Friday, April 28, 2006
Hello all( :
Lets see what i did today.
Well
I helped out at BASC as usual.
Josiah fell down and banged his head on the floor.
Poor child lah
He cried
But thank God it was only for a while( :
Megan looked so pretty today!
Little chinadoll.
Somehow today they were on their best behaviour.
Haha
Didn't have to scream at them today.
Haha
But as usual
Charlene kept me real busy the whole time.
Having some swimming classes with the kids next week.
So cute lah!
( :
I'm so sad cos like
chan yong is in korea for a short holiday
and i miss him!
Hope he comes back soon.
After helping out at BASC,
went back to school there to eat the fried fish bee hoon.
I tell you,
it is THE best( :
YUMM
After that came home
watched some television.
Oh and i watched Charlie and the chocolate factory( :
But fell asleep halfway.
Haha
Woke up cos of the nice weather.
I love rainy weather!
Cold, dark and nice.
Oh yea
Yesterday mish, myself, vanessa and livia
went Pastor's Mark's house to tann.
The weather was fine
but had no sun.
So it kinda defeats the purpose of going tanning yesterday.
Haha
But thank God somehow it didnt rain( :
The weather in the afternoon today was really good lah!
The sun was super hot and nice.
If only we went tanning today:(
Haha
Oh wells
It doesn't really matter cos we are going sentosa on monday!
Whoopeee
Hope the weather would be a good one for tanning( :
I think i'm falling sick already
cos my nose is begining to become runny/blocked and etc.
My mom is so ...
Haha
Cos she's super lazy to step out of the house to meet her friends
for dinner and all.
Haha
If i were her,
i would definitely go lah.
I mean a night out with your buddies and all( :
Girls night out!
I was reading some blog lah.
I think it's super sick.
Haha
Yes clarence?
Oh wells
Anyway gotta go already.
Ciao!
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Hello all( :
Was just reading someone's blog.
I completely do not agree with what he/she says.
Shall not say much about it.
Anyways helped out at BASC today( :
The kiddos were super cute as usual.
Hee
Love them so much lah.
Hugs
I heard from aunty Linda that tmr
the policeman would be coming over to church
to meet the children( :
Somehow i feel that some of them would start bawling their hearts
out or something.
Haha
I used to be scared of policemen
bcos my mom would always threaten to let the
policeman catch me if i was naughty.
Haha
And i stupidly believe her.
I bet you tell kids that these days
they would not believe it.
Haha
Stayed in church to help Shenna with her social studies( :
But we ended up talking after a while.
Haha
Talked about lotsa stuffs( :
Went home for dinner
cos mom invited her classmates over.
So cute lah
I think they are super cute lah.
I really wonder will my friends and myself keep in contact
even when we are like 45 yrs old or something?
Haha
Ok they just went home.
I'm feeling super full lah.
Dinner was great.
My mum catered food instead of cooking.
Cos i guess she was busy... partly lazy too!
Haha
My mum and her classmates were talking about
going to china for holiday.
One of them was even going for the MTV music awards at bangkok.
Cos she knew the VP of MTV.
Coolness lah.
Anyways i got to go already.
Shall blog more often.
Hugs sweets!
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Hello all
Today's service alright.
YA session was good.
Had the debate
and the topic was on
"Should a couple show physical affection towards each other"
so yup
Was rather interesting i must say.
Anyway lucas showed me this video
and it's super cool lah.
I'm kinda blown away by it( :
Just click here to view it
Have fun
Friday, April 21, 2006
Hello all
Was talking to one of my girls just now.
Don't really wish to disclose the name somehow.
Anyways i was really glad that school had already started for her.
She was telling me about her orientation and all.
Sigh
I'm really glad for her that she's having so much fun.
But somehow i feel so sad inside?
Like how i wish i was there and all.
Now my life is so aimless?
Don't really know how to describe it.
I'm so tired of studying already.
Was doing my math just now
but somehow i just lost the motivation.
