly! Oh yes i was sharing room with this another 23 year old SMU girl. We somewhat talked for a while and i found out that we had a few things in common. Oh yes and she was a Christian too:)

3:00am to 5:00am: i managed to sleep within these 2 hours. I felt very uncomfortable because of the drip thing that was in my hand. They didn't want to take it out beacuse i had to be put under liquid antibiotics. So i couldn't really sleep. Each time the nurse came in to take my blood pressure and tempreature, i was awaken by her.

Haha so i guess, this was what happened:) Once again, a huge thank you to everyone! i'm feeling much much better. Praise God! shall tell you guys the whole drama story when i see you all. Much love! Haha

-edited

Anyways i cried after receiving my dad's sms just now. Ok lah i was quite pissed off with him today because i was sleeping on my parent's bed cause the aircon man was coming to repair my room's air conditioner. So i didn't want to sleep in my room because it will be so weird lah esp i have such an ugly sleeping pattern. Haha ok then my dad came back in the afternoon drunk. It was because the minister of transport was at T3 and i guess my dad had to entertain them. So they went drinking or something. So he came home and he was very tipsy already, and he just plonked right down beside me. So i told him to becareful of my leg etc. Then he was like okok, but after a while he just smacked my leg playfully. Right smack on the area where i just had surgery on. I was so mad at him lah. He was like i'm sorry girl, im sorry.

But because i was still in that just woke up state and still in shock that he "gently" smacked my right leg. I just went to sleep in my own room with the stupid air-con man there still fixing my air con. Haha but aiya he's still my dad afterall. After i woke up, i forget about everything. Oh yes coming back to what he msged me a few minutes ago. After reading it, i teared a little and here is what he said:

Cheng, how are you?
Sorry that daddy didn't have time to
visit you at the hospital. Please take care

So i replied him that it was all ok. I knew that the minister was coming today etc so he would be busy all. Haha then i guess after he received my msg he came into my room to check how was i doing. I told him about what he did in the afternoon and he couldn't remember anything. I was like=/ but oh wells. I love my daddy lah.

Ok these were the 2 pictures i took while i was in the hospital today. Imagine sleeping with something in your vein. Haha i was so afraid that i might yank it out accidently, so thats another reason why i couldn't sleep. Haha the second picture was taken when i was put on this antibiotics drip thingy. It was quite painful when the fluid first went in, but it was alright after a while:) Hah
I should really start studying now instead of doing nonsense. Haha byeeeeee!

2007-05-29T13:01:00.000-07:00

hello everyone

thanks for all your prayers/smses. i'm finally home now and doing very good. Praise God! i shall blog what exactly happened later. Going to go rest now. Take care all

thank You Jesus

2007-05-26T23:44:00.000-07:00

Coral, just forget it.
Let it be because it doesn't matter anymore.

Daddy God,
it hurts.

2007-05-26T00:04:00.000-07:00

an overnight study date at changi airport with my boyfriend. Haha

2007-05-24T14:46:00.000-07:00

从前从前有个人爱你很久
但偏偏风渐渐
把距离吹得好远

好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开 ?

2007-05-24T00:59:00.000-07:00

Name: Loke Mun Cheng, Coral
NRIC/Passport: 88******
University: SIM University
Course: Full-Time Diploma In Management Studies

Continuous Assessment Results

Intake	Semester	Subject Code	Title	Grades
18	1	BUS001	ENGLISH FOR BUSINESS	B
18	1	BUS003	BUSINESS MATHEMATICS	B
18	1	BUS005	MANAGING PEOPLE AND ORGANISATIONS	C+

Grade	Mark	Grade	Mark
A+	90 - 100	C+	65 - 69
A	80 - 89	C	60 - 64
B+	75 - 79	D+	55 - 59
B	70 - 74	D	50 - 54
		F	Below 50

Praise God:)

2007-05-23T12:09:00.000-07:00

i have my study break this week,
which means my exams dates are nearing,
But this means,
church camp and my birthday is coming real soon!
whoooopeeeee:)
Ok back to studying!

it's such a small world afterall.
haha

2007-05-19T22:51:00.000-07:00

hello all

sorry for the lack of updates lately. Well i guess there's nothing much to update anyways. Oh yes i'm at home resting today because i'm not feeling too well. Sigh

Anyways my daddy was such a sweetheart lah. He went to buy tandori chicken and iced teh chino for me. Yes i'm my daddy's princess:) ok got to go now. Take care all

i guess it's useless to keep going on and
on how hurt i am.
learning how to suck it in.

2007-05-17T00:24:00.001-07:00

i guess you will never understand how i feel.
Yea, when things happen I always have it easy and the rest would have a hard time.

forget it,
im disgusted with myself too

2007-05-16T00:25:00.000-07:00

ok i feel a little better after talking to gaius and shenna. Haha both of them are so cute lah. That gaius gay was bent on irritating us or something. He kept changing his msn nick to ours. Haha so we couldn't tell who was who. But it was funny lah:) anyways shenna was just telling us how her sister brought her guy friend home and she felt weird with him around. Haha and gaius gave the best advice on how she should act to scare the guy home. I couldn't stop laughing. Haha you just let what gaius said form an imaginary picture in your mind. Have fun doing so! Haha

From gaius to shenna:
1. HAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!! i know what .. shenna .. you just stay in the toilet .. then when he needs to use it .. you walk out holding a shaver with shave marks on your face ..

2. hahah!! or when you all are going out of the house .. you suddenly kneel down and spin your body in circles clapping your hands and scream at the same time

haha ok lah. you guys might not find it funny but i think it's really funny. Haha i feel so stupid laughing to myself infront of the notebook. Haha

2007-05-15T23:34:00.000-07:00

Did You rise the sun for me?
or paint a million stars that i might
know Your majesty?
is Your voice upon the wind?
is everything i've known marked
with my maker's fingerprints?

breathe on me
let me see Your face
ever i will seek you

Cause all You are, is all i want, always
You draw me close in Your arms
Oh God, i wanna be with You.

numb

2007-05-15T00:21:00.000-07:00

you just reopened the wound that just healed.
Once again,
i feel like the biggest fool now.
Never imagine myself facing the very same issue.
my heart aches.
sigh

Oh yes, please do pray for my sisters because:
1. my parents brought my sister to raffles hospital because her fever didn't subside after 3 days and we are really worried. Took her for a blood test and will be getting the result on wednesday, please pray that nothing will go wrong.
2. my the other sister is falling sick again. Do pray that she'll get well asap.

So i throw my life upon all that You are
cause i know you gave it all for me
and
when all else fades my soul will dance with You
where the love lasts forever.

2007-05-14T00:15:00.000-07:00

Mae,
please get well soon ok?
Daddy/mummy/marcus/kristie/aunty lorna and myself
are very worried for you.
Be a good girl and get well soon:)
we love you very much!

my eyes hurt from all the crying.

2007-05-13T00:29:00.000-07:00

Dear Lord Jesus,

I just commit my youngest sister into your loving hands. I pray that You take away the fever in the name of Jesus. You know her condition better than any of us, You remember that when she was much much younger, she got into a fit and my family is worried that it might happen again, but God i choose to leave it into Your hands:) Like You said, By Your stripes, we are healed. I claim that in Jesus's name for my youngest sister! I thank You in advance for the healing that is going to take place, thank You Lord for everything:)

In Jesus's most precious name,
Amen!

how does madagascar sound, for a little escapade?
just you and me:)

2007-05-12T01:24:00.000-07:00

hello all:)

School was good today because we don't have any more assignments to do!!!!! hellooooo afternoon naps:) anyway somehow i feel weird that i have nothing to do. Haha but i'm loving it! Well after school today, we went to pam's house. Her house is so so so huge lah! There were a swimming pool and a basement. Haha honestly if i were living in her house, i wouldn't step out of my house at all except for school lah of course:) Haha her poolside would have become my bedroom. HAHA ah wells:)

So i stayed at pam's house till about 6.30pm then left to meet clarence for dinner and coffee:) We met at plaza singapura and i was late. Haha i almost got lost at pam's house lah. Haha anyways dinner and coffee was good:) we talked, talked, talked and talked. Haha we had dinner at BK because subway and carls jr had no seats. Well he ate lah and i didn't because i was too full from lunch. Haha it feels weird to talk to someone over dinner, but you're not eating. Haha but it was good lah:) So after BK we hung out at starbucks. Stayed till 11pm then he walked me to the bus stop and we went our seperate ways.

Ok lah i'm feeling real tired now. But i feel like watching Gridiron gang now:) haha alright take care all:) oh before i go, just a question! does anybody want to bring me go watch this? hahaha

i wish..

2007-05-10T00:00:00.000-07:00

Hello all

Well school has been ok pretty lately. After tomorrow, everything would be much better! BECAUSE tomorrow is the submission of my last assignment given! whoopeee:) Haha if i'm not wrong, i have a study break week next week. Haha i didn't know that there was such a thing in SIM. But oh wells, it means that the exams dates are nearing. Ugh

Ok i know that friday's don't exactly mean a thing to me because i have school on saturdays. But because i might be going out with my SIM friends or i might meet clarence all. Nothing's really confirmed yet. But, i'm quite excited for either one:) Haha at least i get to go out of my house since tomorrow is somewhat the liberation day:)

Oh yes i met my YA cell at cityhall for dinner yesterday:) It was a good time of hanging out because i met the new people in our cell. Haha oh yes, when we were in the toilet, we bumped into glanies:) Haha and i heard that rayvin and chellie's cell were around marina there too. Haha it feels so funny to bump into different groups of people on a weekday at town. Haha

Sigh i have been eating like a pig these few days. Haha i must practice self-control! Haha alrights i think i should go now because i'm feeling so tired. Shall blog more soon... i hope? Haha

say you'll be there:)

2007-05-08T01:04:00.000-07:00

hello

I stayed home and didn't go to school today because when i woke up at 4am in the morning, i didn't feel any better. So i went into prayer warfare till i fell back asleep. Well, i didn't do much today cause i was feeling really giddy. I have been sleeping so much for the past 2 days and maybe that is why i'm pretty awake now.

Oh yes a huge thank you to those who prayed and messaged to see whether i was ok/what happened to me etc. I really really appreciated it:) Well i feel alot better now! Must be the prayers:) and of course all the sweet messages did play a part too. Haha

It's back to school tomorrow. I have been sleeping so much within these 2 days compared of one week of school combined. Haha but all is good:) rested well enough to prepare myself for the next few weeks of assignments.

oh yes i was watching this suspense/thriller movie just now on HBO and i really regretted it lah. Because i am someone who thinks quite a bit, i think i might just gonna dream about what i watched earlier on and it's scary. Haha it's about this psycho girl who values friendship the extreme way and she would kill anyone that she feels that is snatching away her friend. Haha the i seriously believe that she's gay or something. Haha and in the show there was quite a fair bit of gore in it, not something that i would like lah. Haha thats why i don't like watching shows like saw etc:(

Ok i should go and sleep now:) Take care all! i wanted to stay awake to catch the re-run of ANTM but i'm feeling so tired now and so i recorded it! haha thank God for SCV boxes:) ohh and i'm already thinking of what should i do after school tomorrow. Haha

i dreamt of you just the other day.

2007-05-06T20:20:00.000-07:00

Hello

Well i didn't do much today because i wasn't feeling well and so i stayed home the whole day. Being sick just sucks big time lah. Haha tomyum hotpot+fries+famous amos cookies(all in one night)+a whole week of late nights=headache/bad throat/bad nose
but one thing that makes me somewhat happy is that i don't think i will be going to school tomorrow.

Oh yes my major assignments are somewhat done. Thank God:) Sigh my whole family went out for dinner and i got left behind... Oh but one thing that keeps me accompanied is the dvd's that my daddy bought! he bought Gridiron Gang, awesome show i tell you. Ok i should go watch it now. Take care all:)

i just wish that you cared

2007-05-05T03:04:00.000-07:00

hello

i'm glad that i'm able to get some rest now. Since the afternoon till now, i've been busying doing my project work because the dateline to hand it in is ~~tomorrow~~today. Well, everything is pretty done up already. Honestly, i don't expect to score and if i do, it's really the hand of Jesus that is upon it. Whatever the outcome is, Jesus still rock my world. Hahah

Anyways i was pretty pissed about my 2 group members. Ok here it all goes:
Remember i mentioned earlier that yiru and myself decided to form a group with these 2 other guys? Haha well, they got us really pissed off. Cause we had this project work that we were supposed to hand in today, and we decided to give them the easier questions to attempt and we took the harder questions etc. They just needed to answer one essay each and tadahh they are done.

Yiru and myself had to juggle with like 3 essays each or something. Because i needed the 2 guys to submit to me their eassays so that i could edit them and compile them etc. I keep bugging them to send me their eassays. Ok lah, one of them is pretty easy to work with but the other one is just annoying me big time. Lets just call him mr nice watch. I kept asking mr nice watch to mail me his eassays, and he said that he will. So i waited from 7pm to about 11.30pm like that. That really triggered off all the "buay siong-ness" in me. Haha i mean like, he knows that ultimately i still need to edit his work, why did he send it to me for editing at such an ungodly hour? i mean, come on lah. It's just one freaking essay, i have to do like 3 eassays but i've done it even before you sent me yours. I agree that we have other assignments to do and hand up too, but i've done it too. Why can't you? roar

i'm so so tempted to fill up an peer evaluation form. Why in the world you get the same grades as us when you didn't even do anything? BUT, i shall be nice and not do such a thing:)

Oh wells, there is school tmr and i gotta wake up early cause i need to get my bum bum in school asap cause i need them to help me print the stuffs. I'm so happy that after 12.30pm tomorrow, everything would be done! Bye bye project works. Ok take care all! Have an awesome weekend.

the look in your eyes

2007-05-04T01:40:00.000-07:00

Father of life draw me closer
Lord, my heart is set on You
let me run the race of time
with you life unfolding mine
and let the peace of God
let it reign.

You are my world
You are my God
and i lay down my life for You
You are my Lord
the One i love
no one could ever take Your place.

2007-05-03T16:30:00.000-07:00

one down, one more to go!
Come on coral, you can do this:)

perhaps they will never know

2007-05-02T20:49:00.000-07:00

Who compares to You?
Who set the stars in their place?
You who calmed in the raging seas
that came crashing over me.

Who compares to You?
You who bring the morning light
the hope of all the earth
is rest assured in Your great love.

Eternally wonderful:)

2007-05-02T00:38:00.000-07:00

hello

I stayed home the whole day doing nothing but my assignment. Sigh i still have one more to complete and i can somewhat resume doing my mpo project work. Anyways met the rest for dinner at ECP. The people who came along were rachy, aiken, sarah lin, shenna, char and ben choo:) this reminds me, the food at kenny rogers just totally sucked lah. Haha we were joking about how everything went wrong except the drinks.

So during dinner, adde came but she overshot the bus stop and didn't know how to walk to marine cove. So i walked to tao nan's bus stop to look for her. But that silly but cute girl took another bus to fernwood apartments there. Haha so we were somewhat playing some hide and seek game cause she didn't want me to fetch her. But i just waited for her at the bus stop till she finally came.

Anyways the rest proceeded to gelare for ice-cream and so we met them there. Today didn't felt like a ice-cream day, so i didn't order anything. So after a while we decided to leave cause we all have school/work ~~tomorrow~~ today. We walked to the st pat's bus stop, and left ben choo, aiken and char there cause the rest wanted to take bus 14 home. Anyways while waiting for the bus, we were talking about our future boyfriends etc. It was fun lah:) girly talk. Haha oh yes people present were sarah lin, rach, adde, shenna and yours truly:)

Sigh i have school in a few hours time:( i spent my whole holiday just doing my assignment. Haha oh so exciting. Ok i shouldn't complain cause at least i have a school to go! Come on coral!

