Saturday, September 30, 2006
Hellooo all
Ok i'm not in my best of moods so just bear with me lah. Anyways it was the bible quiz thing today. And i thought it was pretty good, although the YM didn't win the quiz thing but i think they did so well and that i am very very proud of them:) Awesome job.
Initially i was disappointed with some stuffs that someone said lah. But as time passed by, i got really pissed with that someone plus a few more. Haha but i'm going to be a nice person and just shut up and not say anything because... Argh whatever
Sometimes i can't understand some things. I really hate it when i have to be the nice person. Haven't i not been nice enough not to kick up a fuss? But i guess people just don't see me being nice, but when things happen and when i finally don't agree, people start thinking why do i make things difficult for others. Everytime when something goes wrong, it seems to me that people would always think that i'm the selfish one or i'm the difficult one. Yar it's just me lah ok?
I'm so tired lah. Everytime i'm nice to you. You just take advantage of it. Each time i get a call from you is because you need something from me OR you are just that bored and you have no one to talk to. Each time you are pissed with someone else, you take it out on me. Fine, i thought that is what friends are for and just kept quiet each time you take it out on me. I am so sick of it. You treat me nicely because you feel happy, and the next minute you treat me like crap because someone pissed you off. I guess the way you treat me is determined by your moods huh. Thanks so much. You make me feel so much appreciated.
Sigh there are so many much more stuffs that i want to say. But i guess, for everyone's sanity sakes. I better not blog about it. Anyways i better go wash up and all cos i'm pretty tired out by everything and i think should should sleep early tonight. Take care all
well, don't worry
I will get through it.
Friday, September 29, 2006
ya lah
everything is my fault alright?
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Hello all
I went to church to study again. Mish and myself met may for lunch, we ate at jalan tuakong. We went werners to buy some pastry to munch on for tea-break. Hee Then went back to church to study. Math revision today was rather fruitful i must say. But the more people came in to join us studying, somehow distracted me. So was pretty distracted after a while. Well, what's new?
Mish, mich, vanessa and myself met lorraine for dinner at simpang:) As usual, the food was good. Dinner was good, because of the company and the food. We were talking and laughing like mad lah cos of some silly things that we were doing. Oh yes then along came this couple, i think the girl was pretty pissed with her boyfriend or something. Super drama lah, but i like:) HAHA i somehow love watching all these drama mama kind of quarrals. HAHA actually, i thought it was pretty bad lah. Cos somehow the girl was really really pissed with the guy. Haha oh wells, i really wondered what did the guy do to make her so mad. HAHA
Ok lah i better go sleep already. Cos i'm helping out at BASC tomorrow and i don't wish to be late. Haha i can't wait to see those lovelies! Take care world
lets waste time chasing cars:)
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Hello
I'm so tired. I went to church to study, then went for YM comm meeting. So now my brain isn't at its best. Sigh nothing much to blog anyways.
Bye world
Sometimes i wonder why i bother so much?
when,
you just don't bother.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?
I wish I could be everylittle thing you wanted
all the time:)
Helloooo all:)
I realised that my blog entries are getting so boring. Haha ah wells, i guess i don't have much a life now cos the exams are nearing. These days, i really hate it when people ask me when my papers start. Somehow that question just ticks me off. It's just me lah. I really hate it when people ask me that sort kind of questions cos i really don't wish to be reminded that my exams are nearing. I know that people do care for me, but i just get all irritated when they ask me about my O levels. Cos honestly, i really dread it so much. I'm so afraid that history might repeat itself. I know that sooner or later, i need to face it. But as for now, i just don't wish to be reminded about it, thank you very much. Like sometimes when i lie on my bed, just thinking through what i did in the day. Somehow i would be reminded about my O levels and because of that, i find it hard to fall asleep. My heart would start beating real fast and i would start getting cold sweat all.