Yes i have to admit that
i feel a little envious/jealous?
Who will actually understand how i feel?
Haha
I bet people will tell me like
Just study harder lah.
Or
It's a little too late for regrets ehh?
Or
I understand how it feels
All these are just bull lah.
Arghh
How unfair life can get?
Urgh don't wish to blabber on
Cos i know i can just go on and on and on.
Please help me to understand.
Teary eyes
Runny nose
Blahhh
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Hello all
Helped out at BASC again today( :
I just cant help falling in love with those kidss lah.
Anyway was supposed to go tanning today
but it rained.
So yea
Stayed in church instead.
Saw joel and hosea's hair.
Haha
They dreadlocked their hair.
Went to parkway for dinner
Oh i learnt how to play bridge.
Fun lah
A little addictive:)
I'm so glad my maid is coming back tmr.
But my dad is going to beijing.
Anyway have been feeling rather _____
I really dislike people forcing me.
Can someone just understand what am i going through?
Give me a break lah.
Stop pushing me to things that i do not like.
I'm feeling so oppressed by situations lately
Whateverr
You so don't know what it is like to be like me
so
Shut upppppppppp
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Hey
Went to church about 1pm for some meeting for
independence day.
Then had some leaders meeting after that.
Then had prayer at about 4.15pm till 4.45pm.
Service was really good
The movie really reminded me how God actually loved us so much.
Came home with regina.
My mum ticked me off again lah.
Over stupid things again.
Man
Sometimes i feel like running away from home
and not coming home ever again.
Since they always say i'm some bum.
I would really want them to taste what is it like without me
since they keep saying that i'm useless and etc.
Yesterday my mom again commented that i waste another year of my life.
Sigh
She honestly cannot get it into HER BRAINS
that i feel sad/disappointed/angry and etc too.
Can she stop all these nonsense
I feel bad enough
You don't think i want to move on in life?
Sometimes i feel like screaming at her
but i would always the bible verse
Honour your father and mother.
I don't hate my parents or anything.
But i feel hurt by the things that they do.
But i guess no one actually understands lah.
So whatever
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Hello everyone( :
Ok i just uploaded the neoprints that we took.
Haha
Rather blurry lah the pics.
But what the heck( :
Anyway congrats deb and ty for getting into tp!
Sigh if only i could too.
I have to wait one more freaking year.
Life is that unfair huh?
But oh wells
I know God has a way out for me,
it is just that i gotta believe it for myself.
Anyways helped out at BASC today( :
Help Aunty Carol for a while today at outdoor.
Then went back to Love class to help them( :
Sigh there is this silly little boy called han giu
some korean boy
whom we are trying to toilet train him.
But somehow everytime i bring him to toilet
he doesnt want to pee pee.
But somehow he always pee pee on the floor or etc.
Anyways shall take individual photos of them soon k?
then i shall upload them( :
Today someone accidently took home chan yong's water bottle.
That silly boy cried.. aww
Haha
My class's kids are ubber cute lah.
All of them are attention seekers i tell you.
When some of the kids sit on my lap,
the rest wants to sit on my lap too.
Haha
Cute lah they all.
Talking about them makes my heart melt.
Haha
But Charlene and Ode are the ones who always make
me feel like not helping out.
Today i scolded both of them till my mouth was dry.
Haha
Anyways gotta go already
Take care all( :
Hugs
God please protect these little children of yours( :
Everylasting,
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending,
Your glory goes beyond all fame.
And the cry of my heart
is to bring you praise from the inside out
Lord my soul cries out( :
( :
HAHA look at rayvin
HAHA
look at rayvin! he always spoils our pictures! haha
Look at our noses! haha
a blur pic one. haha
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Hello all( :
Did not go and help out at BASC today
cos it was my turn to help out with the household chores.
So yea
Met mish and madeline at church to go down to tampines swimming complex.
We were so happy cos the sun was out and all!