Oh when i came home on monday afternoon. I had a real bad headache lah, i guess it was due to the really hot weather. So i contemplated on whether i should take panadol or not cause i suspected that i might have an allergy reaction to panadol. But the headache was so bad that i decided to take it. Well nothing really happened except today i saw little bumps on my thighs and arms. It didn't look too big. So i applied some cream and prayed about it. Thank God, the allergy reaction didn't cause anything major like the last time. Thank You Jesus:)

Sigh sometimes i wonder why am i so affected by people around me. I guess like what people always say, people will always fail you. There are so much things i would want to blog/say about but i guess it's not the best thing to put it down here. Hello the other one:) Ok i think i should really go now. Take care all and have an awesome remaining week ahead.

irreplaceable.
people come, people go.

2007-05-01T12:56:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder whats the point of messaging everyone
when
none even bother to reply.

ugh
happy labour day everyone.

2007-04-30T10:46:00.001-07:00

hello everybody:)

I'm so happy because it's labour's day! haha i wanted to skip lecture today, but i decided not to. My mummy was so funny lah. Haha cause usually she'll wake me up at about 7am to get ready for school but today she didn't. So when i woke up, i went to her and asked her how come she didn't wake me up for school. She said that she thought i didn't want to go to school, thats why she didn't wake me up. Haha i really wanted to skip lecture today but i decided against it cause i guess i didn't want to miss out on anything.

Well lecture was alright i guess. Oh yes and i got back my english assignment. Ok this is how we are being graded.
1. Poor
2. Weak
3. Average
4. Above average
4. Good
i was targeting for a Good, but somehow i only got a Above average. Sigh i was really disappointed in myself lah. But oh wells, what can i do? So after school, had lunch with ruby, yiru and vinni:) Then ruby and yiru accompanied me to parkway cause they wanted to walk around too. Haha it was fun lah:) i feel so excited in bringing them to the east side. Somewhere i call home:) So we walked around for quite a bit before we left.

I reached home about 6pm. Stayed home for a little while before going to bugis by myself. Haha i wanted to go shopping, but i guess no one was available to accompany me, so i decided to just hit bugis by myself:) So the total damage done is:

1 pair of shorts from gio
2 tops from fox
1 top from dorothy perks

that's about it:) so after bugis, i went to tampines to meet sarah lin all. Hung out at macs before going home. Managed to catch the last bus 38, thank God:) ok i should stop here because i have assignments to do. I can do this! Take care all

2007-04-28T03:26:00.000-07:00

Hello

Today was such a nice day cos maybe it's friday or something. Well, techincally it doesn't make a difference because i have school tomorrow. But, i still feel a little happier cause it's the weekends:)

I was supposed to stay in school for project work after lecture today, but we decided to cancel it because we were feeling real tired due to the previous night-we stayed up till really late to finish up our math assignments. So, vinni, ruby, yiru and myself had lunch in school first before going home. My bag was so heavy today plus i brought my lap top. Haha i think my shoulders are un-balanced now lah. Haha

It started to drizzle a little when i was in school, but by the time i came home. It started to pour. Perfect for afternoon naps:) Haha i decided to play metalslug for the whole afternoon and it felt so so good:) Lying on the bed playing metalslug on the notebook plus nice weather. Haha

So after a while, i decided to go sleep cause i felt really tired. I slept till 7 plus then woke up to eat and watch tv. So after a while, i got really bored. Then, i took out my metalslug to play again! hee i'm begining to get addicted to it. Oh wells

Anyways i met maddy all for supper at simpang. I missed syed:) food was yummy and company was awesome. Shared cab with maddy and came back about 1.30am like that. Ok i better go sleep already. Take care all:)

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2007-04-26T20:52:00.000-07:00

God, i'm just so tired.

I came back from school at 7.30pm like that because i was studying at macs with pam all. I'm so tired. Anyways my assignment is due tomorrow, so got to go now to rush everything out. It's friday tomorrow and i'm somewhat not excited about it cause i've got to go back on saturday. Sigh but thank God there's labour day holiday next tuesday!

No matter what,
i'll never let You go.
Jesus, this i promise You.

2007-04-26T00:11:00.000-07:00

hello

Ok i'm feeling very very argh now. Pardon me if i sound whiney all, but i really have no where to let go of these fustrations. It's no use telling people, cause some will not understand what am i going through. It's me and not you, so please understand it's how i feel and react towards it. What do you know? Don't go and say how you get it worse than i am. Please, just spare me. I just feel so disappointed, sorry but i can't help feeling this way. It's my life anyways. Well, it's not as though this was the first time that i'm being neglected. Yea to you i'm all grown up/strong enough etc. Oh wells, forget it.

somewhat had a real bad day today. I guess the explaination of the negative emotions of late is due to lack of sleep/stress/something else. Sigh i can't help feeling this way lah. So if you're tired of me whining or just saying how i feel, then... goodbye? Haha

Anyways, i watched the Robinsons today. And i love love love the show. It was so good! Even though the begining was abit _____. It showed mickey mouse, donald duck and goofy building some ship for minnie mouse. For a moment, i truly believed that they played the wrong cartoon. But oh wells, i guess it was part of the show?

I have a math assignment due on friday and it's stressing me out big time lah. I'm sorry Mr loo, but i seriously don't understand your math lectures. Many times i try to understand what are you teaching, but sad to say, all of those times i completely don't understand a single word you're saying.

Alrights i should go and do my math already before i go on and on. Sigh take care all.

there's no greater love than this.
I love you Jesus

2007-04-24T22:25:00.000-07:00

hello world

We had a farewell dinner for yingchuan at bugis at some hotpot place. Food was alright i guess? I was feeling very lousy during the whole dinner so i decided to go home first. So michelle lam, nelson and myself shared a cab back. In the cab, my headache was so bad that i felt extremly dizzy and wanted to puke badly. But thank God i managed to survive the whole journey.

The moment i got home, i quickly went to bed. So by 10pm i was tucked in bed already. For the first time, i went to bed so early. I woke up at 6am today because i haven't finish my Managing people and organization assignment and the dateline was today. Thank God i managed to finish it in time.

My brother and myself had to take the train to school by ourselves today because my mum had some appointment so couldn't send us. I came up with some stupid idea that we would take the train to pasir ris so that we can get a seat to last us through the long journey. Nevertheless, it was a stupid suggestion because i was late for school. By the time we reached clementi mrt station, we decided to cab down to school.

During lecture time, my friend was flipping through my assignment and she told me that i didn't do the two spacing thing. i totally forgotten about it lah. So i rushed to the library during break time to quickly edit and print everything. Thank God i brought my thumbdrive along, because if not marks would be deducted. Without God, i think i would have totally forgotten about it. Cause in the morning, Holy Spirit just prompted me to bring along my thumbdrive, it seemed rather ridiculous because since i have my project with me, why in the world would i need to bring it along. But whatever it was, i brought it along and praise God that i did.

I came home right after school because i was feeling real tired. The weather was so nice to sleep in lah. I really must learn to sleep early because i realise that all the late nights are starting to have its effects on me. Oh oh oh i might be watching The robinsons:) I can't wait! Something that i'm looking forward to.

all i wanna do
is cater to you, boy

2007-04-23T17:31:00.000-07:00

hello all

i'm now at the national library doing my assignment. I'm feeling so bored and tired:( Anyways, i met my brother for lunch at SIM just now cause he finished his lecture at 12pm today and i always finish mine at 12.30pm, so yupp!

After lunch, he had to go back to his school to install some program on his new notebook. So i decided to follow him cause he said we could study for a bit first before he meets his friend at serangoon. So i went to NP's library to do my work. Haha the moment i got in, i didn't even feel that it was like a normal library because everyone was talking loudly etc. My brother brought me to level 2 of the library to do our work and thank God it was much quieter. After doing till about 3am, we decided to leave cause he needed to meet his friend.

So i took a mrt down to the national library. i wanted to finish up my work before going for the farewell dinner that is organized for yingchuan cause he'll be going into the army. So here i am, doing my work. I'm waiting for miss michelle lam to come. Haha we agreed to meet at 5.00pm lah. That silly girl:)

Ok, i shall continue doing my work cause if not, i will never get to finish this:( Take care all

still struggling.
But i know i will make it.

2007-04-22T00:31:00.000-07:00

hello

Ok i'm feeling extremly tired now. I have been out since 8am this morning, thus i'm feeling really exhausted. Lecture was good i guess, i like having management lectures. SIM is so smart lah, instead of putting math on saturdays, i guess they probably knew that if they had placed math lectures on saturdays, many many people wouldn't even bother turning up.

Sigh so much stuffs are on my mind now. I've to admit that i'm not feeling the best, but i'll get by! i guess a huge part of me is feeling the way i am now is due to me feeling physically and mentally drained.

I guess things are getting pretty weird between the both of us. I never intended for it to be this way from the start at all. I guess my friendship to you means nothing much. You always say that you hate it when people just talk and do nothing about it, but aren't you doing the same now? Forget it, it's no use for me to say so much because it won't make a difference anymore. Maybe only when something happen, then you'll come looking for me again.

I just don't understand why do i always have to be the one taking initiatives? it's just so tiring to keep trying where you don't seem to appreciate the efforts that i take. Why? You know what, it's ok. Now i'm just making myself real busy with school and my YM cell. Anyways regardless of what i'm feeling now, i just want to thank God for my YM cell:) i'm begining to love them so so much.

Thank You Lord for just bringing Justine into our cell! God i pray that her relationship with You would grow much much deeper. I pray that:

Shenna- You grant her the strength to keep running for You. I know that it's real difficult to handle ministry/school/family esp at such a young age. But God, You see what she's doing and how hard she tries, and i know that You are proud of her. So please continue to speak to her and groom her up into an awsome warrior princess for You.

the whole cell- i thank You that you have grown this cell to where it is now. I pray that Lord, this cell would be a cell of quality and not just quantity. Also, i pray for unity amongst the cell, that they wouldn't leave anyone behind if anyone falls. You help them to function like a family Lord, and that they won't just be another "self-centered" young people. But people who are desperate for You to move and when You say go, they will go:) I pray that they will stay obedient to You and even their parents. I know that parents sometimes can really test our patience too, but God i pray that each time they feel like that want to answer back to their parents rudely, You remind them about Your commandment regarding honouring their parents:) Therefore God, i just commit:
shenna, nelson, millicent, evelyn, charlotte, sulynn, gillian, danellia, justine and pamela into Your loving hands. Keep them real safe:)

i will always only be second best.

2007-04-21T01:14:00.001-07:00

hello:)

I just came back not to long ago from cafe cartel. We went there for dinner because it was to celebrate gabsy's 21st birthday:) HAPPY BIRTHDAY! if you are reading. Haha which i highly doubt so.

Anyways, as usual i smelt like cafe cartel by the time we came out. Haha but it was good lah the dinner:) the food portions seemed to have gotten larger. And for the first time, i couldn't finish my main course. Haha oh isaac and gaius kidnapped gabsy from his house which is at shunfu and all the way down to siglap. Haha they blinded him all the way, poor thing. Haha the moment they came into cafe cartel, everybody was staring them. Haha you'll soon know why:)

Dinner was good as usual because of the company:)

After dinner, we decided to hang around a little more cause it's a friday night! haha so we walked back to church because we wanted to look for rachy and isaac. But somehow, church was closing soon after we reached. So the rest went back and i waited with meredith for her mummy to pick her up:) and oh my, she was telling me the stuffs that kids do in jayne's teaching class. Kids these days are so _____. eeeewwwww

Sigh i have school tomorrow. Double ewwwww. But oh wells, i guess i'm slowly getting used to the idea of having school on saturdays. Oh yes, this reminds me. School was pretty boring for me because it was math lesson today. I couldn't catch what my lecturer was trying to teach, so yiru and myself started doing drawing and colouring. HAHA i was drawing my house. Haa so kindergarden lah my drawing.

Alrights, i need to go now cause i want to catch some tv before i sleep:) Take care all! Much love sweeties.

things to be done:
1. finish up on my management class individual assignment.
2. start on my group project research for management lesson.
3. start doing my math CA. ugh

But whatever it is, thank You Lord, for all these assignments. At least, i have something to do now and not bumming my life away like 1 year ago:) Thank You Jesus!

还要多久我才能在你身边

2007-04-20T01:56:00.000-07:00

hello:)

School was pretty alright today. Maybe because i like english lessons, thats why time flies each time it's english lecture. But praise God, tomorrow is the ever so dreaded math lecture:( I contemplated not to attend lecture tomorrow cause honestly it is a waste of my time. I don't even understand a single thing what my lecturer is talking about. Seriously, i feel that he's teaching himself or something. Haha

Today was the dateline for my english assignment to be handed up. And SIM is really strict about datelines though. It was stated on the paper that all the work given was to be handed up by 10am. If not, there would be a deduction of marks. 2 marks would be deducted if you're 3o mins late and so on. This guy came in at 11am, he's the bomb lah. So, i guess the lecturer would deduct the maximum she could deduct? haha

It was so scary, because as usual my mummy would fetch me to school. Somehow, at the BKE highway, it had a traffic jam from clementi ave 6 to adam road. So traffic was really slow, and i was panicking like mad lah. As there were some stuffs in my assignment i didnt know how to do and wanted to ask my friends. But because of the stupid traffic jam, i came in late. Thank God, i still managed to hand in my assignment in time and to edit some stuffs. Haha i hate rush mornings.

Ok this is how my time table looks in school:)
9.30am to 10.30am - lecture
10.30 to 10.45am - break
10.45am to 12.30pm - lecture

i know lah that it's really slack. Haha but anyways, last tuesday when we had math lecture. 1/4 of the class left during the break time. Haha so the whole chunk of the backrows were left empty. Ok if you are wondering, i'm seated at the 2nd row from the front:) I decided to sit in front because i know that if i sat at the back, this whole course would be a goner, considering how short my attention span is. Haha but, now it doesn't make a difference at all whether i'm seated in the front for math, cause i don't even understand anything. I mean, i don't get why my lecturer have got to use such bombastic words to teach a math equation? Oh wells

BUT regardless what, i have decided to go school tomorrow:) HAHA oh-so-exciting. Anyways, my brother was teaching math just now. Thank God for him lah, because now i understand math a little better:) he's such an idiot lah, he laughed at me because i was so bad at math, idiot lah. Haha he taught me math till he was so tired that he knocked out the moment he laid a while on my bed. I will be going to school with him by bus/mrt tomorrow because my mummy has some stuffs to do. So i told him that i'm going to make him teach me math on the mrt tomorrow. Haha i feel so proud of myself that i bothered to study on the train. HAHA

Oh yes i went to pluck my eyebrows today. Because i felt really stressed and i needed something to do to make me feel a little better. So after school, i happily took a train/bus down to bedok to get my brows done:) somehow i feel so much better after the whole session. In fact, i felt really relaxed after coming out of the saloon even though eyebrow plucking is not exactly the best thing to do when you're stressed unless you love pain or something. hee

Ok i've decided to go for a facial soon:) Anybody interested to join me? It's only $38 for students and it includes facial/mask/massage/eyebrow trimming etc. I think it's seriously cheap, so if anybody is interested. CALL ME:) i think i might go after all my assignments are due! Sigh, sometimes i really hate deciding what to wear to school everyday. I just want to wear shorts/teeshirts/slippers. The perfect combo:) But i know it's pretty "impossible" lah. Everyone dresses up in SIM. Haha my daddy even said this "you everyday go to school, like doing a fashion show". It's so true

Alrights, i'm going to sleep now. If not i'll be late for school tomorrow(i wish). Haha love you all:)

i'll wait.
i promise:)

2007-04-19T01:55:00.000-07:00

hello all:)

i know it's a little bit late now but who cares, and here it goes! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIKEN darling:) i truly hope that you enjoyed today. Though it's nothing big or something, but i hope that you had fun nevertheless. You are special and i love you the way you are:) Thank you for always being there to:
1. listen to my endless whinings
2. support me regardless what happened.
3. reading me just like a book and understanding how i feel. HAHA
Aiyah, so many things to write lah. Haha but cause i gotta go soon to do more of my assignments, i can't type a long one for you. But all in all, thank you for just being there and that is whats most important to me:) Through that, and you know what i mean:)

Ok so school was alright i guess? i seriously might consider getting a math tutor for my math:( I totally cannot understand what my lecturer was talking about. Sigh it sounds silly to get a tutor especially when i am doing my dipolma. Haha oh wells! i had lunch with ruby, yiru and sherlyn at school today:) it was fun hanging out with those girls. I'm glad that i'm able to get to know them much better.

