Thursday, June 29, 2006
Suddenly i feel like i'm a freak.
Darn
All those stupid remarks about my appearence
is getting to me.
I feel insecure.
But i guess i'll get over it somehow.
God please help
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Hello all( :
Sorry for the lack of updates lately.
Anyways have been going to church these 2 days
to just hang around.
Helped joel to do his project with gina.
Went to watch Just my luck with
Both joels, gina, brendan, maddy, bel and of course myself.
The show wasn't that fantastic lah.
Kinda average actually.
It didn't manage to make me laugh
Actually only a few good shows can make me laugh.
Anyways don't think i'll be updating real soon
cos on friday i'll be going for conferences and etc.
So probably would be very busy.
Oh yes yesterday gina and i left for dinner really late lah.
Cos i had YM comm meeting,
which ended about 10?
Then helped joel with his project and all.
So probably left church about 11pm.
Then gina and myself went to beer garden for dinner.
It was fun lah( :
Cos we walked there since the weather was nice.
So we left beer about 12am like that?
Then she came over for a while
to wait for her mom to pick her up.
We talked about loads of rubbish man.
Haha
I know this is pretty random but...
I can't wait for my Beijing trip!
Haha
So exciting
All the shopping and all( :
Ok lah
Need to go already.
Take care all
Loveee
I want to grow old with you( :
Monday, June 26, 2006
baby we could rock this night alone( :
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Hello all
Didn't attend service today cos my tummy wasn't feeling too well.
Cos michelle guna asked me to help usher
for the parents day lunch thingy at singapore expo.
I felt bad telling her that i can't make it
cos i wasn't feeling too well.
So i ended up going to s'pore expo with them( :
It was fun( :
After that
came back from s'pore expo.
Hung around church
then went to studio with regina and rest.
It's the way you make me feel( :
Saturday, June 24, 2006
I think i'm in love with you.
Friday, June 23, 2006
Hey all( :
I'm kinda getting used to my phone now.
Haha
I'm still excited about my phone somehow( :
Hee
Anyways today's practice was good lah.
It was tiring but i guess it's like that
cos the event is only a day away.
It was raining just now
and i was pretty worried cos the post party
would be at the car park there.
So i was worried that the decorations would be wet and all.
But it just stopped raining!
Woohoo
Anyways we changed our costumes.
So now i'm like searching for things to wear.
Haha
Ahh wells
*you are just so adorable lah.
Especially the way where you will always sit beside me just to accompany me.
Haha
I truly enjoy spending time with you( :
It's the way you make me feel
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Hey guys( :
Sorry for the lack of updates lately.
Cos i'm really busy preparing for
Serenade 2006.
Oh yea i just got my new phone!
Woohoo
Haha
Samsung D820( :
Love it lah.
Haha
Anyways just wanna say thanks for being so sweet last night( :
And how the way you wanted me to take a cab home instead of walking.
haha
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Ok i'm going to be real honest with you guys.
I'm not feeling very well emotionally.
Serenade practice made it worse.
Felt very lousy during the whole practice.
Kinda cried abit lah.
Walked out immediately cos i needed to cool down.
Walked aimlessly to God knows where.
Felt like giving everything up.
No use trying.
I feel so freaking alone in this.
I hate people telling me that they still care for me
while don't even do anything.
Action speaks alot more louder than words.
I'm not trying to attack anybody in specific.
But i'm just so sick and tired.
Met gina for a while just now.
We kinda talked about what will be
the reason which will cause us to backslide.
Interesting i must say.
Guess now gina is the only one who actually cares lah.
Thank God for her.
Anyways i'm just so tired.
This year just sucked for me.
I HATE IT.
freaking hate it.
So many things that happened.
I can't even understand.
I just want people to care/love for me.
Is it too much to ask for?
On the account i give so much of myself.
Ah whatever.
i hate it.
Friday, June 16, 2006
Hello all( :
Came back from siampang not too long ago.. agian.
Haha
Ok i'm finally 18
woohoo
Well lets see what i did today alright.
Hmmm woke up at about 11 plus
then washed up and went to church to help out with the deco for
serenade( :
Helped out till about 5 plus
then i went home cos my dad wanted to bring us out for dinner.
As usual at jumbo.
Food was good( :
After dinner we all went home to cut my birthday cake( :
Hee
Then i went back to church to help them again.
Jarrold was so cute lah.
He came rushing in saying ehhh get ready to sing ah.
Haha
So i kinda guessed that they were about to sing me a birthday song.
Haha
So cute lah they.
then we went to siampang.
I went there just to sit around and watched soccer( :
Company was good as usual.
We left there about 1am?
I tell you
Isaac, Aiken, Joel Ooi, and josie were sweethearts lah.
they walked me all the way home from siampang can.
Darlings( :
Then they took a cab back after sending me home.
so yup
need to sleep cos im so so tired.
ciao
Thursday, June 15, 2006
hey all
came home not long ago.
Went to meet the guys at arab street today.
Got some stuffs for the deco for Serenade.
Then went to church to help out the deco.
Went for dinner at simpang.
Food was alright
went to vanessa's house to watch soccerr.
