Friday, December 29, 2006
hello all:)
I was just thinking of blogging now because i think i'll be too busy over the weekend to even blog:) So yupp! Oh yes i met the girls at parkway yesterday to walk around and to spend some quality time together:) So we kinda went shopping again. And to my disappointment, they didn't have my bag anymore:( Oh wells! So we went to mango for a while, and i bought a top for only $18:) Haha
Then we had dinner at burger king, everything went well until miss may's boyfriend called. Haha he was able to book out for the night so she was deciding if she should go meet him instead. Well since we are such an awesome and gorgeous bunch we urged her to go and meet her mr boyfriend instead of going to mish house:)
Our aim was to play mahjong and bridge throughout the night. Haha but somehow things ended up different. We made popcorns , bought snacks and talked throughout the night:) It was really a girls night out kinda thing:)
Sigh as we prepare to bid year 2006 goodbye, all i can say is that this year had been a tough and stretching year for me. Like it is really a deja vu kinda thing for me. Because even last year, the same thing happened, but it was with different people. I'm not going to be all fake and happy and said that this year was awesome! But honestly, pardon my french, this year have been downright crappy one. But praise God that the year is coming to a close, and somehow deep inside my heart i wish that this year would have a "good ending". Haha something which is able to make me say "it wasn't such a bad year after all". But who am i kidding? haha
For the past few months, it had been "hell" for me. Promises were broken and so were precious relationships. But thank you to those who really stood by me through it all. Thank you all for your constant prayers, smses and notes. I really really appreciated it a whole lot. I don't want to sound so cliche all, but really, without you guys i really don't know where i would be. Haha thank you all for being just there and loving me the way that i am:) At least i know when i fall, i have you guys there supporting me:) People whom i can trust and believe.
Alrights got to go now, maybe i shall blog a little more later:) take care!
You girls rock my world!
goodbye to you.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
hello:)
I feel weird blogging at this hour. Haha because usually i would only blog late at night. Haha oh yes i finally satisfied my craving for popeyes last night:) Haha well yesterday we had our day planned out and our dinner plan was to go to the airport for popeyes. Haha
Anyways i met mich, mish and vanessa to go shopping. We first met at suntec, then we walked around and finally went to marina to shop:) I'm so pissed lah. Haha i wanted to get this bag from Dorothy perkins then don't know why i didn't get it at first lah. Then we went off to other shops like mango, warehouse, topshop, zara all. So after much deliberation, i decided to get that bag. But guess what? THE BAG WAS GONEEEEEEE! It's so whatever lah. Then i just realised that i really wanted the bag so badly and it was quite cheap lah. But oh wells, life's like that i guess:( Haha so this is the other things that made me happy:)
1. 2 tops from topshop
2. 1 top from dorothy perkins
3. 1 bottom from topshop
So after a while, vanessa left to go back to church because she had some YA meeting. Then aiken came to meet us:) Haha then we shopped a little while more then we made our way to airport to eat popeyes! Oh and joseph came along as well. So after eating all, we decided to go back to church to celebrate bel's birthday:) Isaac bought a cake from NYDC, oh my the cake was the bomb lah. It was so so good!
Alrights got to go now:) Cos i'm meeting the girls for a second round of shopping. HAHA and to go mish's house to do some girly catch up and bla bla bla. Take care all:)
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
hello beautifuls:)
Blessed Christmas! haha anyways i'm really sorry that i haven't been blogging much because as usual i'm busy with stuffs and also feeling extremly lazy to do so. hee well since i came back from YA camp, i was overwhelmed with so many things. Like the YM/YA christmas party:) Haha maybe i shall blog more about it the next time i come online:)
Well somehow Christmas feels weird this year. Maybe because there were so many things prior to Christmas celebration that somehow i was occupied with so many stuffs that i did not even pay attention that Christmas was drawing near.