After lunch, i came home and rushed to finish my english CA1 so that i could somewhat enjoy the night out:) haha and not worry about coming back early to finish my work. Thank God i finished it by around 5pm and after that i took a nice little nap:) then i woke up and went to bathe/change etc and went to church to meet the rest.

We had dinner at east coast beach at some bbq buffet place. Even though, the food selection wasn't that fantastic. BUT the company definitely made up for it:) Oh and thank you Char zheng for getting me subway cookies. I really appreciate it loads:) especially it was just something random on my msn nick. You are such a darling lah, despite you always disturbing me. Haha love you dear!

Anyways i just want to thank God for taking away the stuffed ears and my itchy eyes. Haha i sound so problematic eh? haha well cause during the dinner just now, suddenly my ear had the high pitch sound thing and after that my ear become stuffed for a while, i couldn't hear properly what the people around me were saying. And i admit, i was pretty affected by it lah. So i just kept praying:) and praise God, when i got home. I felt better! Also, cause for the past few days, my eyes have been pretty itchy after i take my contacts out, it's just itchy but not red. So i prayed everyday before i sleep. And once again, praise God:) Haha

Ok i've got to go sleep now. Take care loves!

because
you'll be in my heart:)

2007-04-16T22:10:00.000-07:00

hello all

i'm feeling pretty stressed out, so i thought of blogging a little before continuing with my assignments. Anyways school was pretty alright today, oh yes. There was this whole saga that went on during my lecture today.

Some people in my class wrote in to my english lecturer and asked her to make a public apology to my class for:
1. taking time in class to do admin stuff
2. faulty lights
honestly i think that the person is so immature lah. Based on my opinion, usually the first 2 weeks of school, it is inevitable to get admin stuffs done during lecture time. Especially when our breaks are only 15 minutes and most of my classmates come to lecture just 5 minutes before it starts. And the moment the lecture ends, everyone quickly goes home.

As for the faulty lights, my goodness. Are the lecturers paid to fix the lights or something? Fools, i'm sorry if i sound harsh. But i really that these people are just plain retarded. The best part is that, they did not leave their names behind. I mean, come lah. If you dare to write the complaint, dare to leave your name behind lah. These kind of people just makes me sick.

Oh and there was this girl, who voiced out saying that she agreed with the letter and blah blah blah. Honestly, i couldn't understand which side was she on. Because she agreed with the letter and yet she asked us to clap for the lecturer to show our appreciation? Haha my lecturer was like, no i don't need it etc. Then i don't know how, the girl ended up arguing with my lecturer that it's unfair to us that she wasted 20 minutes of our time and said that all of us paid money to be in this course, and how can she waste our time and BLAH BLAH BLAH. Come on lah, in such situation how can the lecturer feedback to the cowardly people who dare not put down their name, if she don't know who they are?

I don't even wish to say which country she was from. Those who know me well enough, i think you can guess which country am i referring to. Ugh immature people!

I really admire my lecturer though. I mean getting all these crap on monday morning isn't the best way to start the week. Spare the poor lady lah. If i was in her shoes, i would be totally affected by what has happened. But during the lecture, she seemed alright. Kudos to her man:) i feel so injustified for her. But thank God because i think she might be a Christian. Lord Jesus, i pray that You help her to stay strong. For whatever rubbish she gets from our class, i pray that somehow You bless her back. And for those silly people, help to realised that they are being foolish and somehow they will apologise to her:)

Ok i've got to go now:( enough of my break. Take care all:) Jesus, help meeeeeeee.

i'm sorry,
i can't be perfect.
I'm trying my best to honour you,
like what the bible says
but somehow you don't seem to appreciate it.
what else do you want from me?

2007-04-16T00:32:00.000-07:00

Hello:)

It's monday tomorrow and i've got school. I have so many assignments to be done and i'm still stuck with one. Sigh anyways the karens mission team is finally back! i missed them so much lah:) Sarah lin dropped by the dance studio just now, i was so happy to see her lah. Though 1 week is pretty short but i felt that it was so long lah. Haha maybe cause they have been so part of my life that 1 week seem super long. Haha oh wells

Ok i'm gonna go do some of my homework before hitting the sheets already. Take care all and have an awesome week ahead:) sorry for the short post. HEE

Look at this photograph
very time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red?

2007-04-13T23:17:00.000-07:00

hello:)

i'm feeling bitter/stressed about:
1. having school tmr
2. when my semester starts having lectures from 2pm to 5pm, it includes saturdays! Sigh, Jesus what will happen to my cell group/YM ministry?
3. a whole lot of assignments to be done:(
and many others too lah. But these are just a few that is causing me to feel ____.

Anyways i came home straight after school even though it's a friday. Haha i was feeling really tired and kept dozing off in the mrt. I think i must have looked quite bad lah, but who cares? Haha oh oh! i was feeling bored just now and so i decided to give my brother a make-over:) Haha

i took a long time to persuade him to let me do the make over. Haha and i lied about it at first, i just told him that i would just be putting on the foundation and concealer, just to test whether it would cover his pimples. HAHAHA:) both of us were laughing our butts off at the end. I tried making him look like ruhua, if you guys do remember who she is. HAHA oh i just realise that i have such a talent doing make overs. HAHA lorraine darling, would be so proud of me. YEA right;) Haha but honestly i was trying to give my brother the sunburned look. HAHAHAHA Marcus, please don't kill me. HEE

Alrights i got to go now. I've got so many things to finish. I need to:

1. revise on my managment notes

2. prepare for prayer tmr cause i'll be sharing.

3. Try to do some of my assignments.

Ok so i really got to go now. Have an awesome weekend:)

2223,4.6477.968

2007-04-13T01:31:00.000-07:00

hello world:)

I guess school's begining to get better:) Well lecture was pretty alright lah. Maybe i'm just not used to the lecture style of learning. Haha but overall, everything is pretty alright i guess. Anyways i kinda called for a project work meeting with my project mates, but somehow they forgot to bring the material etc. SO, we are going to do some individual work first then we shall compile it or something.

Ok i'm gonna whine now:
Somehow i'm asking God for more patience and love for the people around me. Haha because other than my friend and myself, i feel that the other 2 guys aren't exactly serious about the project work all. Maybe time will tell. But i'm trying my best to be nice and patience. Because honestly, i know that when i get stressed out, i start becoming a meanie. And, currently there are so many assignments that needs to be handed in and i'm begining to feel the stress. Lord, please help!

By the way, i'm still bitter about the fact that i've got to go back to school on saturdays. major UGH

Ok enough of me whining. Haha this is the only way where i can keep whining about it and no one would ask me to shut up or something:) hee ok anyways after school, yiru and myself decided to have lunch at the cafeteria for once. HAHA but it was so packed by the time we reached there. So we decided to have macs at clementi interchange! Haha yipppie, i'm begining to find my way around clementi:)

Lunch was pretty good i guess? i realised that yiru and myself have similar habbits etc. Haha how interesting huh? Haha i thought i was the only one who likes to read the obituary:) ok im being random here, i smell gas in my room, not german gas you ding dong. Haha maybe someone wants to murder me. HAHA ok im being retarded. But seriously, it's weird that my room has the gas smell cause i went out to the kitchen to check it out, and the smell didn't come from there=x

After lunch, i decided for the first time to take bus 14 from clementi to home. Haha that was the stupidest choice that i ever made lah. Haha the journey was such a killer. But i managed to sleep in the bus:) by the time i got down the bus, my butt was seriously numb. Haha i couldn't feel my bum at all, super scary lah. So i went to church and i planned to do my assignment. But i ended up being on friendster. Haha but of course, i didn't neglect my assignment:) i did bits and pieces of it. Haha

I met vanessa for dinner about 7pm:) we ate at beer garden, and it was fun lah. Vanessa, if you're reading this. I just want to say that thanks for today:) i really appreciate it, cause i know that you are like super busy and tired. But thanks for making some time for me:) and i'm glad that we ate dinner and talked about it. I feel a whole lot better, and i just want to say that i love you very very much. hug

Well prayer for the missions team was awesome:) oh yes, to junior: well, apparently there are fightings in the karen refuge camp. And it was quite bad because the missions team couldn't stay in the camp because of the situation and had to leave by 5pm because(if im not wrong), the police imposed a lights off curfew at 7pm or something. But praise God, things took a turn:) The team are allowed to stay in the camp now! So they can carry out the activites as usual. Just keep them in prayer oki? Because there is a spirit of fear in the camp now, it's human nature. But please pray that God would work through the situation. Thanks alot:) Haha anyways who are you? Haha after so long, then i'm asking who are you. Haha sorry, it sounds rude, but who is this?

alrights, i want to go sleep already. i need to find my way to school by myself again because my brother's having his orientation tmr and he's gotta be in school by 7.30am. It's retarded to ask my mummy to rush to send him and come back for me again. So i decided to be a thoughtful daughter and told her that i'll find my way to school:) one thing that i dislike the most about morning train rides, is that it would be super packed lah. Haha like there was this foreign worker who kept leaning on me. I was super irritated lah. Haha okok be nice coral:) be nice! be nice!

and i admire what you do:)

2007-04-11T21:28:00.002-07:00

Dear Lord Jesus,

i pray that You just really work through the situation in karens. Whatever that is happening now, You work through it. You are the God of miracles and there is nothing that You cannot do. So God, i just commit the uncertain situation into Your loving hands:) I pray for Your favour to be upon the missions team, that wherever they go, things would work well because i know that You are in control:) So i pray that the blood of Jesus would protect and cover them from their heads to their toes!

I also pray that the people in karens would be open to Your word and whatever that was shared would fall on good soil, because You said that Your word would never return void. So Lord, i pray that they would stay expectant and desperate for You to move. In the name of Jesus, i pray against any spirit of fear or uncertainty! I pray for Your Holy Spirit to move in the whole of karens refuge camp.

In Jesus most precious name i pray,
Amen:)

to get or not to get?
that is the question.
Haha

2007-04-11T21:28:00.001-07:00

2007-04-10T19:33:00.000-07:00

sigh

School pretty sucked for me today. Because we were supposed to find project groups by today if not we got to retake our module. It left my friend and myself groupless. So my lecturer suggested that we both seperate and find other groups with only 4 people and join them. So he suggested one group, and that group made up of all guys. So i kinda went to ask them whether could i join their group. Not as if, i really wanted to join their group or something. Anyways cause the 2 st marg's girls group had only 4 people too and i guess i let my other friend joined them cause i felt bad just leaving her to join the guys.

The guys were so immature lah. When i went up to ask them, they kept pushing whether i could join their group around. They were like ask that guy lah, or ask the leader lah. Then i just stood there and really felt like a fool/freak. So i decided to forget about it and went back to my seat, i was close to tears. I felt so _______. ugh

And throughout the whole lecture, i couldn't pay attention. Cause the lecturer's words rang kept ringing in my head that if i don't find a group by today, i would have to retake my module. So i couldn't pay attention and kept worrying. I kept praying and asking God for His help, and suddenly i remembered what aunty aye lan msged me when i first started school about how God's answers to me are yes and amen! So i kinda just trusted God with it.

Praise God that after the whole lecture, there was another group that had 4 people in it and i joined them. But i saw 2 guys who didn't had a group too and i felt really bad. So i took my name off their list and formed a group with the 2 guys lah. Sigh but somehow i kinda regretted it lah cause one of them seem rather_____. Oh wells, sometimes there is a price to pay for being nice i guess? But Lord Jesus, i pray that You work through my project group. i pray that they will do their part too.

The rest are away in karens and i miss sarah so much. One day she's away, all these retarded things happen. I wanted to call people to tell them, but i guess people were busy all. So i just slept my day away. Sigh anyways got to go now. Take care all. Oh yes, there was this cat that came into my house again. Ewwwww lah, it walked in my house as though the cat owned the house can. Oh wells, i kinda chased it out already.

:(

2007-04-09T23:03:00.000-07:00

hello all:)

well just came back not too long ago from the airport, cause some of us met to send the karens mission team off to thailand:) oh yippie, i ate popeyes again! it was so yummy. Anyways when we were walking around in the airport, it just reminded me those times that we spent studying in the airport. Ironically, i wish to relive those times. Haha

Anyways school was pretty alright i guess? the lecture was quite boring lah. Haha so after school, i decided to meet mish at parkway cause i needed to get some things done and also to spend some time with her since i have been so busy since school started:) haha i guess sometimes what they say is really true that, when two people spend so much time together, they start behaving a certain similar way etc. Haha and today i just realised how true was the statement:)

Right after eating, we both said that we wanted to head down to topshop to check out their stuffs. Haha but somehow, we just got attracted to different shops. Haha it took us about an 1 hour before getting to topshop? Haha cause we kept going into different shops and kept trying on stuffs. But it was fun to hang out with mish all, cause somehow i think school is making me real boring:(

So after finally making our way to topshop. We had nothing much to do and we decided to go over to her house to hang around. Haha both of us ended up sleeping on her bed till miss ng qiu ping may called us:) but seriously, school is draining all my energy. Well, not exactly school but the travelling time. It just sucks big time! i need a personal driver, any takers? Haha

Oh yes i'm already missing the people who are on the plane to thailand now:( ok i'm quite tired of blogging already. i still got to go do my homework:( shall blog more tmr k? love

someday, somehow:)

2007-04-08T19:25:00.000-07:00

I want to rewind every time

cause the words have so much meaning

they were there when nobody cared

always knew what i was feeling

stay tonight don't leave me reminiscing

all i do is wind up missing you

are you missing me?

p/s: Aiken darling, stop smiling to yourself. HAHA

2007-04-06T16:03:00.000-07:00

hello:)

i thought i should blog a little before going for Good Friday service later. Anyways so we had our usual YM comm meeting last night in church. Then we ended at about 11.30pm like that, and after that we decided to go eat supper at hongkong cafe:) Food was yummy as usual. We ordered so much stuffs lah. Haha well i guess, even if the food wasn't good, the company made up for it:) I ate till i wanted to puke lah. Haha ok and as usual i did something really stupid lah. Cause there was this barricade before entering the carpark at siglap, so i tried doing the limbo rock. HAHA and i fell down on the road. So retarded lah. Haha

Oh yes and hosea drove the church van down to sunhaven:) haha and we watched coach carters, the show was really good. But i kinda fell asleep for a while near the ending. Haha the show was pretty draggy, if i'm not wrong. The show lasted about 2 hours plus. Haha so after that i couldn't fall asleep:( So i stayed up the whole night, haha and i was somewhat observing the different sleeping habits of everyone. HAHA oh yes, i somewhat had my allergy thing last night again and i went into prayer warfare. Haha i was praying like mad when everyone was sleeping. Also, since i had nothing to do. I decided to pray for people all:) So guys, i've been praying for you! Haha

So technically, i didn't sleep at all. And the initial plan was to go home with some of them at about 7am. But somehow, we hung around till everyone woke up and we all decided to head for breakfast together:) So after everything, i reached home about 11am. So i quickly went to sleep. But i was quite irritated lah. Like there were so many people who called my house etc. And one best, asked me to collect something from them. Haha i was so irritated and in such a bad mood cause i only managed to sleep for about 3 freaking hours. And i'm someone who cannot do without sleep:( But oh wells, Jesus please help me to stay awake during service later!