Anyways enough about all the exams stuffs. I went to meet lorraine, michelle and mish for dinner at parkway:) It was a good time of catching up. Oh yes i saw this really cute baby girl seated just behind lorraine, which was directly across me:) she's so cute lah. Like when i smile at her, she would smile back at me all. So i started playing with her all, like making monkey faces all. HAHA i feel silly now. So we talked till closing time like that, then we accompanied mish to cold storage cos she needed to get some stuffs for her sister:) So yup, lorraine and mich gave us a lift back. Haha
So i came back. Talked to my mummy a little bit. Oh yes this reminds me what happened this morning lah. My mum was canning my sister and my sister started crying so loudly that it woke me up from my beauty sleep lah. Goodness! I slept at 4am and usually i don't wake up till 12pm. But because of her crying and etc, and yes it woke me up at 8am. Then i couldn't get back to sleep so i went to watch a little bit of television. But after a while, i was feeling a little lazy. HAHA so i went back for a little nap:) I woke up at about 12pm cos i had to go to church for some dance thingy with aunty linda all:) It was fun lah just dancing with them. HAHA
Anyways i'll be using my dad's creative vision M temporary because my ipod video is somewhat spoilt:( Till i get it repaired, i'll be using his. Ah wells:( somehow i prefer using my ipod video. But oh wells, i can't get too picky right? Ok lah i better go already. I'm somewhat happily uploading songs to his vision m:D Hee take care all
it's the way you make me feel.
ok i was pretty bored so i decided to do this quiz that was posted on friendster. HAHA so here it goes:
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today,what was your first thought?
man i need to pluck my eye brows! HAHA
2. When is the next time you will have sex?
when i get married thank you.
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DUCK"?
errr
4. Favorite planet?
planetshakers! HAHA ok that was lame
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
joel ooi
6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
boston by augustana
7. What shirt are you wearing?
a green top
8. What were you doing 20 minutes ago?
talking to isaac on msn:)
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currentlywearing.
louis vuitton. HAHA just kidding lah.
10. Bright or Dark Room?
dark room.
11. What do you think about the person who tookthis survey before you?
nothing? haha
12. If you're in a room with two beds, which one doyou sleep on?
both? HAHA i like big beds!
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
talking to people on msn:)
14. What did your last text message you receivedsay?
it says: Hey dear. i really felt much better aft talking to you:) only you can understand me in this way. Muackz. i love you.
15. How do you like your eggs?
i like scramble eggs. hee
16. What's a word/phrase that you say a lot?
i know this is pretty random.... but
17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
elaine wee:)
18. Last furry thing you touched?
my brother's legs. HAHA
19. How many drugs have you done in the lastthree days?
value life. Stay away from drugs:)
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
i use a digital camera
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
18 years old? Darn i'm old
22. Your worst enemy?
ehh honestly, i don't have any enemy now. hee
23. What is your current desktop picture?
some scenic picture i took in china:)
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
ehh just now?
25. If you had to choose between a million bucksor to be able to fly?
of course a million bucks!
26. What do you want to be doing?
watching all my fav tv shows all at one go:) haha
27. The last song you listened to?
oceans will part-hillsong
28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, what would you do?
i honestly don't know how would i react. and i pray that it wouldn't happen.
29. If you could punch 1 person in the face who's inyour life right now, who would it be?
no one?
30. What is the closest item to your foot?
my drawer
Helloooo:)
Ok i went to church to study today. I have decided to get my lazy bumm down to church to study cos i know that i would not be able to study at home because of all the various distractions a.k.a temptations i have at home. HAHA
So i went down to church about 3pm like that. When i got to the youth room, i saw shenna, peachy and aiken:) So we were just talking rubbish and etc. Haha like we always do:) Then we decided to start studying after a while. Somehow at the begining it was quite productive cos there were lesser people around. Haha so it was quite good lah:)
About 6pm like that, mich came down to church:) Yeay and she bought me super rings! Haha thanks babe! it satisfied my craving for them:) Haha so we just sat about doing nonsense.Oh yes,
Jonathan leong is hot stuff lah! Haha i mean ya, he's not that handsome or anything but he is so charismatic:) Something about him just catches my attention. Haha
Then we left church about 7 plus to go dinner at simpang:) When we got there, i kinda asked the uncle if we could switch the program to channel 5 and the uncle was such a sweetheart lah:) cos that is what he exactly did:) Sigh although jonathan leong didn't win the competition, but i'm not like devastated or something cos i know that hady's equally good:) So either way.. yar:)
Oh yes, my daddy might be going to italy next week. Haha three words: i am jealous! i hope my dad buys me stuffs though:) hee ok lah i better go off already cos i need to get some sleep:) Take care all you out there!
it's that minor situation that makes me love you
Monday, September 25, 2006
Helloooo:)
It feels so good to be back to be able to blog. Hee anyways i couldn't wake up for the 8.30am Revelation's crash course. So i just went for the 9am CE class:) Haha man i was sitting directly below the air con, and i was freezing like mad. Brrr
So went for service after CE:) Worship was good! God is just so amazing lah, like when i went for service, my legs were aching like mad. So i kinda prayed about it lah cos it was affecting me quite a bit. And God miraculously healed my legs lah. After the service, i felt so much better:) Thank you Lord Jesus!
