Thursday, May 31, 2007
Hello
I should be studying my Managing People & Organizations now, but somehow nothing is going into my head. So i decided to do something more productive than watching tv or something. Anyways my dad was the one who accompanied me to Raffles Hospital to get my wound re-dressed today. It was so darn painful. Sigh i really pray that my wound heals quickly because i don't think i can take it any longer.
The effects of everything is making me feel really depressed. Ok this is when i should tell myself that everything is under control especially when God is around:) Ok enough of me whining. Oh yes and selena was so cute lah. She called me around dinner time and asked whether i would want to meet her at parkway. But anyways because of my examination tomorrow, i told her i can't. But oh wells, miss chua if you're reading this, we shall go out soon ok? and you can drive me around with your license:)
My SIM friends are going to kushinbo tomorrow to eat. Haha but i don't think i'll be going because i've got to stay away from seafood and i've an doctor's appointment. Sigh i feel like some handicap even though i'm no longer in the hospital. This is my daily routine.
wake up
eat
watch television
study
go to raffles hospital
home
sleep(because of the medication)
eat
study
I can't wait for my exams to be over. Oh yes and now i'm worried whether i'll do well for my English for Business paper because i felt so drowsy during the paper. I don't think i did my best. God, help? Ok i better go and study my MPO now before i start complaining about how i think i'm not going to do well etc. Take care all:)
the darkness, we'll get through
hello everyone
i'm supposed to be sleeping right now, but as you all can see i'm still somewhat wide awake. Today's english paper was a little difficult. The invigilators were pretty nice, because some of them heard about the condition that i was in. So they came up to me and told me that if needed anything, just call them or something. Anyways my wound somewhat leaked today, so my jeans got a little stained. I was extremly disturbed by it during the exam, but what could i do?
Right after school, my mom came to pick me up to go to raffles hospital for them to re-dress my wound. Halfway in the car, i was feeling horrible. I guess it was due to the medicine taking its effect. By the time i got to the hospital, i didn't have any appetite to eat anything. So i told my mom to pack the food back because i felt really lousy. So we waited for my turn to see the nurse to re-dress my wound. For the first time, i saw my wound. It was so scary, i'm going to spare you guys the details and if anyone of you want to know, just come up to me and i'll gladly tell you.
While the nurse was cleaning my wound, i was in so much pain. Because of the hole in my leg, when she wiped the wound with antiseptic, it hurt so darn much. She had to wipe the inside of the hole with antiseptic and the pain was seriously beyond description. Imgaine going through this for the next 6 days. Sigh well i guess it's something i have to go through now. Do pray for me ok? thanks
oh yes, thanks isaac for the chocolates and your prayers. I appreciate it loads. Much love
:(
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
ok this was what happened:)
12 noon to 6.30pm: at the airport studying
7:00pm: Got home from the airport
7:30pm: I told my mom how unwell i was and she suggested to go down to Raffles Hospital because my right thigh became more swollen and painful.
8:30pm: Reached Raffles Hospital and registered to see the doctor. While waiting, i freaked out big time because i was so afriad that he would need to operate on my leg etc:(
9:30pm: Saw the doctor and he thought that i should go for an immediate surgery/operation because of the condition of my leg. Ok at this point in time, i was super afriad lah. Because of my Business Math exam i had the next day and also the fact that this was the first time that i was scheduled for an operation.
10:00pm to 11:00pm: I waited at my hospital room before they send me in for the surgery. vanessa, michelle guna, aunty aye lan and faithe came to visit me before i went in for surgery. I had to change in this pink pj's. Haha i was such in an unglam state when they came to visit me lah. And before i knew it, i had to remove my nail polish and to change again into some blue coloured robe and i had to wear disposable underwear! Haha it was so huge, poofy and..... auntish? HAHA *tsk so unlike what i usually wear. Ha!