Isaac's so retarded lah.
He got me this green nail polish
and it's super ugly and he wants me to wear them.
Blahhh
Haha
Anyway a big shout outs to those who wished me happy birthday( :
It made my day a better one.
Somehow it dawned upon me that i was finally 18...
Ah wells
Heard that the dance girls went out to get the costumes.
As usual i wasn't informed of it.
Sigh but nvm lah.
It hurts lah.
But whatever.
I must stay happy no matter what.
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Hello all( :
Work was good
Super flexible lah the timing( :
Actually the company that i'm working for
is something like Adam koo's company.
But kinda different.
So i'm hired to do the paper work and etc.
The job's kinda fun actually( :
Not much stress.
Our working hours are very short.
We can even step into the office about 11am like that?
Haha
Take as long as we want for lunch.
I basically love the jobbbbb( :
And it's at bugis
I can even go shopping after work.
Woohoo!
Anyways ended work about 5 plus today.
Went down to bugis cos i wanted to get my pants from topshop.
But somehow they didn't have:(
I was so determined to get the pants,
so i went down to town all alone just to buy the pants!
Haha
I'm so glad that at least town have them.
Hee
Then saw Pearlyne Seah( :
Took the same bus as her cos she needed to go for training.
So i invited her for Serenade( :
Hope she comes!
So yea went down to church for dance.
Then went to simpang at about 10plus for dinner/supper!
Food wasn't too good
but the company was amazing( :
Isaac would never fail to bring a smile to my face lah.
Funny boy
My ni-pple friend.
HAHA
Oh yes
Elaine contacted me!
Like finally lah( :
Wanted to meet up with her just now
but i guess something cropped up at home
so she couldn't come.
But i'm sure that there will be many other chances( :
Ohhh
and Shenna's like so sweet lah( :
She did for me this bouquet of roses for my birthday.
She folded them.
So sweet of her eh?
HUGS! sweetheart
Ok anyways walked home from simpang.
Goodness regina and myself walked till we wanna die like that can.
Haha
We took about an hour like that?
Reached home about 1.14am like that.
But had fun just talking to her about some stuffs and all.
GINA IF YOU'RE READING THIS
YOU BETTER REMEMBER NOT TELL ANYONE WHAT I TOLD U AHHH
haha
Oh yes
the weather is so nice now.
I love rainy days!
Ok i gotta go rest already cos i'm working tmr.
Take care all( :
Goodnight and sweet dreams
Can't help falling in love with you
Monday, June 12, 2006
Hmm lets see what i did today.
Slept till my fill until 12pm today.
Woke up and helped my mom out.
Cos she needed my help.
Went to NTUC with her.
Then went to church to michelle guna and many others
for the planning of the post party for Serenade( :
It was fun lah.
Then stayed around church till bout 5 plus?
After that we went down to town to meet aiken, gaius and rayvin.
So ian, joel, may, char zheng and myself took 14 down.
Ate at food republic.
Ok the food there is so expensive and sucky.
Blahhh
Haha
Then we decided to catch the 7.40pm show.
We watched She's the man.
Goodness i loveeeee the show lah!
Haha
A total chic flick( :
I guess that's why i love it so much.
Man the ending is so sweet.
And there are many hot guys in the show.
Haha
I could actually guess the character's name and etc
cos they kinda took the storyline out of 12th night.
But goodness,
Duke orsino was so hot lah.
Haha
Sizzling hot( :
I feel like watching it for the second time.
Haha
Anyways came home soon after cos i gotta work tmr.
Kinda excited lah.
Working with Ian cos like Livia can't exactly leave her other job.
So yea( :
Hope it'll be fun.
Hee
Oh man i can't wait to go shopping.
I'm seriously eyeing the topshop pants.
It better not be sold out or something.
Cos i'd kill myself.
Haha
Cos we saw it in topshop m'sia.
And i decided not to get it cos like i feared that if i got the pants
i couldn't get stuffs for my family.
So yea
They better have it in singapore.
Cos i have been eyeing that pants since forever.
Hee
Ok lah gotta go all:)
Take care and goodnight k
Loveeeeeeee
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Well church was alright.
Had bible study with YM comm at 8am.
Then proceed for CE at 9am.
Had service at about 10 plus like that.
Some stuffs happened today.
Sigh don't really know how am i going go from there.
Guess there are so many more things i have to learn.
One thing of which is: tough love
I find it hard to scold someone i truly love when they do wrong and etc.
I'm more of a talking to them nicely you know.
Like the hard way don't work for me.
But i guess it's something that i really gotta learn through this process.
Oh wells
Went home early today cos had to go to grandma's place for dinner.
Goodness me
My darling cousins seem to grow so fast.
Haha
They are not like the last time i met them:(
Oh wells
We all gotta grow eh?
I'm starting work on this tuesday.
Hope it's going to be some fun job.
I pray that the boss is nice and that the pay is good: )
Oh yes
I'm intending to cut my hair short.
But not exactly very short too.
Ok i gotta go already.
Please take care k sweets?
hugs
you're still the one i run to
the one that i belong to
you're still the one i want for life.
you're still the one that i love
the only one i dream of
you're still the one i kiss goodnight
( :
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Hey sweets
I'm feeling kinda funny today?