So we took our own sweet time down to tampines swimming complex.
We were talking about an interesting topic on the way there on bus 10.
Martians( :
The place is not too bad lah.. i guess?
Haha
Like there is this place where u can sun tann.
They have chairs for you and all.
Kinda cool.
So we were like choosing a place to sun tann
as usual ehh?
Haha
So we were kinda checking out the place
until we saw this very familiar face.
It was rayvin lah!
We were super duper shocked to see him.
Ok shall not blog what happened when we saw him.
Haha
I promised him not to say it out.
So yea
So we all tanned together loh.
Then around 3plus
there were this huge group of st hilda kids came into the complex.
And so..
We spotted clara and vanessa.
Haha
So funny lah.
Like we saw almost everyone we knew( :
So we tanned till about 6pm?
Then we met regina, aiken and joel ooi for dinner
at kampung chai chee.
The resturant was at tampines
but the signboard says kampung chai chee..
Haha
So after that we went to walk around TM and century square.
And we took neoprints lah.
Funny
Oh and we went to toy R us( :
Super fun lah.
I love going there!
Ok after that it was quite late already.
But we didnt feel like going home.
So we went to some corner to sit down and talk till about 11.20 like that.
anyways today was really fun lah.
Somehow i got tanner( :
But definitely would welcome more tanning sessions!
Hee
ok gotta go and rest already
Take care
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Hello sweets( :
Today was alright i guess.
Went to BASC as usual
After that went down to siglap centre
Cos my stupid contact lense had some problem lah.
Irritating leh
Haha
Only this kind of things would happen to me loh.
Anyways miss bimbo finally got to eat her yong tau foo.
Haha
While madeline and myself wanted to eat macs.
So yea
We waited for miss bimbo to finish eating her yong tau foo
then we went to eat macs!
Hee
Yummylicious( :
Anyways i was talking to michelle lam on the phone( :
Came up with some wacky idea.
Haha
Anyways going to go tanning tmr!
I so cannot wait lah.
Ok gotta go all.
Please take care alright?
Hugs!
Monday, April 10, 2006
Hello everybody
Went to help out at BASC again( :
Was pretty tired out after the whole thing.
I miss sarah lah.
I have so much things to tell her.
It seems as though everybody is so busy these days.
This sounds really retarded but
i feel so lonely.
Haha
Like no one to talk too:(
Haha
Oh wells
Life still goes on.
Went down to siglap after BASC today
cos i needed to get my contacts.
Mish and madeline ate at macs
then i went home.
Oh yea
My application for relief teaching
is approved by MOE already.
Haha
I'm kinda happy lah.
I mean for the past few months
anyway application i sent out
got rejected.
So like this was the first one which
kinda brought good news.
So yea( :
Called up KCP, Temasek Primary and Ngee Ann primary
and asked them if they have any vancancies for relief teaching.
So yupp.
Temasek Pri and Ngee ann pri was very poliet on the phone.
KCP was like "no!" then puts down the phone.
No comments
Anyway i will probably go down to work and collect my last month's pay
Tsk tsk
I'm feeling super broke this month lah.
Hope i get a call pretty soon from these few primary schools( :
Anyway need to go off already.
So much things needed to be done.
till then
toodles
Sunday, April 09, 2006
I am feeling so tired lah.
Disclaimer: this is going to be one of those posts that i start grumbling.
So if you do not like it or anything
Please just leave okayy?
I'm so tired
Just came home not long ago.
Had to wash the dishes again.
I'm so fed up lah.
Like i'm already so tired when i got back
yet i volunteered to do the dishes.
I thought household chores are meant to be shared and done
by the whole family.
But my stupid father just started ordering me around.
I mean i was washing the dishes already.
Then he asked me to clean the tables after i'm done.
And he just took his wine and sat down there watching television.
That seriously ticked me off.
I mean like i'm so tired already.
Can't he at least help out abit?
When i told my mom,
instead of saying stuffs to make me feel better.