11:30 to 12:45pm: i was on the operation bed thingy and they pushed me in. I felt that i was in some drama. Haha on the way in to the operation theatre, it felt so scary. Everything was so quiet and cold. Anyways they injected me with some don't know what and put me under General Anesthesia. Haha they asked me to breathe deeply and within 3 seconds, i fell asleep and before i knew it. I woke up and realised that the operation was over. It was quite cool lah cause i felt that i just slept for 3 seconds. Haha
1am to 2:30am: Somehow i couldn't fall asleep, i guess probably due to the GA. But usually people would fall alseep after being put under GA, but somehow i was so awake. I guess different people react differently:) But thank God everything well very smoothly! Oh yes i was sharing room with this another 23 year old SMU girl. We somewhat talked for a while and i found out that we had a few things in common. Oh yes and she was a Christian too:)
3:00am to 5:00am: i managed to sleep within these 2 hours. I felt very uncomfortable because of the drip thing that was in my hand. They didn't want to take it out beacuse i had to be put under liquid antibiotics. So i couldn't really sleep. Each time the nurse came in to take my blood pressure and tempreature, i was awaken by her.
Haha so i guess, this was what happened:) Once again, a huge thank you to everyone! i'm feeling much much better. Praise God! shall tell you guys the whole drama story when i see you all. Much love! Haha
-edited
Anyways i cried after receiving my dad's sms just now. Ok lah i was quite pissed off with him today because i was sleeping on my parent's bed cause the aircon man was coming to repair my room's air conditioner. So i didn't want to sleep in my room because it will be so weird lah esp i have such an ugly sleeping pattern. Haha ok then my dad came back in the afternoon drunk. It was because the minister of transport was at T3 and i guess my dad had to entertain them. So they went drinking or something. So he came home and he was very tipsy already, and he just plonked right down beside me. So i told him to becareful of my leg etc. Then he was like okok, but after a while he just smacked my leg playfully. Right smack on the area where i just had surgery on. I was so mad at him lah. He was like i'm sorry girl, im sorry.
But because i was still in that just woke up state and still in shock that he "gently" smacked my right leg. I just went to sleep in my own room with the stupid air-con man there still fixing my air con. Haha but aiya he's still my dad afterall. After i woke up, i forget about everything. Oh yes coming back to what he msged me a few minutes ago. After reading it, i teared a little and here is what he said:
Cheng, how are you?
Sorry that daddy didn't have time to
visit you at the hospital. Please take care
So i replied him that it was all ok. I knew that the minister was coming today etc so he would be busy all. Haha then i guess after he received my msg he came into my room to check how was i doing. I told him about what he did in the afternoon and he couldn't remember anything. I was like=/ but oh wells. I love my daddy lah.
Ok these were the 2 pictures i took while i was in the hospital today. Imagine sleeping with something in your vein. Haha i was so afraid that i might yank it out accidently, so thats another reason why i couldn't sleep. Haha the second picture was taken when i was put on this antibiotics drip thingy. It was quite painful when the fluid first went in, but it was alright after a while:) Hah
I should really start studying now instead of doing nonsense. Haha byeeeeee!
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
hello everyone
thanks for all your prayers/smses. i'm finally home now and doing very good. Praise God! i shall blog what exactly happened later. Going to go rest now. Take care all
thank You Jesus
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Coral, just forget it.
Let it be because it doesn't matter anymore.
Daddy God,
it hurts.
an overnight study date at changi airport with my boyfriend. Haha
Thursday, May 24, 2007
从前从前 有个人爱你很久
但偏偏 风渐渐
把距离吹得好远
好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开 ?
Name: Loke Mun Cheng, Coral
NRIC/Passport: 88******
University: SIM University
Course: Full-Time Diploma In Management Studies
Continuous Assessment Results
Intake | Semester | Subject Code | Title | Grades |
18 | 1 | BUS001 | ENGLISH FOR BUSINESS | B |
18 | 1 | BUS003 | BUSINESS MATHEMATICS | B |
18 | 1 | BUS005 | MANAGING PEOPLE AND ORGANISATIONS | C+ |
Grade | Mark | Grade | Mark |
A+ | 90 - 100 | C+ | 65 - 69 |
A | 80 - 89 | C | 60 - 64 |
B+ | 75 - 79 | D+ | 55 - 59 |
B | 70 - 74 | D | 50 - 54 |
| | F | Below 50 |
Praise God:)
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
i have my study break this week,
which means my exams dates are nearing,
But this means,
church camp and my birthday is coming real soon!
whoooopeeeee:)
Ok back to studying!
it's such a small world afterall.
haha
Saturday, May 19, 2007
hello all
sorry for the lack of updates lately. Well i guess there's nothing much to update anyways. Oh yes i'm at home resting today because i'm not feeling too well. Sigh
Anyways my daddy was such a sweetheart lah. He went to buy tandori chicken and iced teh chino for me. Yes i'm my daddy's princess:) ok got to go now. Take care all
i guess it's useless to keep going on and
on how hurt i am.
learning how to suck it in.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
i guess you will never understand how i feel.