Alrights i better go shower now. Take care all:) love!

ugh that time of the month:(

2007-04-04T23:19:00.000-07:00

hello lovelies:)

Deuce bigalow is on HBO now, so i'm gonna blog a little cause i want to go watch it:) HAHA anyways school have been pretty ok i guess? I felt a little loner today cause i sat alone:( But oh wells! Haha oh and i had business math today. And i got so lost towards the end of the lecture lah. Somehow all the math equations seem so foreign, and i realised that some of the math topics that i've got to learn is from A math. Sigh i'm in deep poop lah. Haha i didn't take A math at all in secondary school. Jesus help? Haa

Anyways i'm not exactly all that loner lah. At least i have a friend to go to toilet with and to accompany me clementi mrt station. Haha somehow all the people seem to come from everywhere but the east side:( quite sad lah. But oh wells! Haha i seriously love love love the 2 st mag's girls lah. It's just so awesome cos i was telling them how sucky to be in a class where there is less than 3 girls from all girls school. And she was like, it's ok! cause you have us mah:) HAHA awwww

Oh yes my bag was super heavy again lah. Now my shoulders are aching big time:( i know that i've always been quite independent. Haha i always manage to carry my own bags/heavy things/going home alone/doing things alone and blah blah blah. But my bags are really heavy to the extend that i wish that i can just tear my books according to their chapters and carry it around with me. HAHA

Somehow i'm pretty excited about tomorrow night though:) Cause there is YM comm meeting and after that we might go somewhere to eat supper, and sarah if you're reading. I'm very on for the idea of going to swensens at the airport! HAHA then after that we will be going down to Pastor mark's place to stayover or something:) Yipppieeee i can't wait.

But the only annoying thing is that i have school on saturday. UGHHH not occasionally but everyweek. It sucks lah:( i think because of that, i don't think i want to join any student activites anymore. Haha alrights i got to go now:) Take care all you gorgeous ones! hug

because you make me smile:)

2007-04-03T23:00:00.000-07:00

hello everyone:)

I saw this friendster bulletin posted by gina and it was talking about how guys should treat girls etc. It's pretty sweet lah but at certain times i think it's a little too "extreme". Haha that i feel abit disgusted in a way? Haha anyways i read this article on men's health a few months back and i thought that it was pretty interesting, for a change; it's about the sort of female behaviour we won't be tolerating any longer. HAHA i love it lah. Look out for no. 13:) personal fav! So here it goes:

Jig's up baby-
The sort of female behaviour we won't be tolerating any longer/

1. you say to us, "you're not romantic anymore." Fine, we'll try harder. But only if you agree to initiate once in a while, too. Deal?

2. Then there's "you never listen." This is not an inherently male trait. I mean, how many times does a guy have to explain the differences between yellow and red card offences?

3. No, you don't look fat. Did we mention how you never listen?

4. If you ask our opinion, please don't get mad when we give it. The colour of curtains shouldn't be a referendum on our relationship.

5. It's just a spider; for pete's sake. Step on it.

6. We worked a 60-hour week, did the dishes, paid the bills, walked the dog, changed the oil, picked up the dry cleaning, read to the kids, and gave you equal time. All we're asking for is three hours on the couch on sunday.

7. No more deflecting responsibility for crummy behaviour with cute and kittenish responses. you can't giggle your way out of trouble anymore.

8. You know damn well what we are doing in there. stop asking(HAHA)

9. Forget the notion that raising kids is harder than maintaining gainful employment. More important? Yes. But harder? No.

10. If you continue to dump on our best friend, we will probe the (many) character tics of all your friends.

11. If you want to have kids, you have to have sex. This is not complaint. This is science

12. Somewhere, somehow, women were sold this idea of "fashionably late." Men don't get this. Make up a fashion emergency if you must, but don't ask us to be intentionally tardy. It's like asking us to kick the host in the groin.

13. Yes, that woman is hot. Yes, we appreciate beauty. That is why we're with you. (AWWWW)

14. We do listen. And empathise. But when your troubles have been analysed until there's nothing left to talk about, can we please stop talking about them? (HAHA)

15. If we fell in love with you when you had long hair, we're going to want you to keep your long hair until death do us part. We'll beg, but would prefer not to.

16. As for commitment ultimantums, just address numbers 1 through 15 on this list, then we'll talk.

Haha i love this particular article lah:) Alrights, i should go and study already. Sigh i'm already begining to feel a little bit stressed out. But it's alright, i'm gonna work hard and do well:) Take care everyone and have an awesome day ahead:)

you're my sunshine:)

2007-04-03T16:46:00.000-07:00

Hello all:)

my original plan was to meet isaac, maddy and yingchuan for movie today. So i went to meet maddy after school at cityhall. I was early! Haha for the "first tine" in a long while. Then we decided to walk to funan to meet yingchuan cos he was there looking at DVDs all. So after walking around and waiting for mr isaac ong, we decided to sit down at some place to drink and wait. Haha

to cut the long story short. I decided to come home instead of going town cause my bag was really heavy and also i bought all my school textbooks. It was so heavy lah, even my plastic bag tore:( my shoulders were aching like mad. I'm so sorry isaac! Haha i really wanted to stay if i needn't come home to accompany my sisters. Haha and thanks for your offer to help me carry my books all, i appreciate it loads! :)

I took the bus home. My oh my, i had difficulty staying awake during the journey. OH YES the moment i came home, i went to weigh my bag and it was 7 freaking kg. HAHA now my shoulder blades are uneven because of my bag. Haha ok enough of me talking rubbish, i shall go take a nap now! love you all

won't you walk me home?
:)

2007-04-03T02:19:00.000-07:00

hello world:)

I have finally decided to change my blogskin. Haha although it's pretty plain now, but i quite like it. I might just change it back again if i happen to get bored of it. Haha we'll see how it goes:) I can't believe that this is coming out of my mouth, but i'm begining to like editing the html stuffs. Haha maybe because i'm begining to "understand" the whole thing better. Like what they always say, practice makes perfect:)

Well many of you might be thinking, the blogskin's pretty plain. What did i even edit? Haha actually, this blogskin had lotsa stuff on them. I had to resize/crop and delete certain stuffs. It involves lots of trial and error ok! What in the world am i even telling you guys these? Haha well maybe... cos i'm proud of myself:) HAHA

Anyways today was the official first day of school:) It was not bad, i made friends with these other 2 St Margret girls and they seem really nice. I'm begining to like them even though we just talked for just 5 minutes:) i guess girls from all girls school is really different from girls from co-ed school. No offence to anyone! Haha but there is a certain similar trait in girls that comes from all girls school:) Ok to put it bluntly, i like meeting people from single sex-ed schools:) BUT of course, there are people who make the exceptions! Like isaac, aiken all:) Haha

Well back to school! Haha lessons were pretty alright. I was surprised at my ability to stay awake and attentive during the lecture:) I haven't really gotten to know anyone else yet. Haha well one thing made me really _____ today was my lecturer asked the first 2 rows to label ourselves and somehow we become "group leaders". I was like WHAT THE!?!?!?!? and ya lah, many of you might have already guessed. Haha she made the whole class split into many different groups and we had to scream out our group numbers and to congregate those who had the same number. Haha oh yes for your info, my class has 108 students! It was a madhouse lah. Haha

So my group had 9 people and i'm the only singaporean out of the 9. How exciting eh? But overall, the group work part was pretty fun:) i'm quite excited for class tomorrow since i have friends now. Haha goodbye to loner lunches:)

After school, i decided to accompany one of my new found friend to popular to get our textbooks all. So we kinda splited up the jobs, she went to grab our books and i went to queue cause the queue was really long. So after getting our books we spent about 15 minutes just queueing and when it was our turn to pay for the books. I realised that i totally forgotten to bring my wallet, but thank God i brought along my ez-link:) thank God the people at popular were really nice about it, they didn't make me feel paiseah about not being able to pay for the stuffs:)

So after school, i decided to drop by church to see the rest jamming for the karens mission trip:) i stayed for a while then decided to head home cause i was feeling really tired. I came home, showered etc then went to take my glorious nap! Haha i woke up because of darling gaius's call lah. Asking me to go to town or something, haha i can't even remember what he said lah. Haha sorry dear! Then i woke up about 6 plus and went to shower and meet isaac, maddy and yingchuan for dinner:) We decided to eat at beergarden and we stayed and talked till about 9.30pm then we decided to head home.

Sigh i came home and realised that i had some allergic reactions again. It's seriously annoying me big time lah. I don't even remember eating foods that are out of the ordinary lah. So this whole allergy thingy was a mega surprise to me. Anyways, please pray for me oki? Pray that God clears this whole allergy thing out of my system and it shall never come back oki? thanks:)

Alrights i should go and pack my bag and sleep already. Take care all:) and have an awesome day ahead:)

maddy: hello sweetie:) i'm really glad that you're feeling much better now. Hang in there oki? i'm there anytime if you need me, this i promise you:) i love you! you are special the way you are yes?

sarah lin: hello my dearest! i know you are reading this at work:) HEE naughty ah you! anyways have an awesome day ahead at work. I love you so so much and we shall hang out real soon oki?

vanessa: hey! hope the kids at school have been good to you. i've been praying for you and hope things are doing oki:) i love you very much too!

mish: hey, i know that we haven't been hanging out quite often and there are certain things we gotta talk about. But hope all is good, i don't even think you'll read this lah. But anyways just wanna say that thanks for everything. i love you:)

may: womannnnnnn! where are you? Haha hope everything is good with you. We got to hang out pretty soon yes? i miss you so much lah. Hug

michelle lam: aunty! Haha thanks for your dear msg, i really appreciated it lots:) i enjoyed the lunch we had on last last sunday. ok i'm hinting that you should join us for lunch more often, deal? Haha hope school is good for you as well:) i really do miss you, 17 soon? Haha

aiken: hello gorgeous:) like what i've said during msn, getting cheeky ah? Haha hang in there, you're on your way to getting that A for your O levels! A for Aikey! HAHA i love you. Yippie ikea soon:)

isaac: dudeeeee! i love hanging out with you lah:) weirdly, you're someone who knows me real well. Haha anyways just wanna say that i always knew that you were meant for something great:) you'll go far and for my part, i'll be praying for you and supporting you in each step of your way yes? *winks* do you still want to help me peel my potatoes? HAHA loveeeee you!

jossie: what happened to you? Haha hope you're doing alright. Just wanna say that i miss your presense and really hope to see you around soon! love:)

and to the many others out there:
i'm sorry but i'm getting real tired now. HAHA so if your name isn't here, please don't think you're not important to me but i'm really getting tired now:) i shall post random shout outs when i have the time/remember/energy to do so. Hug

baby,
someday we'll know:)

2007-04-02T00:36:00.000-07:00

hello all:)

i'm finally starting my school semester tomorrow! Quite excited lah:) Anyways, i'm kinda not feeling well cause of cramps etc. Ugh so when i was at my grandparent's house, we decided to leave early cause i wasn't feeling well. I was about to vomit all over the place lah. Haha but thank God i didnt:)

Just being random, i think my daddy is so cute. When he realised that i wasn't feeling well, he kept asking me whether i was ok etc. Like when we were going down the lift at my grandparent's place, my sister was being her usual retarded self jumping around etc. Then my daddy kinda "scolded" her and said that stop behaving like that cause i wasn't feeling well. Haha it sounds quite silly lah but i really appreciate the intention though:) because it made me feel like a princess. Haha my daddy constantly surprises me. But i love him regardless lah. Haa

Ok i think i'm quite a ______ individual, cos i like to do silly stuffs like these:
1. walk around at home with my bolster in one hand. HAHA
2. buy tikam tikams
3. talk to people while they are on the phone. (haha i know i'm just being irritating)
4. cannot decide where to eat. HAHA somehow, i find it difficult to decide where to eat. ugh
5. watch re-runs for like 10 over times? HAHA
6. being random

well the list can go on and on. But i guess, i should just stop there in case i might just go on and on:) hee okkayy i'm gonna go watch my cinderella 3 already, so take care all:)

I wanna give my breath,
my strength,
my will to be there.
That's the least i can do,
let me cater to you.
Through the good,
the bad,
the ups and the downs.
I'll still be here for you,
let me cater to you.
Cause you're beautiful, i love the way you are.

2007-03-30T21:21:00.000-07:00

Hello all:)

My mummy's having her cell group at my living room, so here i am blogging away in my room. Haha so cute lah cause today it is the children who are leading praise and worship:) I let my door open so that i could hear my mum's cell singing.

Anyways school was ok i guess? It's quite sad lah cause i only made like 2 friends? Haha the people there are abit ... Like i made the effort to be friendly all, but somehow i guess they thought i was weird or something. Haha oh wells. But anyways the there are 3 classes for this diploma course and we all had our orientation today and the surprising thing is that 75% of the students are foreigners. So you could imgaine how many locals are in the class:(

So the program cordinators were giving out our lecture notes/timetable/student portal password etc. And they started out by giving class A and class C first,(i'm in class B btw). And they allowed the class B students to have a lunch break first before coming back to collect whats needed to be collected. It's a social suicide to have lunch breaks on the orientation day because many people are left eating alone. Haha although i kinda made friends with this girl but somehow she was quite unfriendly all lah. SO YA:/

But praise God, school ended about 1pm? So i took a bus to clementi mrt and took a train back. I decided to be a nice person and stand instead of sitting down because i felt that i was "physically fit" to stand. Haha so the other people could have a chance to sit. Haha and oh my, halfway the journey i felt like dying already. Haha cause my bag was really heavy. I came back and weighed my bag and it was freaking 5 kg plus. Haha exciting.

So after reaching home. I quickly went to shower and watch a little tv then i went to sleep. Haha it's been quite long since i last woke up so early in the morning. But i guess i got to start tuning my body clock. I tell you, my mum won't stop nagging at me lah. M.O.T.H.E.R.S! Haha but she was nice lah, she drove me to school today:) but of course along the way, she was nagging at me for sleeping late the night before. Which in my very honest opinion wasn't very late. It was just 2am? haha last time when i was still in kc, that was my bedtime man. Haha ah wells!

Oh yes, i received my time table all. Quite ok lah. Lessons are from 9.30am to 12.30am daily. The only bummer thing is that i've got school every saturday. Sigh my saturdays would be so packed lah.
9:30am - 12:30pm = school
2:00pm - 3:45pm = leaders meeting
4:00pm - 4:30pm = prayer meeting
5:00pm - 7:00pm = ym service:)
7:00pm - 7:30pm = ym cell group time!
7:30pm - 10:30/11:oo = YA service
11:00pm onwards dinner.

Haha my saturdays would be packed, back to back. Jesus, i really really need Your strength to keep me going! I really cannot do this on my own already:) Chants to myself: all things are possible through Christ who strengthen us! all things are possible through Christ who strengthens us!