Haha
No words to describe it.
Sad yet happy.
Oh wells
Service was awesome today( :
Oh yes before i forget.
My church will be having this mega event
called Serenade( :
Where: 165 Upper East Coast Road.
Emmanuel Assembly of God
Date: 24 June 2006
Time: 6:30pm
and all of you guys are invited( :
For further information about it,
please visit here okay?
Those of you guys who are interested in coming.
Please contact me alright?
This event is THE BOMB( :
It's really awesome.
We are targeting 500 young people.
This is really open to all the young people.
It doesnt matter if you're skinny/fat/non-chinese/chinese etc.
You get the drift.
There are actually very cool post cards available.
It costs about $0.20 per card.
But the cards are really awesome.
If you happen to want them or
you are interested in coming.
Just drop me an email or something.
I'll probably send it to you( :
Ok i gotta go already.
Cos i want to watch some television and after that
learn my memory verse.
Haha
Ciao people!
you make my heart skip a beat every time i see you( :
Friday, June 09, 2006
Hello everybody( :
I'm finally back from church camp.
Church camp was awesome.
Darn i miss the place already.
Haha
Anyways one thing that actually made me so ...
was that i got my period lah.
Argh
But thank God that i got it AFTER we went to sunway( :
Haha
Sunway was okish lah.
The rides were pretty fun( :
But i kinda backed out for the viking thing.
Cos the viking is not like some normal viking ride okay,
it turns you 360 degrees can.
But before that we went for some roller coaster ride.
Don't really know why did i even went for that ride can.
Haha
It was so scary lah.
Oh and we saw calvary's youth group( :
Btw the hotel rooms were really nice!
It's some 4 star hotel.
Things in there were pretty expensive.
The shopping centre was just average,
didn't have much nice stuffs there.
They had this ice skating ring too.
So mish and the rest went ice skating while sarah and myself went shopping
on the dont know which day.
Haha
Didn't exactly buy much.
Just bought a pair of heels and tee for myself.
And lotsa food for my family( :
Oh yes the preaching was really awesome.
God really spoke( :
Like i wasn't doing too well for the past few weeks,
but God really refocused my focus.
I'm all ready to run for God now( :
Got to rest early tonight
cos have been sleeping late and waking up early this whole week.
Going for YM tmr.
Sigh i feel so... no words to describe?
I feel like as though i have no identity.
Cos like now we kinda changed cell and all.
But i'm still serving in YM.
I have to over-see another cell group.
So it's like some cell reshuffling.
And i feel so __________.
Extra?
Cos i'm like the new addition to the cell.
I don't really know how to adapt.
Sigh
As i kinda just joined.
I feel so funny lah.
Sigh
Like somehow i feel so alone there
cos everyone knows each other very well and all.
And they already had a relationship with one another.
That's why somehow i sometimes rather be alone.
Cos i feel so extra admist them.
Sigh
It doesnt matter lah.
Anyway i'm there learn and etc for God.
So i guess it's okayy.
I can survive it( :
It's God and me.
Ok gotta go unpack.
Take care all.
Shall probably blog more about the trip really soon okayy?
Coral( :
It hurts.
Friday, June 02, 2006
Hello everybody( :
I'm a much happier girl today.
Cos...
Firstly,
I finally got my long awaited pay from my boss( :
Secondly,
My stuffed ear is gone!
Woohoo( :
Jumps and spins around in my room( :
Haha
Anyway yesterday stayed home almost the whole day
cos i needed to spend time with my family and also need to rest.
Then went for Pastor Jack.L special meeting with leaders.
It was good lah( :
I felt very inspired.
Cos like i haven't been doing well very spiritually.
Like many things haven't been going right for me.
As in i feel that i'm in such a lost now.
Everyday i wake up
feeling super aimless.
I felt that i completely lost it.
But somehow last night( :
It really brought me back to God's promises to me.
Anyways after the service
we all went to sampang to eat prata.
YUMM!
Had fun there( :
Left there about midnight.
Oh
I went for City Harvest's youth conference called Emerge.
It was really so good!
I mean Pastor Kong's message was really awesome lah( :
So we left singapore expo at about 1pm?
Oh cos the conference was held there.
Ben, Char Zheng, Shenna and myself ate lunch at bedok.
Changed my sing dollars to ringit( :
Like finally lah!
Haha
Then after that we went to church for a while to slack.
Uploaded some songs onto my ipod.
Then the rest left for expo for the night conference.
I didn't go cos i wanted to spend as much time with my family.
Cos like they will be having chalet tmr.
So i won't get to see them till next friday night or something.
So yea:(
But oh wells
I haven't packed my stuffs for church camp yet.
Haha
I'm so bad at packing.
Cos i remembered the last time i went to bangkok,
before we hopped onto the plane and fly to bangkok,
my luggage was already 13kg!
Haha
So i'm kinda afraid to pack now
considering the fact that i need to pack my hair dryer:/
Haha
Ok lahs
Shall blog further cos i really NEED TO PACK!
Haha
Loveeeeee