Yea, when things happen I always have it easy and the rest would have a hard time.
forget it,
im disgusted with myself too
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
ok i feel a little better after talking to gaius and shenna. Haha both of them are so cute lah. That gaius gay was bent on irritating us or something. He kept changing his msn nick to ours. Haha so we couldn't tell who was who. But it was funny lah:) anyways shenna was just telling us how her sister brought her guy friend home and she felt weird with him around. Haha and gaius gave the best advice on how she should act to scare the guy home. I couldn't stop laughing. Haha you just let what gaius said form an imaginary picture in your mind. Have fun doing so! Haha
From gaius to shenna:
1. HAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!! i know what .. shenna .. you just stay in the toilet .. then when he needs to use it .. you walk out holding a shaver with shave marks on your face ..
2. hahah!! or when you all are going out of the house .. you suddenly kneel down and spin your body in circles clapping your hands and scream at the same time
haha ok lah. you guys might not find it funny but i think it's really funny. Haha i feel so stupid laughing to myself infront of the notebook. Haha
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Did You rise the sun for me?
or paint a million stars that i might
know Your majesty?
is Your voice upon the wind?
is everything i've known marked
with my maker's fingerprints?
breathe on me
let me see Your face
ever i will seek you
Cause all You are, is all i want, always
You draw me close in Your arms
Oh God, i wanna be with You.
numb
you just reopened the wound that just healed.
Once again,
i feel like the biggest fool now.
Never imagine myself facing the very same issue.
my heart aches.
sigh
Oh yes, please do pray for my sisters because:
1. my parents brought my sister to raffles hospital because her fever didn't subside after 3 days and we are really worried. Took her for a blood test and will be getting the result on wednesday, please pray that nothing will go wrong.
2. my the other sister is falling sick again. Do pray that she'll get well asap.
So i throw my life upon all that You are
cause i know you gave it all for me
and
when all else fades my soul will dance with You
where the love lasts forever.
Monday, May 14, 2007
Mae,
please get well soon ok?
Daddy/mummy/marcus/kristie/aunty lorna and myself
are very worried for you.
Be a good girl and get well soon:)
we love you very much!
my eyes hurt from all the crying.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Dear Lord Jesus,
I just commit my youngest sister into your loving hands. I pray that You take away the fever in the name of Jesus. You know her condition better than any of us, You remember that when she was much much younger, she got into a fit and my family is worried that it might happen again, but God i choose to leave it into Your hands:) Like You said, By Your stripes, we are healed. I claim that in Jesus's name for my youngest sister! I thank You in advance for the healing that is going to take place, thank You Lord for everything:)
In Jesus's most precious name,
Amen!
how does madagascar sound, for a little escapade?
just you and me:)
Saturday, May 12, 2007
hello all:)
School was good today because we don't have any more assignments to do!!!!! hellooooo afternoon naps:) anyway somehow i feel weird that i have nothing to do. Haha but i'm loving it! Well after school today, we went to pam's house. Her house is so so so huge lah! There were a swimming pool and a basement. Haha honestly if i were living in her house, i wouldn't step out of my house at all except for school lah of course:) Haha her poolside would have become my bedroom. HAHA ah wells:)
So i stayed at pam's house till about 6.30pm then left to meet clarence for dinner and coffee:) We met at plaza singapura and i was late. Haha i almost got lost at pam's house lah. Haha anyways dinner and coffee was good:) we talked, talked, talked and talked. Haha we had dinner at BK because subway and carls jr had no seats. Well he ate lah and i didn't because i was too full from lunch. Haha it feels weird to talk to someone over dinner, but you're not eating. Haha but it was good lah:) So after BK we hung out at starbucks. Stayed till 11pm then he walked me to the bus stop and we went our seperate ways.