Alrights got to go now. Take care all:) Oh yes please keep me in prayer if possible k? Thanks alot loves!

let me cater to you
cause baby, this is your day
do anything for my man
Baby, you blow me away

2007-03-29T01:18:00.000-07:00

Hello all:)

I'm feeling quite tired. So i guess it will be a short summary of what i did today:) I was supposed to meet maddy and mish at parkway today to get maddy's karen's stuff. But i overslept, so we met at 1pm instead. Haha

Anyways so maddy and myself met first, then while we were waiting for mish at watsons there. We saw shaun tupaz and we asked him to join us for lunch. It was good time of hanging out lah i guess? Haha something real different. So after eating, shaun went to meet his father and the rest of us went around looking for stuffs. After much walking around, maddy couldn't find the thing that she wanted so we decided to head back to church.

On the way back to church, i bought a tamagotchi! Hee so exciting lah:) I have a new pet now. But the annoying thing is that i keep accidently press the restart button. So my tamagotchi pet would always restart to the egg stage. Ugh how annoying it can get ah? But overall, i'm begining to get addicted to my pet. HAHA

So mish and myself went for the YM wednesday prayer. It was good:) Hmmm after that we met maddy at the youthroom:) Then maddy and myself went to town to meet isaac and yingchuan. They continued looking for the stuffs that they needed, and i was just being an extra lah. Haha but it was fun still? Because school's starting already and i needed to go out and have fun. Haha oh yes when we were waiting for the bus, we saw steven lim. HAHAHA i guess, he was looking for people to pluck eyebrows? Haha funny fella lah.

Thank God the bus came in the matter of minutes, and we saw gabsy on the bus too. Apprently, he was on the way to church for the karens meeting too:) So when they went for the meeting, i went to talk to aunty Aye Lan for a while and it was awesome lah:) Haha don't exactly want to let the whole world know that God said yet, but when the time is ripe:) i'll probably let you people know!

Alrights, i want to go watch my tv already. Take care all:) just a random thought:
To eat to live or live to eat? thats the question i ask myself daily. HAHA anyways, have an awesome night:) much love

thump-ah-thump:)

2007-03-28T03:18:00.000-07:00

hello all

i've spent the whole day at home doing nothing much:
1. watching tv
2. sleep
3. eat
4. listening to sermons
and the cycle just goes on and on. Each of the item takes their turn to rank no. 1 in my life. Maybe cause i'm cooped up at home and plus other stuffs, it's making me feel lousy. Oh wells

Anyways since i have nothing to do. I've been searching for new blogskins, but somehow i can't find any that pleases me. Well oh yes, there is one thing that actually made me happy today.
One was which, i received an email from Aunty Aye Lan and she received an impression from the Lord regarding me. She emailed me part 1 of the impression and it's looking real good:) and she also indicated that there is a part 2 to it and she wants to share it with me face to face. Exciting:) cos she mentions that the Lord is bringing me to a greater depth of relationship with Him. Now i'm feeling so so excited to know what is part 2:)

Well the other thing that actually made me happy was watching perfect proposal:) somehow it makes me happy to see the extend that guys would go just to "get that girl". I know it sounds real retarded of me but i love it when guys cry when they propose to their girlfriends. Because i really feel that it's ok for guys to cry all. Some people think that, it's a sign of their weakness. But screw it, i don't think that they are being weak but to me, it's a true sign of strength:)

Sigh

I'm so tired of it. Maybe i'm not as important as i think i am to you. I guess you are much happier being with other people than me. I'm tired of taking the first initiatives, somehow i always feel that i'm always the one giving and you are the one at the receiving end. I always felt that this relationship is important to the both of us. But i guess it was just one-sided. Now i understand, so pardon me as i exit from this.

Alrights, i should just go read my daily bread and spend some time with God to make me feel better:) I've got to stay close to Him no matter what happens because He have to much in store for me! Ahhhh i can't wait:)

edit-
cos there was this horrible stench in my mummy's room and my brother and myself decided to check out what was it all about. So both of us got torchlights and got bygonne(sp?). Haha it was so exciting cos it reminded me of the past where the both of us would go around snooping at night, of course in our compound lah. Haha we went to the area oustide my parent's room to check out what was causing that horrible odour, seriously it's so bad that i felt like puking instantly when i enter their room. After much sniffing around, we concluded what caused the odour. We suspected that it was some dead rat caused that stench. It was so disgusting lah. Yucks

So the moment we came home, we went to closed all my parents windows all. And lighted some essential oil thingy:) and thank God, the smell is gone! Haha after the "exciting adventure" haha my brother and myself got a little hungry. And we went to SPC to get stuffs:) Haha we bought some much stuffs lah. We were having some mid-night feast, so exciting:) Haha

It reminded me the last time where we were much younger. Where jasper would come over to stay, and we would always go to BP(in those days, it was BP and not SPC) and get lots of chips and yummy foods to stock up for our late night parties. Haha we would always wait till my parents go off to bed and we would bring out all the snacks and snack in the room! Haha it was so exciting cause my parents always forbade us to eat in the rooms. Sigh i miss those times. Haha growing up sometimes sucks. But it's all part and parcel of life:( i like stayovers with my cousins, cause there will always be endless things to do.
1. we could always ride our bike around
2. go to the playground and play house:)
3. buy fart-smelling stink bombs and leaving them to bomb at staircases
4. talk about what we want to do when we are much older
5. watch cartoons power rangers!
6. play soccer
7. play WWE wrestling on playstations
8. load our waterguns with water and spray them down from my grandparent's place at 8th floor. HAHA
9. stayover at my grandparents place and they'll always bring us for breakfast like real early in the morning just to eat chee queh. Haha

aiyoh there will be so many things to do. And it's getting real late already:) I should go sleep soon cause i'll be meeting the girls tmr at parkway. Take care all

maybe i'm not important
as i thought i will be.

2007-03-26T10:45:00.000-07:00

Hello:)

My darling mother took leave today cause:
1. she promised to attend my sister's sports day
2. drive us(my brother&myself) to our prospective school to drop off a cheque and to re-submit the colour vision test for my brother.

Haha anyways i woke up at glorious 7am today just to get ready to go to kristie&mae's sports event. The weather in the morning was awesome lah. It was raining heavily and it's best for sleeping in. But oh wells, since i promised my sisters that i would be there. I've got to keep my word:)

We reached bedok stadium about 7.45am like that and waited a while for the rain to stop etc. Haha i was somewhat dozing off cause i was really sleep and it was quite boring. Haha and the best part was my sister's event was the last event of the day. Haha well when it was my sister's turn to run, i got super excited that i got off my seat and went to the grandstand to support my sister:) Haha i was screaming for her till my throat became a little painful lah. But i guess it was all worth it because she came in first! Haha

So after the whole event, my mummy drove marcus and myself down to our respective schools to settle some admistration stuffs. Well, we popped by my school first to submit my cheque and i can finally say: i'm finally a student in SIM:) Haha so after that, we swing by Ngee Ann poly to submit marcus's 2nd colour vision test. Cos aparently, the bedok clinic had already faxed in his colour vision test(the failed one) and cos on saturday, my daddy brought him to Raffles hospital to get a second opinion and praise God, he passed that test. So we wanted to submit the one which he passed, but the guy was quite ______. So my brother took a retest there again, so in total. He took the colour vision test 3 times! Haha oh yes and praise God again, he passed the one where he took in ngee ann poly:)

So we went to submit all his documents that are required for his enrolment and guess who we saw? paul twohill! HAHA everyone was fawning over him. Like what my mum would say, wah lao he looks so weird lah. Haha i've got to agree. I mean, dude what is with the long hair! Haha i saw a few girls going up to him etc. I bet they were trying to rub shoulders all loh! Haha ok i sound evil ah? oh wells

After we did everything, my mummy brought us to parkway for lunch and cause she wanted to buy sushi all. We ate fish&co and it was so yummy:) Haha for the first time in my life, i was dozing off during lunch. Haha i was so tired out by the time the meal came. Haha but anyways service was good:) There was this girl who attended to us and she was really nice,friendly and pretty. Haha ok i sound superficial. Anyways, i kinda agreed to do some feedback form thingy and i nominated her for good service:) and i think because of that she gave us like 10 over sweets? Haha it pays to be nice ah:) ok lah enough of talking so much rubbish!

Well, i've been tagged to do some blog thing. All thanks miss maddy xiong! Haha so here it goes:)

These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

1. Somehow i like to torture ants and flying ants. Haha sometimes when i'm bored studying, i will catch an ant to torture them by blocking all "their exists" and see how the ants kan-chiong. Haha and sometimes when i feel really evil, i like to clip the flying ant's wings and see how they try to move. Haha

2. I don't exactly like to kill a cockroach using bygonne(sp?) but i like to use the broom to smack it unconscious first then i quickly sweep them into the toilet bowl and see them struggle to swim out of the toiletbowl.

3. I really like the taste of almond:) (ps, not everybody likes the taste of almond)

4. Among all the princesses, i like jasmine the most because once there was once they sold all the disney princesses with perfumes in them. And among all, i like jasmine's scent the most and therefore i started liking her a whole lot. HAHA

5. I used to hate my name badly because people would make fun of my name. Thats why each time when i have to introduce myself, i don't like to tell them my name. Haha ok im that silly lah;)

6. i like to play shooting games. Haha

yippie! i've done with all:) i dont think i should tag anyone to do this, cause i can't exactly think of anyone that is free to do it. So yup! take care all you out there:) much love!

amazed by you

2007-03-26T01:28:00.000-07:00

hello all:)

I thought i should blog a little before going to sleep. Thank God that my brother passed his colour vision test:) Praise God!

I freaked out badly last night(saturday) cos i had an allergic reaction. It was quite bad and i started itching everywhere due to the allergy. I felt like some drama mama because i wanted to go A&E so badly cause i felt that the itch was really killing me. Haha so i kinda prayed for quite a while before falling asleep.

So on sunday morning, i quickly went to shower and went to see a doctor. I spent just 5 minutes in the consultaion room and it costed me $30. Haha well easy money ah doctor? Haha oh wells. I felt a whole lot better after taking the medication. After going to the doctors, i went to church to join the rest of the YM comm for bible study:) the medication made me really drowsy during service. I was really fighting to stay awake, it felt so horrible lah. Haha

Alrights i got to go now because i just took my medication again and it's making me sleepy despite me sleeping the whole day. rahhhhh and i promised my sister that i'll be going to her school's sports day because she's participating in some events and i've got to be at bedok stadium at GLORIOUS 7.45am! Haha hallelujah! and after that, i've got to go down to SIM to submit my cheque for my school fees etc.

My school's orientation is this friday. I'm excited yet not. Haha i'm really afriad of not being able to make friends:( i've become such a loner lately. Ah wells

everytime i think of you,
i can't help but grin at myself.
Now i feel silly
:)

2007-03-24T02:38:00.000-07:00

From now onwards,
I'm on my way in becoming a proverbs 31 woman! Haha i'm inspired to match up to my future other half since i have so much expectations of him. I have to do my part too:)

The wife of noble character:

vs 10
A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies. -Virtue
vs11
Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing in value. -Faithfulness
vs 12
she brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. -Revernce & Goodness
vs 13
she selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. -Willing worker
vs 14
she is like the merchant ship,
bringing her food from afar. -Good manager
vs 15
she gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls. -Good manager
vs 16
she considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard -Industrious
vs 17
she sets about her work vigourously;
her arms are strong for her tasks. -Strength
vs 18
she sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night. -Endurance
vs 19
in her hands she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers. -Well rounded
vs 20
she opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy. -Charitable
vs 21
when it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet. -Provider
vs 22
she makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple. -Well dressed
vs 23
her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. -Wife to good husband
vs 24
she makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes. -Good business woman
vs 25
she is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come. -Honourable
vs 26
she speaks with wisdom, -Wise
and faithful instruction is on her tongue. -Kind
vs 27
she watches over the affairs of her household -Good mother
and does not eat the bread of idleness. -Busy
vs 28
her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her: -Praiseworthy
vs 29
" many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all." -Attains to excels
vs 30
charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. -Fear of the Lord
vs 31
give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

save tonight

2007-03-23T15:15:00.000-07:00

Dear Lord Jesus,

I thank You for letting my brother get into the course of his dreams. I pray that he would be able to pass his colour vision test. As You already know, he went for the test and came back with a Partial Colour blind result but i truly believe that You are the God of miracles and there's nothing that You cannot do. So God, please help him pass the colour vision test at his second attempt.

In Jesus name i pray,
Amen:)

p/s guys please pray for him too ok? thanks and i appreciate it greatly:)

2007-03-22T01:36:00.000-07:00

hello all:)

I met maddy and mish to go swimming at sunhaven today. Even though the sun wasn't glaringly hot, but somehow my face is rather sunburnt. Oh yes the weather is begining to become a little crazy eh? One moment it's hot and humid, the other it's raining cats & dogs.

So we left sunhaven at about 6pm cos maddy and mish gotta be in church for their LA bible study. After swimming, my eyes become so red lah. I think cause the pool water is really dirty or something and my eyes became to itch. But i kept praying while waiting for the bus, then praise God, the redness subsided and it become not itchy anymore:) i know that altough it's a minor issue to many of you, but somehow it is through these little things that He does for me makes me realise how real He really is:) and how every word that comes out of my mouth, He is listening.

Anyways while we were on the bus, it began to rain heavily. Haha but thank God that it stopped raining while we were waiting for another bus at tanah merah:) So the weather was perfectly fine by the time we reached church's bus stop. I accompanied the girls to spc to get their stuffs and i went home after that.