The YM comm stayed back after service for a little while for some de-briefing and a short meeting. It was good i guess, managed to understand what was going on in different ministries in YM. All the feedback and etc. Then we went for lunch at beer garden:) After eating, we went back to church to slack here and there. I love sundays, haha i get to laze around and spend time with people all:)
When uncle henry had to close the church, quite a few of us went to tuakong there for dinner. I really wanted to eat the char kway teow lah. But like the stall was closed:( so we ate chicken rice in the end. Then we went to sennette to watch Singapore Idol:) By the way, lorraine was employed to do make up for the singapore idol artist all! Haha so fun lah:) she got to see Jonathan leong! Haha man he is hot stuff lah:) We left sennette at about 10 plus? I walked back home. It was good lah:) Got to think through about some stuffs all.
Anyways gotta go already. Take care all:) Sorry for the boring entry, but i guess that's how boring my life is;) HEE
all i want is your friendship:)
and nothing else for the moment
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Ok hello all:)
Sorry for not being able to blog these few days. Something went terribly wrong with my blog and etc. So yup just wanna say to all that i'm good:) I've thought through stuffs and now i'm all ready to run for God already! Ok shall not blog much cos i wanna go watch my channel 55! Oh yes and i was tagged by maddy to do this thingy below:) So yup i'm being a good girl by just obeying it:)
Skin colour: ehh tanned?
Hair colour: i don't really know how to explain. HAHA
Clothes colour: black racerback with boxers
Wardrobe colour: blue with brown wood thingy
Seven memorable things this month:
(1) how i managed to get through all these:)
(2) Isaac's birthday
(3) Brandon's passing on
(4) my trip to china
(5) how God spoke so clearly to me
(6) how my mom got a full time job! Praise the Lord!
(7) i finally went to rebond and did treatment to my hair! HAHA
Six people you talked face to face this week:
(1) dad
(2) mum
(3) aunty lorna(my maid)
(4) marcus
(5) kristie
(6) mae
Five things you bought recently:
(1) contact lense solution
(2) kenny rogers's quarter chicken(HAHA)
(3) bag
(4) a bus ticket( haha)
(5) nail polish
Three people you want to talk to now but can't:
(1) a really good friend from the past:)
(2) my primary school friends
(3) *you
Two things on your mind now:
(1) some stuffs
(2) what am i gonna wear to service tmr
Do i have to tag anyone?
-don't really know if these guys would do it. But yea, i'll just give the names:)
(1) melissa
(2) gaius
(3) haha can't exactly think of who
Friday, September 22, 2006
Sigh
I am just so tired. Many times like this, i really really feel like giving up. But i know that i cannot. Help me Jesus, i am really very tired. I need your strength to keep me going. Many a times, i have fallen, but thank You for always being ever so faithful in watching over me and welcoming me back into Your arms.
I hate it so much when i let my emotions take control of me. I seriously hate myself for it. Especially when it is in the middle of the night, when i'm the only one who is awake. I guess that is when my mind really starts to wonder about many things.
Sigh so many things have happened. And here i am sub-conciously loading it onto my heart bank, and now i regret it a whole lot because it is just killing me. I'm somewhat overwhelmed with all the different issues. Sometimes it just gets too tiring to keep smiling and telling the world that i'm alright, when sometimes i am not. Sometimes, just sometimes i feel like murdering myself. But of course i wouldn't that cos it's just not right and not in accordance to God's word.