Ok lah i'm feeling real tired now. But i feel like watching Gridiron gang now:) haha alright take care all:) oh before i go, just a question! does anybody want to bring me go watch this? hahaha
i wish..
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Hello all
Well school has been ok pretty lately. After tomorrow, everything would be much better! BECAUSE tomorrow is the submission of my last assignment given! whoopeee:) Haha if i'm not wrong, i have a study break week next week. Haha i didn't know that there was such a thing in SIM. But oh wells, it means that the exams dates are nearing. Ugh
Ok i know that friday's don't exactly mean a thing to me because i have school on saturdays. But because i might be going out with my SIM friends or i might meet clarence all. Nothing's really confirmed yet. But, i'm quite excited for either one:) Haha at least i get to go out of my house since tomorrow is somewhat the liberation day:)
Oh yes i met my YA cell at cityhall for dinner yesterday:) It was a good time of hanging out because i met the new people in our cell. Haha oh yes, when we were in the toilet, we bumped into glanies:) Haha and i heard that rayvin and chellie's cell were around marina there too. Haha it feels so funny to bump into different groups of people on a weekday at town. Haha
Sigh i have been eating like a pig these few days. Haha i must practice self-control! Haha alrights i think i should go now because i'm feeling so tired. Shall blog more soon... i hope? Haha
say you'll be there:)
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
hello
I stayed home and didn't go to school today because when i woke up at 4am in the morning, i didn't feel any better. So i went into prayer warfare till i fell back asleep. Well, i didn't do much today cause i was feeling really giddy. I have been sleeping so much for the past 2 days and maybe that is why i'm pretty awake now.
Oh yes a huge thank you to those who prayed and messaged to see whether i was ok/what happened to me etc. I really really appreciated it:) Well i feel alot better now! Must be the prayers:) and of course all the sweet messages did play a part too. Haha
It's back to school tomorrow. I have been sleeping so much within these 2 days compared of one week of school combined. Haha but all is good:) rested well enough to prepare myself for the next few weeks of assignments.
oh yes i was watching this suspense/thriller movie just now on HBO and i really regretted it lah. Because i am someone who thinks quite a bit, i think i might just gonna dream about what i watched earlier on and it's scary. Haha it's about this psycho girl who values friendship the extreme way and she would kill anyone that she feels that is snatching away her friend. Haha the i seriously believe that she's gay or something. Haha and in the show there was quite a fair bit of gore in it, not something that i would like lah. Haha thats why i don't like watching shows like saw etc:(
Ok i should go and sleep now:) Take care all! i wanted to stay awake to catch the re-run of ANTM but i'm feeling so tired now and so i recorded it! haha thank God for SCV boxes:) ohh and i'm already thinking of what should i do after school tomorrow. Haha
i dreamt of you just the other day.
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Hello
Well i didn't do much today because i wasn't feeling well and so i stayed home the whole day. Being sick just sucks big time lah. Haha tomyum hotpot+fries+famous amos cookies(all in one night)+a whole week of late nights=headache/bad throat/bad nose
but one thing that makes me somewhat happy is that i don't think i will be going to school tomorrow.
Oh yes my major assignments are somewhat done. Thank God:) Sigh my whole family went out for dinner and i got left behind... Oh but one thing that keeps me accompanied is the dvd's that my daddy bought! he bought Gridiron Gang, awesome show i tell you. Ok i should go watch it now. Take care all:)
i just wish that you cared
Saturday, May 05, 2007
hello
i'm glad that i'm able to get some rest now. Since the afternoon till now, i've been busying doing my project work because the dateline to hand it in is tomorrowtoday. Well, everything is pretty done up already. Honestly, i don't expect to score and if i do, it's really the hand of Jesus that is upon it. Whatever the outcome is, Jesus still rock my world. Hahah
Anyways i was pretty pissed about my 2 group members. Ok here it all goes:
Remember i mentioned earlier that yiru and myself decided to form a group with these 2 other guys? Haha well, they got us really pissed off. Cause we had this project work that we were supposed to hand in today, and we decided to give them the easier questions to attempt and we took the harder questions etc. They just needed to answer one essay each and tadahh they are done.