Anyways we had our seperate Christmas service this year. The youth had our very own service and the adults had their service. After service our cell and lorraine went to Thaiexpress to eat:) it was yummy! Haha oh yes i'm so glad that michelle lam came along lah. Eh woman, it has been a long time since we last catched up and i'm so glad that we had that lunch:) Haha so after lunch, mish and mich went off to parkway to meet the others. And i felt really exhuasted, so i went home to sleep till 7pm. Haha then i went to meet them again at may's house. We played games and all. Haha oh yes we managed to teach mich and lorraine how to play bridge:) HAHA now we have new kakhis! Haha
Ok i shall blog a little more later. i'm on the phone now with miss mishuelle wee and we're thinking of going shopping tmr. YIPPIE! haha
We left may's place at about 2am like that? So i cabbed back with lorraine, mich and mish. Haha the guys left earlier than us.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
hello:)
Haha i'm finally back! YA camp was awesome man. We did rafting, rock climbing etc. But among all the activities i loved the water rafting the best. Haha oh yes we did rock climbing too and thank God i managed to get to the top. Haha cos the last time at ODAC i couldn't climb pass half way can. Haha seriously, it takes a whole lot of perseverence to get to the top. Ok i'm pretty lazy to blog about what happened during the camp, haha so i guess i'll just be blogging about some random stuffs. Haha
I love my group mates. They are such an awesome bunch lah. Haha and they are worth mentioning! these sweetpeas are: Ben choo, Faithe Poh, Hosea, Jayne tong, bimbo(mish) wee, Colin and Nelson:) i really loved working in the team with them. Ok lah i know our team name sounds a tinney weeny retarded, but who cares? Haha peaking ducks! Haha oh yes, this year we didn't have 5BX in the morning, instead we learnt some dance/cheer leading routine. Haha it was super funny lah. It was danced to "hey mickey". Though it was a little silly, but i guess sometimes we need a little of that to keep us going:) Haha because i know that many of us enjoyed doing the cheerleading routine all.
The bunks were pretty alright. Except the fact that:
1. Ants were everywhere
2. An aeroplane would fly pass every 5-10mins
3. No fan/aircons
haha other than these three reasons, the sleeping area was good:) I guess it was really the company that actually mattered. Oh yes and my sleeping partner was none other than miss bimbo mishuelle wee. Haha my goodness lah. The first night at the camp was so horrible. I didn't even sleep lah:( Because there were planes flying pass our camp site every 5 mins. Seriously, the aeroplanes were so loud! I guess because the camp site was just a 15mins drive from the airport.
But anyways, before i fell asleep on the second night. I prayed that somehow the weather would be so bad that the planes couldn't land at changi airport, and also so that the rooms would be much cooler because there were no fans. Haha praise God! Because what we prayed for came true! Haha there were no planes flying pass that day and thus we had a good nights rest:)
Oh before i forget, it's maddy's 18th birthday today:) Happy birthday dear!
The YM girls and YA boys dancers are performing tomorrow:) So i'm going to go down to help them with the make up all. Oh yes we are performing on the 24th of dec at katong. We are performing at katong mall and the other one at odeon katong, i think it's just outside cornerstone church. So if you guys are interested in coming down to watch us perform, feel free to msg me or something oki?
I went to office with may to collect our pay:) Haha finally i have some cash coming in! Praise God! Haha cherie(our boss) is super cute lah. She bought us Christmas pressies:) She's sucha sweetheart lah. Anyways i really miss working:( Like while walking down from our office today, i felt super sad lah. But oh wells! Haha i can't wait to start working again:)
Then may and myself walked around many places today. Haha i can't wait till my cheque gets processed. I can hear the Ka-ching calling out my name:) Wooohooo anyways after walking around bugis all, we made our way to church cause may had her YA Christmas comm meeting and after that, both of us had our dance dedication meeting then it was some dance fellowship thingy:) We ordered in sakae sushi's pizza. It was not bad i guess:)
Ok i better go already because i have so many stuffs to do/settle. So take care guys:) I shall blog again if i'm free!
you don't seem to care anymore.