She said stuffs that made me feel that i wasn't appreciated for taking the initiative.
What is up with my family.
Jesus i really need you more than ever.
Anyways got to go already.
I call, You answer
And You came to my rescue
And I want to be where You are
Friday, April 07, 2006
Hello everybody
Helped out at BASC today
Super cute lah the kids
They really made my day a better one( :
Today Tabitha smiled and held my hands today.
( :
I know i sound pretty retarded saying it,
but it definitely feels good to feel loved by these kids.
Taught them the letter G today.
Brought them out to pluck some grass.
Jo was super duper cute lah.
His laughter( :
Megan was another sweetum.
When i have a kid in the future,
i figured that she should be like megan( :
A real sweetheart.
Anyways after helping out at BASC
went to singpost to pay my exam fees.
Sigh
Went back to church to prepare for tmr's sharing.
Tmr is going to be a super busy day lah.
I have 2 meetings tmr.
First is the YM party thing
Second one is the Dance Fellowship thingy.
Oh yea
I kinda applied to be some relief teacher at a primary school.
HAHA
Yes laugh all you can.
Just submitted the application form.
Hope i get posted to some school near me if possible.
Haha
Ohhh
Going to sentosa next tuesday with livia and all( :
It's gonna be fun lah!
cannot wait.
It has been such a long time since i stepped into sentosa.
Ok lah
Gotta go already
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Hello everybody. I stayed home today cos i woke up feeling lazy and all. Anyways fought with my dad today lah. I don't really understand what is up with him. I really wonder if guys do go through menopause, bcos if they do. I'm very sure my dad is in that phase now. Somehow i find it really difficult to understand him and his logics. Told him about my appeal results. Then he suddenly flared up. He started raising his voice and saying stuffs like my room is in a mess and like i have no self discipline. Despite of me telling him that i have been studying while they were overseas. Then he went on, on how i am already 18 years old and i look like some fool(pun intended i suppose) Argh whatever lah. Right after we argued, i just went to my room. Tears just started flowing from my eyes. Went to take a long shower cos i wanted to get out of my house immediately. I could not take it anymore, i felt super lousy and all. But after a while, i decided not to do it after all. As it would be a bad testimony for God if i had done so. I am not afraid of my dad or anything. But considering the fact that the bible says to honour your parents. No choice but to do so. At that point in time, i was at the verge of running away from home. I didn't care if i had no where to go. I just wanted to get out of the house, needed some time alone. Very drama mama lah.. I know. But whatever! I am so sick of being the one getting scolded when my dad/mom had a bad day at work. Not to mention that i get all the blame when things go wrong. In their eyes, i have to be the "perfect" one. To show an example to the younger ones. Come on lah. I am still a kid. Since young, my parents would compare me to my cousin who is able to do well academically. Also, i did not have much attention from my parents because of my siblings and all. Because of that, i always yearn for people's attention, love and care. I need to be reassured time and time again because i feel so insecure deep inside. Since the birth of my sisters, i automatically became the second mother, when my mom/dad isn't home. I will take care of them and so on so forth. It is really tiring, no doubt i love my siblings very much. I am still a child, i need to be taken care off. Since young, my parents would always comment that i'm lousy and all. Till now, the stigma is still left there. That is why sometimes i feel that i can't do it, cos from young, people have been telling me things like i can't do it and etc.
Sigh shall stop here
Take care
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Hello all( :
My mom and dad is finally back!
Hee
Sigh
But my maid is leaving tmr lah.
Gonna miss her like crazy:(
My mom kept complaining about Hanoi.
Haha
She said that she didn't even enjoyed the holiday.
Haha
Marcus and myself went to pick them up from the airport.
My goodness
My parents spent like 1 hour in the duty free area can.
Goodness
But they bought the perfume i wanted( :
Hee
DKNY's - Be delicious
Burberry's - Weekend
And my parents bought marcus the armani and bvlgari colonge too.