I know i sound stupid lah. But i went home to shower again cause the rain water totally destroyed my hair lah. Haha sometimes it's so annoying when it rains because my hair would look super retarded. So i quickly showered and went to meet debs, selena and fiona at parkway for dinner cos they wanted to meet up all:) So we kinda talked etc while having dinner. Haha kc girls would always be kc girls lah. Haha

So after eating dinner, we took a cab to selena's place. We hung out for quite a bit then debs got to go:( So left fiona and myself. We stayed around for a while more before going off. Since fiona got to take bus from beer garden that side, i decided to accompany her there and i decided to walk home instead:) I'm glad that i did though:)

Alrights i've got to go slap on some moisturizer before my skin becomes real dry and it might even peel. Yucks so take care all!

you look wonderful tonight:)

2007-03-21T02:52:00.000-07:00

hello all:)

Well i was pretty busy doing some stuffs for YM just now till i got really stressed out. So i decided to take a break, and guess what? Haha i ended up doing collages on picasa. Haha it's super entertaining and addictive lah:) Ok so i'm gonna upload it later or something if im not lazy. HAHA

Anyways i was just looking through photobucket and i realised that they allowed me to upload videos too! HAHA so i'm gonna upload 2 super super funny videos lah. The main characters of these 2 videos please don't blame me ok? Haha how can i not share such good stuffs with people around me? Haha all is the name of fun yes? No ill feelings ah:) and yes, i feel majorly pai seah because you can hear my disgusting laughter at the background. hahaha

The videos are being load up now and so i have nothing much to do:(

I helped out at basc today. I woke up real late lah and i even contemplated whether should i just go or sleep in. Haha but i decided to be a real nice person and not pang seh maddy, so i dragged my lazy bum out of my bed to shower etc:) can i say this once more? i love love the kiddos at basc. Haha they are so cute lah:) Ugh i feel like stealing them home;) It's so cheesy to even say this, but they stole my heart away. HAHA i can't help but fall in love with them:) Like the way they call your name is so awwwww. Their cutesy voice and they way they call me" jie jie cowal". Haha

Anyways my plan for tomorrow is to go swimming/tanning with mish and maddy:) Haha it's been a long time since we went swimming. Haha i can't wait:) But miss maddy is going to help out at basc tmr first before meeting. I think i'll give basc a pass tomorrow cause i want to sleep in a little while more. Since school is starting like in 2 weeks time? and i know for sure, i can't afford to sleep in like this. So yupp:)

Yippie the videos are being uploaded already. But somehow i think i should only upload one cause i'm afraid the other one might offend or make the person feel bad. Haha so i must for his permission first:) Meanwhile, enjoy this one! Haha take care

Click HERE to watch the video:)
and
Click HERE to do my quiz! HAHA

2007-03-20T01:18:00.000-07:00

It's seriously so cool how God has impacted me during Synergize:) It's very silly of me to feel this way, but i really really do miss the speakers and the band. They were so real/geneuine towards us. They really inspired me a whole lot:)

But honestly, i somewhat made a pact with God and this time, i'm so so serious in wanting it to work out because i choose the cross:) and that is something that i won't ever back out of:) I know that things won't ever be a bed of roses, but with God. I don't really care much because i know He's got my back covered:)

Oh yes it's really cool to be close to God all:) Because like the last time, i used to have this "first instincts" thingy and i rather labelled it as the whispers from the Holy Spirit:) Like He would often warn/tell me stuffs and it would be so accurate. For quite a while, i've stopped doing my QT/praying all. So naturally, i became deaf to the whispers from the Holy Spirit. But recently, it's been so awesome lah:) Like i've somewhat began to be able to listen to the whispers again. Haha

For one cool example, cos as some of you might know. Mish and myself didn't get posted anywhere. So the both of us kinda appealed. But from the begining, i felt that maybe SIM was the way for me. So i just applied to SIM and mish just applied to RP for the course she wanted. She was quite worried that she couldn't get in etc, but i had a good and peaceful feeling that she'll get in:) and praise God, she did get in! Haha

All i want to say is that, it's really cool to walk closely to God:) To be able to hear from Him directly all. It's just so cool:) But sigh, one thing i got to be, is to be able to be bold enough. Cos sometimes God is going to tell me stuffs that isn't gonna "seem" nice for that season, but i've got to learn how to deal with it. Help me Lord?:)

Anyway praise God that i got my enrolment package from SIM already:) I have to be in school on the 30th of march for orientation. Haha so exciting yet scary:) Haha anyways i'm gonna go watch my tv already. Take care all:) i have to wake up early to help with the darlings at BASC.

lost hope in you.

2007-03-20T00:05:00.000-07:00

Hello all:)

Since everyone is doing that own quiz all, i decided to go ahead and get one done too! So please go and do oki? Haha oh yes i watched music&lyrics. Not that fantastic lah, but overall it's okay:) Alright here is the quiz, go go go and do it! Haha

Click HERE:)

Till then

HAHA love you all:)

2007-03-18T05:37:00.000-07:00

Hello all

This week was just so fly. Synergize was awesome. Words can't really express what i've gained from it etc. I'm just quite sad that the whole conference ended. Oh wells i guess all things have to come to an end somehow... Just like you and me.

These few days i have been sleeping late and thats why i guess i'm feeling quite sick and my voice sound like some tranny lah. HAha oh wells anyways i'm not in the mood to blog, shall blog later or something. Take care

behind those smiles

2007-03-14T04:43:00.000-07:00

Hello all:)

I think i should blog a little because i can't exactly get to sleep. I think it's probably due to the milk tea that i drank at hongkong cafe. Haha

Anyways i met isaac and maddy at bedok interchange for dinner at about 6.30pm before going to Bethesda Cathedral for Ignite. Halfway while eating, jossie came to meet us. So we decided to cab down to bethesda cathedral because we were too lazy to take a bus. Haha

Ignite was awesome lah:) I'm so glad that i went. Honestly, i felt a little lazy and even contemplated not to go, BUT praise God that i went! Haha i guess like what they always say, save the best for the last:) Haha so after the whole service, we hung out for a while and helped to pack up the hall. We couldn't decide where to go after service, so after much deliberation. HAHA isaac, maddy and myself went to hongkong cafe to hang out:)

It was fun lah. The food was so so good! yumm:) We ate and talked till about 2am? Oh yes i'm super excited for Synergize lah! Haha we decided to stay over at someone's house(ok i don't want to name the person, not because i dont like the person. BUT, because the person's house is packed with us already and unless you want to sleep at the corridor, you are welcomed) haha It's gonna be so fun lah:) I so can't wait! Haha

Then while walking to take a cab home, i realised that I HAD FORGOTTEN TO BRING MY HOUSE KEYS!?!?!?!? haha but thank the Lord, my darling brother was still awake:) So he waited for me to come home before going to sleep. Haha

I've been praying for one Godly and rich man! HAHA i kinda met one lah, but too bad he's already taken:) For those of you who know who i'm referring too, please shut your mouth. Cos it's not as though as i have a crush on him or whatever. HAha i just think that he's a good catch:)
1. Godly
2. Kind/Nice
3. RICHHHHHHH(ka-ching)
Ok lah i sound like some superficial b____. Maybe i am? haha BUT the God factor is still the number 1 requirement lah ok?

Ok enough of all these:) I'm starting to feel the effects of staying up till now. Haha i'm gonna hit the sheets now, take care all!

so i guess this is goodbye?

2007-03-11T09:35:00.000-07:00

the lovely photos we took at maddy's place:)

2007-03-11T00:56:00.000-08:00

hello world:)

These few days have really been eventful, of course in a very good way:) Anyways i think things are begining to look up now. I know that God always had His hand upon my life, but somehow things seem to be picking up now. Thank you Jesus:)

It's really God's plan and somewhat intervention that i manage to get a place in SIM. Because while contemplating to sign up to study at SIM, i looked through everything except the commencement of my course. So i took my own sweet time deciding when to sign up. Because the 18th intake which closes on the 10th of march(today) and their course will start in april, and the 19th intake which closes on the 31st of march would start their course in july. So thank God, my mummy asked me to check when would i start my course. By the time i realised that the dateline was today, i was feeling super ______.

So i rushed down to get my passport size photo taken at bedok, ok i look ultra retarded in that lah:( Then my mom drove me down to clementi to hand in the form and pay for the registration fee. Thank God for my mum, if not i wouldn't know what to do:) So thank God we managed to get everything done by today:)

Ok i'm gonna upload the pictures we took at maddy's house on friday:) HAHA have fun viewing them!

2007-03-08T14:06:00.000-08:00

I give You praise for You deserve it
I give You praise for what You've done
I give You praise for You are able
I'll give You praise 'til I overcome
I give You praise when the sun is shining
I give You praise in the dark of night
I give You praise when the battle rages
I give You praise 'til it works out right:)

2007-03-07T00:42:00.000-08:00

Despite me not qualifying into any school.
i just want to thank God no matter what:)
I recognize that You are God over my life and my life is still in Your loving hands.
So i'm not worrying cause i know You've got my life planned out:)

p/s a huge thank you to those who messaged and being there, i really appreciate it lots. Sorry that i didn't reply some of you guys cause i wanted to be alone:) Neways i really thank God for you guys. Words can never express how much you guys/girls mean to me. hug

2007-03-06T01:40:00.000-08:00

hello:)

JAE results would be coming out tmr, ugh. No matter what the result will be, i'm sure God has His plans for me:) Anyways i helped out basc with maddy and mish today.

As usual, i helped to look after one of the triplets, Annabel. Goodness, she loves to wonder around and touch everything in the classroom. So like when they were having lessons, i've got to carry her instead of letting her run around cause it's very distracting to the rest of the kiddos.She would struggle/kick/cry when i'm carrying her. Haha seriously, many times she would kick me accidently cause she will struggle for me to let go of her. Haha she's really an interesting child lah. Because the moment i put her down on the floor to run around, she'll keep quiet and walk/run around as usual. Haha oh wells

So by the time it was for them to go home, i was so tired out. Mish, maddy and myself went to yong ta fu for lunch:) And the china man who was working there tried to talk to mish. HAHA he's such a werido lah. I mean, he tried to talk to us and we were like what is wrong with him? Haha yucks lah. So after eating, maddy had to go for some test at newtown. I was kinda craving for desserts, so mish gladly accompanied me to siglap's dessert corner:) Haha so we bascially just hung out there.

Anyways back to tomorrow, i'm getting the butterflies in the tummy feeling already. Haha but whatever it is, i know God's in control:)

I know i sould uber silly, but i'm so sad because the show that i'm watching has ended. Haha somehow i would always feel so sad when something has ended. Well, i guess that's me for you:) I recorded the last episode and as silly as it sounds, i would keep re-watching that particular episode and kept wishing that it wouldn't end:( Oh yes i'm also in love with one of the character in the drama. He is super duper hot lah:)Oh my, i'm watching a show on scv. And guess who's on it? haha william hung. Haha he can't act for nuts lah. I wonder why did they even engage him to be part of the show? Haha i guess probably it is because of all the publicity he got when he was in american idol.

Alrighty, got to go now:) Take care all! loveee

my sweetie pies:)

2007-03-05T01:14:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone:)

Tomorrow i'll be helping out at BASC and i so can't wait:) Ok lah i feel myself repeating what i usually say. But seriously, i think working with young children is the most fulfilling thing. Maybe it's their genuine love for you? Haha especially when each kid is different and you gotta take time to let them get to know you better. That is when they start accepting you and loving you.

Haha like that day i was helping out at joy class(theirs is the youngest of the batch), and there was this particular girl called Liz. Throughout playtime, i just played/talked with her, though she didn't exactly reply me when i asked her questions etc. But her smiles just seem to answer any and every question. Haha so after playtime, we were bringing them to the little garden to find ants cause they were learning the letter 'A' and we were finding objects starting with the letter "A". While walking down the stairs, she suddenly looked back and asked for "jie jie". Haha it was like awwww:) Because i was helping the other kiddos at the back, she didn't see me. But that little gesture meant so much to me.

Usually i would think that i would be the one looking out for the kiddos. But what Liz did just surprises me. Haha don't underestimate kids:) i love being around kids maybe because they don't complicate things like adults do? Haha ok enough of kids!

The YM comm started their sunday mornings bible study:) So i went to church about 8.50am because the bible study starts at 9am. So we had bible study for probably about an hour. After bible study, we went up for service. Worship was awesome:) Somehow seeing young children/people worshipping God makes my heart melt big time. Haha i feel like a drama queen lah, but i started crying when i saw Abel doing the flagging. It's really awesome to see young kids/people worshipping God:) Now i really understand why am i in the YM ministry:) i love these kids! Regardless what people say of YM, i still love them the same and i still do believe in each of them:)

Anyways i didn't go for dance today because i had some family gathering at my grandparent's place. I accompanied my cousins to play soccer. Haha well in actual fact, i just helped to babysit their valuables. Haha but it was fun lah to see them playing together all:) The people whom i grew up with. Haha

Ok what my daddy said somehow made me super excited yet sad. Because my aunty would be going to France in 2 weeks time for business and she asked my mummy and myself along. HAHA so exciting right? I can't have the best of both worlds, so my dad asked me to choose between driver's license and the trip to France. Cause he said that he would agree to pay for one of my options. DARN IT lah. Haha i can't make up my mind:( France or driver's license? maybe i should just pray about it. haa

Alrights i should go sleep soon because i so do not want to be late tomorrow:) take care!

p/s i don't think my heart's ready for this yet.
ugh

2007-03-03T04:28:00.000-08:00

Hello world:)

I just applied some facial mask, so i can't talk and the only thing that i could probably do is to blog. Haha i think i look real scary cause of all the stuffs that is on my face. Haha my face is too stiff to even smile, so fun. Haha

I'm sorry if what i'm gonna blog about is all over the place. Haha cause i'm in quite a random mode now. So please bear with me if you intend to read:)

Anyways i met vanessa and mish for dinner at siglap's hongkong cafe. The food's not bad i must say:) Just by looking at the menu, i feel like ordering alot of things lah. Haha but i just settled for one main dish and their milk tea cause we didn't really have time to eat cause we were suppose to go for pentacost:)

So we were kinda late for pentacost cos mish came a little later and many of you might already know, she eats real slowly. Haha so we reached church about 8.30pm like that. After pentacost, we went to simpang to eat supper. Darn it lah, i'm putting on weight. Haha i must start running! Haha anyways i can't wait for next week to come lah:) I can get to see the lovelies at BASC and to go tanning with maddy and probably mish cause probably we are the only freebirds around now:) Some girlfriend time;)

I'm still praying/deciding if i should go for the karens mission trip this march. Haha how God? speak to me can? Haha anyways i've been quite busy with some stuffs regarding the YM, and i'm quite stressed out about it. Haha quite a heavy responsibility lah. Well, maybe when the time is ripe, i will blog about it:)

Oh yes i was really quite pissed off by some idiotic fella today. Shall do him a favour and not name him out. He was so so rude and i tell you, it was such a major turn off lah! ugh don't come running to me when something happens or maybe when you realise that you have no one to talk to, don't come running back to me cause i would gladly kick you on your donkey arse. I mean, have i done anything to be treated this way? If i'm not wrong, i was there when you needed someone to talk to. I sacrificed some of my time when we were closer then just to talk to you on the phone because you were bored/upset/blah blah blah. So now when you have other friends, i become invisible. *wooo i'm invisibleeeeeee, be afraid. VERY afraid. HAHA* sickening fella.

Well honey, you better pray real hard that this doesn't happen to you. Because you will reap what you sow and if it does happen to you. Don't come all emo on me sweetie, cos i was swat you away like a housefly with my electric fly swatter;) Haha

Ugh my posting result is coming out next tuesday. I'm not exact feeling that afraid though cause i know that no matter what God will make a way:) and He has plans to prosper and not to harm me. Haha though sometimes His plans for us are not what we want, so we think that it's the end of the road. Haha i need to change my mentality!

By the way, talking about results. The jc people got back their A level results today:) Well, to those who didn't do as well as they thought that they would. Don't worry about it cause God will definitely make a way:) In God we trust yes? For those who did well, good on you:)

Alrighty i shall go already cause my brother is annoying me with so many questions. Haha i love him lah. Oh yes we fought quite badly late last night. Until my maid woke up from her beauty sleep. Haha and the funny thing is that both of us were pissed with each other. But when he was about to sleep, he just said his usual goodnight and i just answered him with my usual goodnight. Haha quite funny lah, cos one moment we were fighting and the other, we were wishing one another goodnight. Ok i know, i'm getting lame:) goodnight everyone and stay safe:) love

You will never walk alone
As long as you have faith
Jesus will be right beside you all the way
You may feel you're far from home
But home is where He is
And
He'll be there down every road
You will never walk alone

2007-03-01T17:03:00.000-08:00

Hello world:)

I didnt do much today except to stay home and rot my life away. Haha the weather is so nice to sleep in the whole day. Well maybe thats what I'm going to do before getting my ever-so-lazy bum off to church for YM comm meeting later.

Anyways I was talking on the phone last night and I found out some stuffs! HAHA oh my, to you know how:) I'm real happy for you and I do hope that things would work out. Hug

Well mish and myself continued talking till about 4am then we went to bed. Before I go on, MAY NG QIU PING and MICHELLE LAM TSE MIN where are the both of you lah? Haha I missed you girls like nuts, lets hang out real soon oki? Remember the 17th? It has been a long time since we last had one, so can we please please hang out soon?