But seriously,
that doesn't bother/matter to me anymore:)
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Hello:)
As usual, it's may and myself in the office. Haha may's beside me reading newspaper and here i am blogging away. Haha anyways my boss is so cute lah. Like she emailed may and myself the to-do list because she won't be coming in today:) Haha ohhh and the rest of my colleagues won't be coming in too because they are all going for a meeting at 12pm. So it's just may and myself:) Hee
Work has been a little crazy for me lately. Haha like yesterday i was the errand girl. I went around buying stuffs for the office and doing stuffs for my boss. Haha it was quite fun lah:) Hee cos i get to be out instead of being in the office. Haha oh yes! Cos may and myself had to send some stuffs for printing yesterday, then we went to bras bersa(sp?) complex to get it done. And it started raining like mad, we were got quite like WTH!?!?!? haha cause we got to carry like hundreds of papers. But thank God, we made friends with the photocopy shop auntie! and she loaned us her umbrella:) Haha oh and she gave us discount for the papers and the best part is that she said that we need not return the umbrella immediately:) such a nice lady eh?
So after work, may and myself went down to church cause may had dance practice and i have YM comm meeting:) Yesterday's meeting was good i guess? like we managed to talk about stuffs all. And oh yes, i heard something really retarded lah yesterday. Goodness, i guess like what people always say, maturity don't come with age. Haha that is so so true! Oh wells, i'm not gonna say much not because i'm so afraid that you might go and gossip about me lah. Haha but seriously, i aint that childish lah huh:)
alrights, gotta go and get some work done! toodles:)
p/s i've been much happier lately and it's all because of you, Jesus:)
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Hello everybody:)
I shall blog a little before off we go for lunchbreak. Haha i kinda got what i wished for yesterday, now may and myself are so free in the office lah. Haha we've got nothing to do except to go online and read magazines. Haha and once again, it's only may and myself in the office, the rest are... haha God knows where:) Well, i wouldn't mind even if they don't come back at all. Haa
I am so bored lah. Haha come to talk to me if any of you guys are online ok? Haa anyways i can't exactly wait for YA camp. Haha it's good that i'm feeling excited about it eh? Haha but for the past few weeks i haven't been home:( So i might feel a little homesick during the camp. Haha like when i was in St Johns, i couldn't help thinking about my family and i how missed them. But oh wells:)
Alrights it's finally 12 pm already! Time to go for lunchhhhh:)
more than words
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
hello:)
Work was pretty tiring today. Had to carry heavy stuffs all:( My boss's youngest sister came in to help out at the office today. She's really cute and i think i like her. Haha not as in lesbo kinda like lah ok. Haa
Anyways may and myself cleared most of the outstanding work already, so i really pray that next week we would have an "easier" week:) Haha with nothing much to do would be perfect. Oh ya i will be going for YA camp this week. So i guess i wouldn't be updating this blog till i get back.
I would be so busy lah for the next few weeks. So many things are going on, but what i'm looking forward to is maddy's birthday:) Haha finally turning 18! We have already planned what were we gonna do on that day, but somehow we have to go for dance practices all. But nothing's gonna stop our plan this time:) Haha
Anyways may and myself ate subway for dinner:) It was super yummy lah! Haha we have decided to eat it for lunch tmr. Haa yippie:) oh yar, as i was working today, i was thinking through some stuffs. And i kinda came to a conclusion on what should i do. Quite proud of myself! Because somehow i'm feeling much happier after making that decision:) Even though, it would sting badly at times. But.. whatever:)
Alright i want to go sleep already. Take care!
finally i have learnt to let go.
There's no turning back
Monday, December 11, 2006
Hello all:)
I went in a little late for work today cause bus 14 took super long to come lah. Haha but as usual, we were earlier than the rest. Haa anyways may and myself went to clarity cafe for lunch. We were craving for the baked rice with corn beef! Haha but like they said that it was out of stock. So we were like... Haha like during work and all, we were going on and on about baked rice with corn beef lah. Haha oh wells the irony of life:) When you want that particular something so badly, you don't get it. But sometimes when you don't even need that something, it just comes to you.