I'm one happy girl( :
Hee
Today went back to school to collect the school's year book.
Sigh i miss school lah:(
Helped out at BASC again
This time i was with jo's class( :
Megan's super cute lah.
Everytime when i enter the classroom
she would come to me and hold my hand.
Super clingy lah.
But still kids are like that( :
Went to eat the fish soup at the school market there.
YUMM
Miss the food there.
Oh yea
Saw Zarith and Aida in school today( :
I miss 5/2
I miss every single lil bit about katong convent.
Like what deb says:
You can take us out of katong convent,
but you can never take katong convent out of us( :
Ok lah
Gotta go and sleep soon already
Take care all( :
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Hello everyone
Didnt go to work today cos my boss said that we needn't go back( :
Went to help out at BASC yesterday.
My darling boy couldn't rmb me lah:(
Anyways talked to debs on the phone last night.
Had fun just talking to her
I miss kc lah.
Anyways after that decided to do my english homework and practice some math.
Then sarah called.
So i kinda ditched my homework and etc and just talk to her.
Since she's going off to karen refuge camp this saturday for 10 whole days.
Man i'm gonna miss her lah.
Oh yea
My parents are away in vietnam now.
My dad's playing golf and i think my mom is doing her shopping( :
I miss them both.
My parents are coming home tmr night 12am.
Then my miad's leaving on thurs.
Sigh
I really wonder how am i gonna get thru it these few weeks?
When sarah is gone and etc.
How am i gonna handle the cell?
Don't get the wrong idea that all of them are monsters or something.
Hee
But the thing is that,
there will be 2 of vicky's friends who will be coming.
So yea
Oh wells( :
God will be my strength.
Got my DAE results.
Sigh
As expected..
It was rejected:(
Oh wells
But i still believe that God will make a way for me( :
Probably,
that could mean that i retake my O levels again.
Anyways i'm super irritated by this person lah.
Lets call him "dot"
ARGGHHH
I am so ticked off by him.
Really don't know what is his problem man.
Immature and childish.
God! I really need help man.
I am so tempted to go up and just give it to him.
His presence just irks me.
It comes to a point when i am super mean to him on msn.
But that dot don't seem to know that.
You know like sometimes,
when u don't like this particular someone
you would reply him/her on msn with one word answers.
That is very rare for me to do that
cos those who know me
will know that i cannot don't talk at all.
But this particular mr dot,
keeps talking to me everytime i signed online.
WHAT IS HIS FREAKING PROBLEM LAH?
Must i put it blantly to him that i do not like him?
And that i hate talking to him?
Freak lah he.
I could go on and on.
But i think i should stop lah.
Ok gotta go.
ARGHHHHH
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Hello all( :
Supposed to have some last bbq last night.. which is friday night
But somehow it rained heavily
so we just decided to go somewhere to eat( :
We ended up at east coast beach eating kenny rogers!
YUMM
Livia left her phone on the bus on the way there.
Poor girl lah she
I so know how it feels man
Cos like the last time ms tan confiscated my phone for one month
i was like lost.
Detached from everybody.
Haha
Anyways we walked from the beach to lagoon
and we decided to cab down to sarah's house.
So josie, myself, gaius, regina and aiken squeezed into one cab.
Nice taxi uncle( :
It was about 12am that we reached her house
and she called to say that they went to simpang.
So we kinda took alot of photos( :
Hee
Shall upload it the moment i get it from that woman( :
So we went to the playground to wait.
We were like feeding the mozzies lah:(
Sat on the swing
It brought back memories of my childhood!
Hee
So sarah came back with isaac
and they lied to us about her parents wasnt too happy of us coming over.
Haha
But i kinda fell for it till i reached sarah's house.
Somehow i felt that it was some april's fool joke.
Haha
Anyways slept in sarah's "new" room( :
Super bigg lah
ok im really tired now.
Shall blog the continuation tmr or something
ciao