Haha alright i want to go and take a little nap first:) Yea lah i know i've become a pig. Haha well, it is the year of the pig anyways. HAHA loveeeee

shut up.

2007-02-28T13:16:00.000-08:00

hello:)

Something came by the post yesterday and i was super excited when i first received it. Haha and it was my DBS iB secure device:) Haha when i first opened it, somehow i felt so adult lah. Haha the main reason why i got it was because i was somewhat "determined" to shop more online, so instead of bugging my dad to help me do money transfers, i could do it myself:) Haha so online shopping sprees, HERE I COMEEEEE! Haha

Anyways i helped out at basc yesterday:) oh and in the joy class, there was this triplets lah. Super cute lah they:) The triplets consisted of 1 boy and 2 girls. The both girls kept crying, crying, crying and crying. Haha but the boy mixed well with the other kiddos:) It was a real madhouse yesterday, cries could be heard from everywhere in the basc hall i tell you. Haha i shuffled between joy and peace class. There was this particular girl in peace class who kept crying too. Haha so i carried her for a while, within that few minutes my t-shirt was soaked with her tears. Haha i guess kids are like that for the first few days in an new environment.

So by the time where the clock hit 12pm. I was already so drained out. So i went home cause there was nothing for me to do anyways. So i watched a little bit of television and slept. Then i met the rest at town at about 7pm:) we walked, ate and hung out:) Haha oh oh! i bought a pair of shoes from flash&splash for only $20 bucks. The brand's called Galilee, some skater brand lah. Haha but i think it was really really worth it:)

Alrighty i want to go eat my lunch already, maybe i shall blog more tonight or something. Haha take care all:)

you'll never walk alone

2007-02-27T00:05:00.000-08:00

hello world:)

I just came back from dinner with Aunty Aye Lan, Sarah lin and mishuelle. We ate at siglap's cafe cartel:) It was fun and inspiring to hang out with Aunty Aye Lan. Haha all i can say is that i truly enjoy tonight's dinner date with them:) we talked about lots of stuffs and i'm glad that we did cause it somewhat changed something in me:)

Anyways i stayed home the whole day cause i wasn't feeling too well. Haha the best thing is that, each time i sleep in, there will be alot of people calling/messenging me on my handphone. Haha oh wells:) the best thing was that gaius called me at 7am this morning and asked me to go the the bus stop opposite church to check if his wallet was still there. Because on sunday night, gaius, mish and myself stayed at the bus stop to talk about stuffs and he thinks that he might have left his wallet there. Haha honestly i couldn't care less on how i looked cos right after he called me, i just went to change into a teeshirt, combed my hair and just went to the bus stop. HAHA without my brushing my teeth etc. I still can't believe that i went out of my house without even brushing my teeth lah.

But anyways, God's hand of favour is really upon gaius life man. Haha dude, you better thank God! cause when i went to the bus stop, his wallet fell to the behind of the seats at the bus stop. So no one really saw it and i quickly picked up his wallet and rush back home to continue sleeping:) Haha so i went back to sleep till about 2pm? Then gaius came at about 3pm to collect his wallet. That silly boy ah. Haha oh wells, my darling son:)

Ok i want to go watch my show already. Take care all:) tmr is a long day ahead:) i'll be helping out at the basc in the morning and i'll be meeting the rest at town tmr. So yup:) love ya all!

Jesus i'm not giving this up:)

2007-02-25T01:41:00.000-08:00

hello world:)

as usual, the weekends are always such a busy one for me and by the end of the day, i'm so drained out. Anyways leaders meeting was such a good one today and i truly enjoyed myself:) Gracie, im not sure if you're reading this, but the set up was good! i loved the set up, so please don't think that it's hideous or anything oki:) love you dear!

I'm so addicted to online shopping sprees lah. Darn it! Haha so many things are tempting me like crazy. Ugh, one thing i hate most about online shopping is the stupid convertion rates. Esp when you convert USD to SD, it just sucks like crap lah. It makes you don't feel like getting that particular item already:( Oh wells!

Oh yes i brought my sister for YM service today. Haha but i feel a little bad cause i was running around doing stuffs for YM and thus i was all around the place, so i kinda left her alone:( haha and she was so funny lah, cause i went to bring down the communion stuffs when the service was still on, and so before i knew it service ended while i was busy washing the communion stuffs. I ran up to look for my sister just in case she cries or something? HAHA ok that was rubbish lah. And i found a note in my bag and i thought it was pretty funny and decided to share it with you guys. Haha

I have been kidnapped by Jie Jie Sarah!
Just kidding! I am going home first!
Haha=)

-Kristie

Haha my sister's funny lah:) so after that, i went up for YA service. Worship was awesome lah:) What rach preached today was really awesome too! Haha so after YA, we went to beer garden for dinner:) I decided to walk back instead of getting a lift from meredith's daddy cos i wanted to spend some time alone etc. But the walk back was good lah:)

Alrights i better go off soon bcos i want to watch television! OH YES mish got back her line! WOOHOO:) ok lah i shall apologise one more time. I'm so sorry for being late yesterday:( Haha cause i was supposed to meet mish at tampines at about 11.30am, but somehow i woke up at 11.30am! HAHA and i didn't know how to contact her cause of line. And somemore the night before we were talking on the phone and i told her that she better not be late! Haha i'm sorry dear. Haha i guess that made up for the times where i had to wait patiently for you while you were:
1. late
or
2. shopping.(she really has a problem in deciding between 2 tops) haha

but regardless whatever, you know that i love you:) Haha ok i really really got to go now, take care all:) and since it has been a long time since i posted some pictures on my blog, here is one that always makes my day regardless what happens:)

my darling boy!

2007-02-24T02:31:00.000-08:00

you know what?

no amount of explainations or sorrys would ever make me feel better. well maybe this might make you feel better because i don't really care about it anymore. Do what you really like/want, cause it's really none of my business:)

2007-02-22T22:45:00.000-08:00

hello world

i haven't been feeling well for the past few days:( so i stayed home instead of going out, and the only thing that made me happy is online shopping sprees:) Haha i gave in to temptation and ordered some stuffs online. Haha i can't wait for all the stuffs to arrive. lalalalallala:)

i've been staying home watching tv all day. Haha i watched The baby-sitters club on HBO family just now:) Haha it's quite cool. Cos i was pretty addicted to the baby-sitters club book series when i was much younger:)

Anyways i think it's gonna be a real busy day tmr. Cause the dance team is going to perform at choo jiat cc and even though i won't be dancing but i will be helping the girls with their hair and make up:) and after their performace i might meet sarah or maybe go home cause my mummy's cell group would be coming over and i somewhat got to show my face:) Haha

ok got to go now:) Take care all! have an awesome weekend.

2007-02-21T21:40:00.000-08:00

it sucks being sick.

you got me twisted.

2007-02-21T02:40:00.000-08:00

Eh happy lunar new year all:)

Haha ok lah i admit that i feel super weird wishing people happy new year in feb? Haha 2 months have already passed and here we are wishing one another happy new year. Ah wells, the chinese. Ok i shall blog a little on what happened these few days alright? it's pretty boring lah, so leave if you're not in the mood to read or something.

reunion dinner
All my relatives came to my house for reunion dinner. And yes miss regina chua, we catered in food because my mother was lazy to cook. Haha anyways i did enjoy the company of my relatives especially my cousins:) we played taboo and it was quite fun! Haha while the rest of the adults were gambling. Haha so they stayed at my house till about 11.3o pm then some of them left cause of the young kiddos:) my other cousins stayed a little while more and so they played bridge etc.

day 1 of chinese new year
I went for service in the morning. Haha i was the earliest one in my cell to arrive. The whole row of seats were empty except mine. I felt so____. Anyways thank God that May came:) I think she came a little late and that's why she didn't join me in the front, but she came over to sit with me together in the front. Haha loner no more:) Well, i thought the rest were late or something cause they didn't msg us whether they were coming anot. But guess i was wrong, it was only may and myself that were present. Oh wells shall not say much about it anymore. After church, i helped may to polish her nails:) then i went home and got ready for visitng.

As usual, my family was the earliest to arrive at my grandparent's place. Ugh i just don't get it why my dad loves to rush us to get ready etc and be the first to arrive. Haha but i guess that's the way my dad is:) Soon after, my relatives started to arrive and soon the whole family was there. My grandparent's place is pretty small for such a huge family, so the kiddos were getting real bored cause they have no space to run/play. Haha so my aunty and uncle drove all the young kids to their place first while the rest of the adults continued to hang out at my grandparent's place. My dad decided to bring us home to take a nap first cause all of us were pretty tired out already. So we took a nice nap and shower before making our way down to our aunty and uncle's place at tanah merah:)

My cousin brought his darling girlfriend along. Ugh i so so so so hate(ok lah maybe hate's a little strong, BUT something along that lines lah) her! Haha my mum and myself were kinda bitching about her. Haha we both agreed that she is so rude lah. Ok here it goes, my mum was nice enough to prepare a red packet for her and she didn't thank my mum or wish her happy new year or something. Haha i was telling my mummy to take that freaking ang bao back! HAHA Ugh well another incident which sparked off my whole i-hate-her kinda thing was when my cousin brought her along for one of our family functions early this year. It was on new years day, cause it was my daddy's 50th birthday. We had a massive family function-cum-celebration at my place and he brought her along. The moment she came in, she didn't greet any of my relatives or my parents lah. It's not that bad if she didn't greet my other relatives, BUT MY PARENTS? Haha ok listen me out before you guys think that i'm some unreasonable _______. Haha hello! it was my daddy's birthday and we were the host of the function, shouldn't you have some manners to say hello or smile to acknowledge our presence? The whole night she just stood with my cousin with her oh-so-black face. Ugh major turn off, i seriously don't understand what my cousin sees in her. Well i would like to see how long can they actually last.

Haha alright i shall stop wasting my time by blogging about her all. Well after the dinner, some of my aunties and myself had some "girlfriend" time. Haha we did the usual girly stuffs like polishing of nails etc:) After having nicely painted nails, we went to play mahjong:) HAHA but we only played for a little while because the adults wanted to leave already cause they were tired. Haha oh yes! while having our dinner, the whole house had a blackout. Haha it was quite exciting lah. Haha so many of us were in the house where everything was so dark. My aunty immediately called the P.U.B i think? Haha and she scolded the guy upside down, i wanted to tell her: chill woman! Haha

day 2 of chinese new year
I went to my uncle's place at jurong for visitation:) Oh yes and my family were the first to arrive again lah. Haha i think God is teaching us something on patience or something. My daddy didn't come along with us to visit my maternal grandma because he had to go to work:( So we had our lunch there and waited for the rest to come. I think we reached at my uncle's place about 12pm like that and the rest came only at 3pm. Haha we waited for them for like 3 whole hours! Haha but it was fun to see my cousins again. It has been a long time since i last saw audrey lah:) that silly girl kept bugging me not to go to maddy's house in the evening. Haha i love her lah. My childhood companion:) Even though i have another cousin who is my age etc and surprisingly i'm not that close to her instead i'm closer to miss audrey cheng:) maybe it's because we grew up together in the same primary school, had constant stayovers at my place, going out together and having real stupid little fights that somehow brought us much closer:) Haha okok back to new year before this entry becomes an entry of my life or something. HAHA

Well i didn't do much at my uncle's place except to play cards and watch tv. Haha oh yes i got to meet audrey's older sister's boyfriend. He is such a nice guy lah:) Haha maybe because he was nice to us by returning our "bets" when we were bankrupt all. HAHA well we played blackjack for a few rounds then i went to watch tv with my cousin. My goodness, the whole afternoon i was watching taiwnese shows/programs lah. Haha it is so unlike me and i still can't believe that i did that. Haha i must stay loyal to my hongkong serial dramas! Repent coral, repent:) HAHA

Before i knew it, it was already 7pm. So i left my uncle's place by m-y-s-e-l-f and took a bus from his place to lakeside mrt station. Haha i'm quite proud of myself because i didn't get lost or something:) Haha to me, being in the west is akin to being in malaysia or something. Haha no offence to anyone who lives in the west:) I was supposed to meet mish at cityhall but somehow some things happened. I met her at maddy's place instead. Mish and myself were the first two who arrived at her place. We ate and played mahjong for a while, then isaac came:) we played a few rounds of mahjong with him, then jossie came. About 12 plus yingchuan and sean lee came:)

While sean lee, yingchuan, mish and maddy played bridge. Isaac, jossie, marcus(maddy's younger brother) played blackjack:) Haha we used melon seeds as our "bets" and it was honestly quite fun! Haha so we kinda asked the rest to join us and we had more melon seeds! Haha so maddy's mother's friends left about 2am, we took the chance to play our long awaited mahjong, cause they were playing it and we had no choice but to play card games. Haha we played a few rounds and about 5am like that they decided to watch movie. Haha so we watched the movie _______. Haha the movie ended about 6 am and the rest continued to play mahjong till about 7am like that. Then we went a hawker centre near maddy's place for breakfast. Haha i think cause of the lack of sleep, i felt a little high already. So while eating breakfast, we talked lotsa rubbish. Haha but it was fun lah and i quote: beh ho ji puay. Haha inside joke. So we talked and hung around till 8.30am and i reached home about 9am. Haha

day 3 of chinese new year
The moment i got home i hit the sheets. Haha i slept till about 2pm cause some people msged me and i was awaken by my phone. So i kinda msged bit here and there and drift in and out of sleep:) I got ready to leave my house by 4pm and met maddy and may at tanah merah mrt station at about 5pm. We took a bus down together to pastor mark's place:) When we got there, we just sat around, played cards and eat. To cut the very long story short, we ended at about 10.30pm. But we felt that, we still wanted to hung out more. We ended up having supper at simpang:) It was really fun lah. Haha we had really "exciting" conversations about brocollis etc. HAHA so mish, maddy, brendon and myself shared a cab back and i got home at about 12.45am like that? Haha i love you guys lah. You know who you are;)

So basically that's how i spent my lunar new year:) Haha i feel so busy running around these few days:) But it has been pure joy to hang around with them though:) To the people whom we have been hanging out quite often lately, lets do it again! Haha i love the late nights:) Alrights i think i should end here! take care people:) oh yes and enjoy your remaining 12 more days of the lunar new year!

I feel betrayed
and it still hurts badly.

2007-02-17T14:15:00.000-08:00

I hate the way you hide things from me. Imagine how it feels like to find out stuff about someone whom you are darn close with, from other people? Ok fine, go ahead and hide your _______ from me. I don't give a crap anymore. I feel disappointed in you, because i seriously think that you are different from the rest. But guess i was wrong.

ugh

Sometimes i really do feel like moving away. I hate being here. Often i always think to myself that i might have gotten over the whole thing already. But somehow, based on what i'm feeling now, i guess i'm wrong.

Did i do anything wrong to be treated this way? the reason on why i do not want to give it another go is because i'm darn afraid that history might repeat itself. I know myself. I give so much of myself into a relationship/friendship, and at the end of the day things happen and i have to just resign to this statement: people do fail you. That's the main reason why i'm afriad. So much effort being put in, and if things do happen, i just have to console myself with people do fail you.

Sometimes i just want to stay at home to watch tv and pig out the whole day. Oh wells, reunion dinners at my house tonight. I must be happy.

happy new year all

2007-02-15T08:55:00.000-08:00

hello world:)

Last night's valentine's day party was good:) though there weren't much decoration, but it was still nice:) thank God that the weather was really good. Haha my hair was flying everywhere as usual. Haha we ended about 10pm then we kinda helped to clear the stuffs. After everything, mish and myself were pretty bored to we decided to go to our favourite place to sit around and talk. The bus stop:) Haha it's really quite fun to sit at the bus stop in the middle of the night to talk and stare at every car that drove pass.