May and myself were happily doing our work, watching youtube and listening to music. Until our boss came in at 4pm lah. Haha then we all became super busy and everything was in a huge mess and today we left work about 6.50pm like that. Haha
I was supposed to meet the babes for dinner, but like around 5pm like that my mummy called and asked me if i want to meet her in town. I realised that it has been a long time since i spent some time with her, so in the end i went to meet my mummy:) We ate Din tai fung for dinner! Haha it was yummy:)
Oh and i didn't exactly buy much today:(
1 top from topshop
1 top from Esprit
1 bag from Esprit
Haha ok im gonna sound really silly and bitchy blogging about this. But do you think i really care? HAHA anyways cause my mummy was already in the queue to try on some clothes and i joined her a little later cause i was going around looking for more stuffs to try on. So.. this was how we queued, my mummy --> this woman-->me-->the woman who was infront of me's friend. And like the woman who was infront of me shamelessly asked her friend to join her, which means to cut my queue lah. Her friend kinda didn't want at first cause by right, it wasn't a nice thing to do. But somehow, she did cut my queue lah. At that moment i was like what the?!?!?!?! Haha if i wanted, i could do what they just did, by cutting their queue and join my mummy who was infront of that woman lah. Haha but i rememebered that i must be nice and blah blah blah. Haha so i just stood there like a fool. Then when it was their turn to try their clothes, the guy who in charge of the changing room saw what had happened previously, so he asked them if she came first or did i come first. Haha but i just smiled to him and said that it was alright. Haha and i guess they felt a little bad lah. But anyways, i really didn't mind lah letting them go first.
What happens next is the ultimate i tell you! Haha the queue for making payment at Esprit was so long. So my mother took out her wallet and searched for the Esprit card thingy so that we could quickly go and pay. Haha and the counter girl saw that we had the card so we got to cut the super duper long queue because it was some VIP card thingy! oh oh oh and guess who was among the queue? HAHA
Ok i'm quite tired of blogging already and i got to go to work a littler earlier tomorrow cause my boss left something in the office and we gotta look it for her cause she needs it for some meeting. So i guess i'm going to rest already:) Take care all you beautiful looking ones! yes you:)
let go
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Hello
My brother is away at his youth camp now and i'm somewhat missing him. Since i came back from all the camps, i didn't get the opportunity to talk to him and etc. But oh wells
Tomorrow it's back to work again. As weird as it sounds, but i somehow miss going to work. Haha oh yes church was good today. Sat with my cell kids today:) Went for lunch at kfc, i was craving for it lah. Like it has been a long time since i ate fastfood. Haha yes yes i'm part of the fastfood nation. We made our back to church on time for dance. I'm really proud of ourselves! Haa because we always have the tendency to be late.
Dance was good i guess. It was a little tiring, but considering the fact that performance is just a few weeks away. Haha i dare not complain:) So after the part 1 of dance, i went to the youth room for a while. And i talked to aiken for a bit. Here's a little shout out for you sexy!( ok i feel like doing a little shout outs to others too, so please bear with me)
Aiken:)
Just want to say a huge thanks for everything. You might think that the smses that you send are just a small thing, but it really meant alot to me. It made me feel that at least you cared:) Thank you for being that friend, a person who would mean what you say, like when you say that you'll be there and you were there. And trust me, each time we talk i would feel so much better. I'm not sugar-coating my words or anything but seriously, i do feel a whole lot better. Thank you for not getting sick and tired of just listening to me and my stupid insecurities. i love you lots lah uncle! Haha i'm still here if you do need me oki? And when i say that i'll be there, i will be there. Unlike.. you know who(check). HAHA we shall talk soon gorgeous:)
Mishuelle:)
Hey babe! haha i doubt you will ever read this or cause i know that internet and you just don't go. Haha thank you so much for always being there ready to listen to what i've got to say and for always being so patient with me. I really love/miss the midnight conversations that we would always have, somehow it maintains my sanity.Haha I know that many times you will not really identify with my current situation, but thanks for just being so willing to listen and to be there. I love you so much!
Haha ok i'm pretty tired of blogging, shall do a little shout out when i'm free okay?