I know i can do it. But i guess, it just all takes time. Oh yes and a huge thank you to those who stood by me especially times like this. I really appreicated every sweet gesture. I love you guys so much. A personal thank you to:
Vanessa: thank you so much for always being there, no matter how late it was. I really appreciate every single little bit of effort you made to cheer me up when i was down. I really enjoyed the little talks we used to have. Sigh somehow part(well the selfish part) of me wish that you won't start working so soon so that i could spend more time with you, but i guess i can't be that selfish right. I love you so much
Isaac: a huge thank you too. You're the only one who can see through me and know what i'm feeling and somehow you have the power to make me feel special and unique. thanks for your sweet gestures all, i'm really thankful to God that i have such an awesome friend like you. Hope you enjoyed today all yea? i loveee you gorgeous one.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Ok i'm so freaking pissed with my sister.
She is so annoying lah. It's not the first time that she destroyed my things. I hate it most when i'm happily re-arranging things in my room then i realised that she had destroyed some of my stuffs. ARGH many things have been destroyed by her and her stupid fingers. Things that i treasure so much or just simple things given to me by my friends. What is wrong with her fingers?
I honestly don't know what i did to deserve this. I've already somewhat trying my best to be that nice/loving sister to her. Often i would buy them stuffs to show them that i love them and etc. I don't understand why does she have to do something so annoying as to spoil my things.
And my freaking parents, actually my dad don't understand what i'm feeling. LET ME GO AND BREAK SOMETHING OF HIS AND SEE WHETHER HE HAVE THE SAME KIND OF REACTION. FREAK lah doesn't mean that i'm the oldest mean i have to give way all the time. How many times i sacrificed certain things for them? Sigh forget it lah. They would never appreciate what i do anyways. Forget it, it's really useless to talk about it.
Sigh if only
I got you
to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour feels much longer
when I got you to make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together
when I got you
hee
:)
Helloo everyone
Ok i finally uploaded the pictures that i took when i was in china. But because something's wrong with hello, so i can't really upload anymore pictures for the time being. Haha
Anyways i went to church to meet aiken and maddy for dinner:) We had beer garden, then we went to buy some pastry from the bakery shop beside beer garden. I bought this chocolate donut thingy, it was yummylicious lah. HAHA i felt like a small girl, cos after eating, i had chocolate spots all over my face. Haha retarded me.
So aiken, maddy and myself walked back to church from beer garden:) I love spending time with them lah. Haha even though it was for a short while;) Then stayed in the youth room for a while before going up to the 4th floor for the revelations thing. The revelations thingy was alright lah, except the preacher talked really fast. Haha couldn't really grasp what was he saying. But ah wells! Hee
We went to simpang for supper. Haha two nights in a row! Well, i felt like a glutton. I ate tissue prata and cheese prata. Haha man i'm seriously putting back the weight that i lost a few weeks back. Roar! Haha but whatever lah. I really wanted to walk back, but somehow i was feeling lazy. Haha so i shared a cab with vanessa:) Came back home, talked to my mummy for a bit again then went off to shower, then came online. My daily ritual i suppose? Haha
Then i called mish for a while just to talk to her. I got quite depressed somehow during the conversation. And i kinda cried a bit, so i decided to end the conversation, cos i really didn't want to affect her mood and all. Sigh i really hate being awake at night at times. Certain issues would just re-surface, and i would get quite affected by it.
After putting down the phone with mish, then was talking to aiken all. Then something funny happened. Haha so was conferencing with them till 5am? Haha it was quite funny cos my brother's alarm rang and i was still happily yakking away. Haha then i was like telling them that we should really put down soon and aiken said something real funny, he was like, ya people are waking up to go to the market now. Haha ok lah im retarded or something, but i felt that it was so funny lah. Haha but anyways it was fun just talking to them last night:) Felt so much better talking to them all, well actually, it was just listening them talking away. Haha but still, i felt much better.
Ok i better stop my nonsense already. Take care all:)
Jesus you are everything to me
temple of heaven
.
family at temple of heaven
HAHA hardworking policemen at temple of heaven.
i took it:)
marcus loke mun hou:)
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
living harmoniously
my disgusting feet. HAHA
they have a traffic light for bicycles and pedestrians. coolness
their signboards
another one
ok i was that bored. HEE
:)
haha
the great wall
this was how high we climbed up to:)
.
:)
this was how steep the steps were
yes i like speaking cellphone when thunderstorm. HAHA
weapons they use during their time
haha
i love them so so much