Somehow the bus stop seem to hold a "special" place in our hearts. Haha cause the bus stop is the place where we would whine to each other about stuffs(HAHA), talk rubbish, disturb each other etc. The bus stop is that specialllllll ok? HAHA ok i'm being a drama mama here:)

Ok lets see what i did today:) roar

I stayed home the whole day doing much but just watching tv shows. Haha i was watching the True Hollywood Story on anna nicole smith. Her life's pretty sad lah. Every detail of her life seems to be under the scrutiny of the public and the media. Well i guess maybe, thats the price you got to pay for being a hollywood star or something.

I went for YM comm meeting just now. When we started the meeting, it was just lydia, lucas, mish and myself at the boardroom praying. Haha though it was kind of odd because it was just the few of us, but i guess the time spent praying was good:) Then after a while, aunty aye lan and sarah lin came.

I'm so excited about tmr's trip to sentosa:) HAHA but i got to help out at basc tmr cause aunty linda needed some help. I'm quite excited in meeting the kids again, it has been a long time since i last saw them:) Oh yes! this was the sms conversation i had with aunty linda and i couldn't stop laughing:)

aunty linda: Hi coral, you able to help out from 9.30am to about 10.45am tmr?

myself: hello aunty linda:) yea sure!

aunty linda: Thanks dear... cos roslyn is having practicum... tester around and just afraid my class ah beng, ah seng and cry baby will create problems so need extra pair of hands to help out.

haha after reading the last msg, i couldn't stop laughing to myself:) i miss those children. What saddens me most is that the bunch that i love so dearly had already graduated:( Oh wells i really hate changes. (yes yes, here i go again) There are things which i really want to change about myself. Example: i hate the way i get so emotionally attached with someone or something and suddenly some things happen. Then i have to learn to let go. Ugh oh wells

oh yes hello clarence if you're reading this:) haha

Ok lah enough of all these. Haha got to pack my stuffs for tmr! love you guys loads:) oh yes one last thing. HERE I COME SENTOSA! :)

sometimes...

2007-02-14T03:25:00.000-08:00

hello world

I thought of just blogging a little before i get my butt off the sofa to:
1. read my bible
2. polish my nails
3. sleep

I went to NP to do my DAE thing. The journey there was a killer, but thank God for my memoirs of a geisha book and ipod:) They kept me company for a good 1 hour? Oh yes! i saw this really good-looking guy on the bus and man, he is such a gentleman lah. Haha ok it might be not some big deal, but i guess those of you who actually know me. I have a thing for gentlemanly guys:) Haha ok lah it's really really nothing big, but i thought by him letting me get off the bus first was a nice thing.

Ok anyways, I was feeling quite lost as i was waiting for the free shuttle to NP from clementi interchange. Somehow i was feeling helpless and vulnerable. Haha because probably i didn't know where i was and i was all alone. The best part was, i was the only one in the 32 seater bus? I was kinda freaked out because i thought that probably i took the wrong bus or something. Haha my mind just started wondering about silly and ridiculous things. That's me for you:)

After making my way down to NP and i was about to register via DAE. The guy at the counter told me that actually i need not apply via DAE but i could apply for the course by JPSAE and i could do it at home. Haha the moment i heard it, i was like WHAT THE _______. Haha so i went to meet my brother at dover mrt cause we made plans to meet up to head down to town.

We shopped quite a bit today at town and i paid for ALL the stuffs that he bought:) Haha while shopping with him, i feel like a freaking mother/big sister. Haha i know i am, but i felt it even more? Because i had to tell him whats nice/whats not/whats ridiculously expensive etc. Ok i shall not talk more about shopping because this reminds me that i've spent a bomb today. UGH

Ahhhh yes! I just remembered, happy valentine's day all:) HAHA tmr i'll be at church because the YA's are having some Valentine's day dinner thingy and i'll be helping out. Actually... (ok i know this might sound _____) but i quite enjoy being single:) HAHA ok this might be a statement that i make when i'm happy. Haha but when i start feeling "lonely", i might just go into the i-hate-being-single mode. Till then, i'm quite happy being single now:) I react badly to changes and committment. Haha so i guess i'll keep away from the matters of the heart for now.

What i'm looking for is that special friend. Someone whom: i can trust/be very comfortable with/loyal/ look out emotionally and spiritually and maybe come 3 years down the road, then maybe that friendship could turn to something else:)

Ok enough of all these nonsense. Haha i can't wait for friday! Finally we are heading down to sentosa:) I pray that there wouldn't be jam packed with people cause i guess most of the crowd would be at town, doing some last minute lunar new year shopping. Haha alrighty better go now!

My nail polish is screaming my name:)

It's been so long,
but I can't seem to...
oh wells

2007-02-12T09:31:00.000-08:00

hello world

Today was quite alright i guess. I met mish to go shopping for the lunar new year and also some stuffs for the valentine's day party. Well i guess today's shopping for pretty fruitful because i managed to buy:
1. 2 tops from far east
2. 1 pair of shorts from topshop
3. 1 pair of wedges from far east

Anyways i'm so tired cause of all the endless walking/shopping around town and also because of dance yesterday. But all is good:) Btw i'm watching this programme called "young&dangerous", it's some taiwanese variety show, and my goodness there is particular taiwanese woman on the show who is so annoying lah. Haha cause they were supposed to play games etc, then she kept screaming non stop and not doing anything. Haha as mr juraimy would say "chao bimbo". HAHA

I might be going down to NP alone tmr cause i need to submit the DAE form, i shall bug my brother to go down with me. Haha anyways i feel quite sad for my brother. Because i called him just now while i was at town and he sounded sick. So when i got home i asked him if he was ok because he didn't sound ok. Then my mum said that he was sad all because he couldn't appeal to the JC that he wanted and he might not be able to qualify into the course that he wanted, if im not wrong it's some aerospace engineering course. Sigh poor thing, but boy if you reading this, please remember what i told you earlier. God will make a way, where there seems to be no way:) Place your trust in Him yes?

Alrights i got to go now. Take care all

once bitten, twice shy

2007-02-11T09:32:00.001-08:00

Hello all

Thought i should blog a little to show that i'm alive and kicking. Thank you to those who called and messaged me on the day where O level results were released. I'm very sorry that i didn't pick up your call or reply your messages via sms or msn. But i just want to say that i appreciated it a whole lot. Also, thank you to those who stood by me. It showed me what friends were really for, after going through a tough and painful lesson on "friends".

And don't worry, i still believe that God has a plan for me:) The disappointment in myself is just overwhelming lah. After "what has happened", alot of issues resurfaced in my mind. Oh wells, i have come to a conclusion that: people do fail you. Haha despite whether you mean alot to them and blah blah blah. Like what i always remind myself, expectation kills.

Got to go now. Take care all

and so i left

2007-02-07T03:52:00.000-08:00

:(

you got me twisted

2007-02-04T09:15:00.000-08:00

hello all

I came back from dance not too long ago. Thank God i made it just in time to watch the soccer match between singapore and thailand:) And somehow the patriotism in me just arose. Haha but i'm very glad that singapore's young lions actually won:) I was quite pissed off at certain parts of the game. One fine example, i didn't see any sportsmanship in the game. Haha oh wells, shall not elaborate further cause... ya

Anyways i'm quite confused and disappointed in myself. Sigh like i really don't know what i really want. I don't get it why do i get disappointed in things where are so insignificant to me.. well maybe they are? ugh i hate when i get confused about stuffs, i can't really think properly. Oh wells i have managed to built a wall around myself in order not to get hurt, that's why i find it so hard to be myself now.

There are so many things going on in my mind now. Quite a few issues to sort out and think it through. So God please help? Haha it's nothing majorly big but it's something where it would somehow affect me. So yupp

Alrights got to go now:) i'm sure that next week would be a good one! take care all:)

i wish things weren't the way it is now
:(

2007-02-02T14:57:00.000-08:00

hello all:)

I met sarah lin and mish to go town yesterday. We ate subway for lunch and we kinda hanged out for abit. After that we walked around far east, i wanted to get wedges, but sadly, there wasn't any pair that caught my eye:( oh wells

After walking, i met my mummy cause we both wanted to cut our hair and etc. Oh yes i highlighted my hair and i'm so not satisfied with the outcome. I was pretty disappointed with it lah:( Ugh ok i'm gonna on and on about my hair. Haha i so didn't want to do a base colour for my hair, i just wanted to highlight my hair. But the hairdresser wanted me to do a basecoat and blah blah blah. So he just highlighted the top part of my head and the bottom part of my hair has no highlights. Like what the___. Because he claims that the new highlights that i wanted is different colour from the previous one that i did, so in order for it to look "normal" he has to use a basecoat to blend my previous hightlights. BUT, now all my previous highlights are goneee. UGH

Oh wells, whats done is done:( i don't even feel like stepping out of my house lah. Haha ok now i sound like some drama mama! Ok off to other things, because if not this whole entry would be about my hair. How exciting;) HAHA

Anyways i was just looking through some stuffs and i can't exactly understand how people can get in and out of a relationship so quickly and into another relationship again. Haha it just scares me lah. Oh wells

Alrights i wanna go watch television already:) Take care all! I might blog a little more later if i'm bored or something. HAHA

2007-01-31T20:47:00.001-08:00

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

2007-01-31T02:15:00.000-08:00

hello all:)

Today was quite productive cause i went out instead of bumming around at home with nothing to do. Haha anyways the plan was to meet at plaza singapura at 6.30pm. But as usual, i was late. Hee

I met mish, adde, isaac, yingchuan, bertrand and aiken about 7pm then we went carls jr for dinner. Haha ok i know i sound like some country pumkin, but it was my first time at carls jr and it was not bad:) Haha their burgers are really monsters. Haha adde, mish and myself shared the meal. Haha oh yes may came to meet us too:) After eating we went to buy tickets for the movie, Gridiron Gang:) then mish, adde and myself went to bodyshop to get some stuffs. We went back to meet the rest before going in for the movie, oh yes then gaius and joseph came along.

Anyways, i love love love the show lah. Though it was a little draggy, but it was motivational. Haha i wouldn't mind watching it again!

By the time the movie was over, it was around 10pm already. So we went back after that:) Ok seriously i think msn hates me lah:( it keeps signing me out of msn and it's pissing me off. Ugh msn's so screwed lah.

I know this is pretty random, but my daddy's so cute lah. Cause my Ipod video's being an idiot. So i kinda chucked it aside and have been hogging my daddy's vision M:) Haha so he started bugging me to return him the vision M cause he was complaining that he's very bored without espcially during his lunch time. Haha so i kinda lent him the ipod video and he helped me fixed it:) my daddy is so cute lah. Haha

Somehow i really thank God for my family. I know that every family isn't perfect, including mine. But i've learnt to love them the way they are. Though many times, my siblings would piss me off etc, but nevertheless i really do love them very much:) Haha even my maid becomes so part of my family and i cannot really imagine life without her. Haha i think i better stop before i can go on and on in this whole i-love-my-family speech.

Alrights i better go already before i talk rubbish. Haha take care all:)

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

2007-01-29T01:35:00.000-08:00

hello world:)

i know that this is pretty random, but i just gotta blog about this. Haha it's 1.16am now and i just heard someone shouting outside my house, asking where is the 24hour macs. HAHA like i know dude!

Service today was awesome:) thumbs up Pastor Jonathan! Haa i was really impacted by what he shared all. Awesome job!

Anyways i've been eating like mad for these pass few days that it scares me. Haha and my moods have been all over the place. Oh yes, we had physical conditioning at dance today. I felt super unfit, probably due to the working lifestyle? HAHA ok that was just an excuse. But honestly ah, today just reminded me how unfit i was:( I am determined to go running. Haha i've been wanting to go running for the past few weeks, but each time i want to go running, my butt would feel extra heavy and it wouldn't leave my sofa. HAHA so yea

To be honest, i was pretty pissed off by some stuffs today. Somehow i just can't understand why some people function that way. Haha what in the world are they even thinking, or do they have brains to begin with. Ok i shall be nice and spare you guys the agony of having to read about me complaining. Haha ok off to happier things!

I'm so glad that i'm no longer working. Haha i truly enjoy waking up at like 1pm and watch television the whole dayyyyyy. Haha it feels super good:) Darn it, this reminds me that my O level math results are coming out pretty soon. UGHHHHH

Ok i want to go sleep already cause i slept so late last night and had to wake up early for CE test today, which i didn't even take lah. Haha take care all and have an awsome and victorious week ahead! loveeeeee

a little shout out to may:
hello there sweetie:) I know you'll be reading this somehow! I just want to say that whatever you're going through, i'll be praying and supporting you through it okie? I know you can get through this cause you are strong. And seriously, it hurts me real bad to see you being upset. Anyways just holler if you need anyone. I love you dear!

you just don't seem to understand me.

2007-01-27T01:53:00.000-08:00

hello world:)

I am so tired lah. I met joseph and mish at town today cause mr choo wanted to go shopping. So being the nice girls that mish and myself are, we decided to go follow him. Haha i'm so proud of myself! haha cause i didn't buy anything:) We walked from taka to fareast. After much walking, we decided to go starbucks to hang out. I better blog about this, if not joseph would be injustified. HAHA mr joseph choo bought mish and myself coffee. HAHA thanks!

Oh yes shenna came to meet us:) So we hung out till about 9pm plus. Then i went to church to meet vanessa all to go simpang to eat. It has been a long time since i went to simpang and i missed the food:) Haha so i ate one cheese prata and one bomb! Oh my it was oh-so-good:) and yes the company was good too!

I guess that was what happened today. I can't wait for my ten brothers show to start. Haha it's some hongkong serial drama:) I'm addicted to hongkong serial dramas lah. Haha i can stay home and watch hongkong serial dramas from morning to night.... oh wait! Haha i've been doing that for the pass few days:) HEE

I better go now cause my show is starting pretty soon:) It's nice to sip on cup of hot chocolate in this cold weather and watching hongkong serial drama! haha maybe that's what i'm going to do now:) Take care all!

i hate it when it's that time of the month.
Ugh

2007-01-23T10:00:00.000-08:00

hello world:)

Ok i'm feeling much better now. Thank you to those who actually cared. Anyways i went shopping today with mish and may:) Ok this is what i actually bought:
1. crocs
2. slippers
3. one topshop top
4. nail polish
Ehh i guess that's about it:) I finally got to eat peper lunch. Haha it was my very first time eating pepper lunch and i thought it was super yummy. Oh yea before dinner, we visited ben and jossie choo! Haha and we met rachy along the way cause she was there to visit them too.

After dinner, we went to topshop to shop around a little more. Jossie met us and we all went home together and in the bus, we met ben choo and rachy. Haha such a small world eh:) anyways i think that msn/blogger doesn't like me! Haha msn keeps signing me out and blogger can't seem to load until now. Haha oh wells!

Alrights better go now:) I want to start reading this book that i just borrowed:) take care all!

2007-01-22T21:06:00.000-08:00

hello world

well i'm not feeling all fantastic all cause of something lah. Though it's something so small but yet i feel so affected by it. Sigh yea i guess like what i would always say, it's the smallest of things that would affect me. God help please?

Anyways i stayed at home today to catch up on my rest all. I woke up at 12.30pm and it felt so good. It has been a long time since i had this kind of lifestyle. I'm so glad that i stopped working already, i'm so sick and tired of working.

Sigh sorry but i really don't have the mood to blog all. So don't worry all, i'll be well after a while. Take care

i would if i could.