I am so tired of trying of making this work. Like what everyone says, it takes two hands to clap. Maybe you are tired of it too. Maybe.. lets call it off? I dare not put my expectations too high anymore because of what you have done in the past. I am sorry, but i need something more than just words. It is very tiring to keep trying on my part and i'm dying inside because of the things that you do and didn't do. Forget it, you will never understand. Maybe i should just graciously exit myself from this relationship because i really don't wish to die inside.
this is how you remind me of
who i really am.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Hello all
I went for YM and YA service today and i thought that both services were awesome. Anyways i need not go for CE tmr! I get to sleep in a little longer. I know it sounds pretty pathetic lah, but honestly every min counts. Haha every second of sleep is darn important to me.
Anyways there is this really nice person who paid for my dinner tonight. Like cause i went to order my food, then off i went to buy my drinks lah. Then at the corner of my eye, i saw may walking back to the place where i bought my food and so i thought, maybe she's gonna order the same thing that i ordered. Haha but when the food came and i wanted to pay for it, she said that it was already paid for. And i was like huh? Since when lah? Haha but oh wells:) Thanks babe! and the person who paid for my food and drink. It sounds so silly/pathetic lah. But somehow it has been quite a while since i'm treated like that and all. So i feel kinda... Haha anyways although i don't know who the person is, but thanks so much if you are reading this. Because it really did brighten up my day and i truly appreciate it a whole lot:)
Alright better go off already. I want to go read some newspaper, time to update myself with whats happening since i was somewhat away for like 1 week? take care
i'm tired of trying
Friday, December 08, 2006
hello all
It feels so so good to be back into civilisation. These few days at St johns were pretty good. I missed my family the most during the camp. Like i'm so guilty of not spending much time with them these few weeks. Sigh
Anyways went out for starbucks with sarah, dawnie, shenna, char and mish. It was good lah, just sitting around with them and talking. But before that, we went to marina for steamboat because it was all part of the program.
Somehow it feels a little weird to be back. Cos it's back to reality. I'm really dreading to face some stuffs. I wish i wasn't feeling this way. Well i guess, people come and people go and people do fail you etc. So i guess.. aiya i don't know lah. I am so sick and tired praying, thinking about this issue. I'm equally sick and tired of crying over it. Well, actually not anymore because my tears have run dry.
Ok i guess i'm feeling really tired that's why im feeling this way. But whatever lah huh. i must be happy, i must be happy, i must be happy..
i am extremly disappointed in you.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
hello all
I've finally packed my stuff for YM camp at St johns. Well i guess it's good to busy these days, at least i get to take my mind of some stuffs. Alright got to go sleep now cause i'm meeting mish for breakfast at siglap macs at 7am.
Meanwhile those who will be in singapore, i'll be missing you guys. Please do take care of yourselves:)
and i begin to wonder what's real
with the things you said.
Monday, December 04, 2006
somehow i just doubt myself.
lost for words
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Hello all
I'm finally back from pulau ubin. The leaders retreat was good but tiring. The camp was rather similar to a boot camp. I managed to survive the retreat without bathing for 2 days and sleeping in the open and peeing in the bushes. Haha throughout the camp, i only slept for 2 hours, but praise God, i still managed to get through it despite little sleep. So the moment i came back home yesterday, i slept the whole day. It felt good i tell you.
Anyways i was watching some video on youtube. It is so disturbing i tell you. Sigh what is the world coming to? Ok it's about this group of "Christians" going around telling America that God's judgement is upon them and etc. Like how God hates homosexuality and something like God hates them because they are gay. God hates the sin but not the sinners and seriously, their actions really do not reflect God at all. The words are coated with anger and hatred for the homosexuals. But God says, Love thy neighbour as thy self. Neighbour is equivalent to anyone around you, be it if they are gay and etc. If you guys really want to watch the video, the links are
Part 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1l0xaF1QQfc
Part 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MdHosYP8J30
Part 3: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-in16plR9Jk
Part 4: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x176aI15Y_0
Sigh i really don't know what should i do now. I thought i was emotionally strong enough to face it, but i guess i was really wrong. I thought i would be alright after a while, but somehow i'm not. It stings so much each time i face _____. I really just want to run away, run away from everything. Like what they always say, people do fail you.
sigh