Yiru and myself had to juggle with like 3 essays each or something. Because i needed the 2 guys to submit to me their eassays so that i could edit them and compile them etc. I keep bugging them to send me their eassays. Ok lah, one of them is pretty easy to work with but the other one is just annoying me big time. Lets just call him mr nice watch. I kept asking mr nice watch to mail me his eassays, and he said that he will. So i waited from 7pm to about 11.30pm like that. That really triggered off all the "buay siong-ness" in me. Haha i mean like, he knows that ultimately i still need to edit his work, why did he send it to me for editing at such an ungodly hour? i mean, come on lah. It's just one freaking essay, i have to do like 3 eassays but i've done it even before you sent me yours. I agree that we have other assignments to do and hand up too, but i've done it too. Why can't you? roar
i'm so so tempted to fill up an peer evaluation form. Why in the world you get the same grades as us when you didn't even do anything? BUT, i shall be nice and not do such a thing:)
Oh wells, there is school tmr and i gotta wake up early cause i need to get my bum bum in school asap cause i need them to help me print the stuffs. I'm so happy that after 12.30pm tomorrow, everything would be done! Bye bye project works. Ok take care all! Have an awesome weekend.
the look in your eyes
Friday, May 04, 2007
Father of life draw me closer
Lord, my heart is set on You
let me run the race of time
with you life unfolding mine
and let the peace of God
let it reign.
You are my world
You are my God
and i lay down my life for You
You are my Lord
the One i love
no one could ever take Your place.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
one down, one more to go!
Come on coral, you can do this:)
perhaps they will never know
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Who compares to You?
Who set the stars in their place?
You who calmed in the raging seas
that came crashing over me.
Who compares to You?
You who bring the morning light
the hope of all the earth
is rest assured in Your great love.
Eternally wonderful:)
hello
I stayed home the whole day doing nothing but my assignment. Sigh i still have one more to complete and i can somewhat resume doing my mpo project work. Anyways met the rest for dinner at ECP. The people who came along were rachy, aiken, sarah lin, shenna, char and ben choo:) this reminds me, the food at kenny rogers just totally sucked lah. Haha we were joking about how everything went wrong except the drinks.
So during dinner, adde came but she overshot the bus stop and didn't know how to walk to marine cove. So i walked to tao nan's bus stop to look for her. But that silly but cute girl took another bus to fernwood apartments there. Haha so we were somewhat playing some hide and seek game cause she didn't want me to fetch her. But i just waited for her at the bus stop till she finally came.
Anyways the rest proceeded to gelare for ice-cream and so we met them there. Today didn't felt like a ice-cream day, so i didn't order anything. So after a while we decided to leave cause we all have school/work tomorrow today. We walked to the st pat's bus stop, and left ben choo, aiken and char there cause the rest wanted to take bus 14 home. Anyways while waiting for the bus, we were talking about our future boyfriends etc. It was fun lah:) girly talk. Haha oh yes people present were sarah lin, rach, adde, shenna and yours truly:)
Sigh i have school in a few hours time:( i spent my whole holiday just doing my assignment. Haha oh so exciting. Ok i shouldn't complain cause at least i have a school to go! Come on coral!
Oh when i came home on monday afternoon. I had a real bad headache lah, i guess it was due to the really hot weather. So i contemplated on whether i should take panadol or not cause i suspected that i might have an allergy reaction to panadol. But the headache was so bad that i decided to take it. Well nothing really happened except today i saw little bumps on my thighs and arms. It didn't look too big. So i applied some cream and prayed about it. Thank God, the allergy reaction didn't cause anything major like the last time. Thank You Jesus:)
Sigh sometimes i wonder why am i so affected by people around me. I guess like what people always say, people will always fail you. There are so much things i would want to blog/say about but i guess it's not the best thing to put it down here. Hello the other one:) Ok i think i should really go now. Take care all and have an awesome remaining week ahead.
irreplaceable.
people come, people go.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
sometimes i wonder whats the point of messaging everyone
when
none even bother to reply.
ugh
happy labour day everyone.