Wednesday, November 29, 2006
hello all:)
I'm so at work now, but haha i don't really care lah. Anyways i cannot wait till 6pm because once it hit the 6 o'clock, it's liberation! Haha i took leave for tomorrow btw:) Because of the leaders retreat thingy at ubin. I thought i might want to rest a little more tomorrow because lately, i haven't been sleeping well all. So yupp:)
Ok lah i know that this might sound a little bimbotic. But like i have been having pimple outbreak lately. RAHHHH which means... ok i'm not going to say it cause i really don't wish to jinx it. Haha miss P please do not come now because of all the camps that taking place right now:) haa
Haha anyways work has been pretty tiring lately. There are so many stuffs to clear and i'm like dying in the office already lah. Haha that is why i'm looking forward for the leaders retreat at ubin and the YM camp at St Johns island:) Haha i'm coming back on the sunday from ubin and im leaving on tuesday for st johns! Haha hope i really rest well by monday, so i get recharged and etc:)
Oh yes! the ubin leaders retreat participants are splited into 2 different groups. All the YMs are grouped in one and they are called Task Force 1 and we, the YAs are grouped and called Task Force 2. Haha super military right? Haha oh wells! So the task force 2 people met up last night to settle some stuffs:) Then after that i went dinner with maddy, ade, dawnie and char at simpang:) It was good company by the way. Hee
ok lah better go already. Before anyone catches me doing all these rubbish. Take care all!
sometimes i really wonder if i should
give ___ another go?
Looking back at the past just scares me
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
hello everyone:)
I'm at work and i'm so so tired and bored. Haha anyways my boss haven't been in the office lately, so we are kinda free to do what we want:) Haha
Lets see what i did yesterday. Ohhh we went to suntec to celebrate ben choo and vanessa oh's birthday:) We ate kenny rogers! Haha not that fantastic but the company definitely made up for it:) After eating, we went to the sky garden ontop of suntec. Haha there was a few couples up with doing God knows what. Haha anyways the guys kinda threw ben choo into the water and he got all wet lah:) But oh wells, it was his birthday anyways. Hee
Then we left suntec to go home. I took bus 14 with maddy and ade:) We just talked about the camp stuffs and etc. It was fun lah:) Haha i'm glad that all of us are pretty excited about it. Haha and so i came home, went to bathe all cos i somewhat got caught in the rain lah. Then talked to mish on the phone for a bit. Haha i just realised that it has been a long time since i last talked to her on the phone all. Haa then i guess thats about what happened yesterday:)
I apologise for not blogging that often these days because i'm pretty busy with work all. Alrights better go off already, take care all:) Maybe i shall blog a little more tonight!
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Hello all
As usual i went for YM service today. I went for dinner with YMers today at kfc:) It has been somewhat i long time since i spent some time with them. I love them lah and i am very glad that i'm still serving in the YM ministry and i really love being around them.
Then i went for YA after dinner. Though i didn't catch what Pastor Mark preached cos i wasn't there but i heard a little bit, but it was good! Oh yes and we revealed our angel and mortal today. I somehow knew who was my angel before her name was revealed:) Oh wells
Don't really know what to blog anymore. I better go learn my memory verse and sleep soon because i gotta be at church at 8am tmr and i so don't want to be late.
it still hurts so badly
Friday, November 24, 2006
Hello all
Work was good but tiring. Knocked off from work at about 6pm today cos we were rushing some stuffs that needed to be delievered to our clients all. We went to this cafe for our lunch and it's not bad lah. Like the deco and etc.
Oh yes i met isaac, may, ade and maddy for dinner at lagoon. It was fun just hanging out with them. Work is seriously just draining my every ounce of energy. Sigh i'm just so confused. I really don't know how to react anymore. I find it so hard...
Anyways to the "-" person who tagged my board. Sorry i was just wondering but are you too afraid that i would find out who you are, that is why you didnt dare to leave your name behind? Maybe i'm wrong, cos that is the only reason i can come up with. Leave your name behind and then maybe just maybe, we can talk about how i have left other people out ok?
the wound just wouldn't heal.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
hello:)
I shall blog a little before i shower. I did not go to work yesterday because my boss said that no one was in the office so like i could only start work today. So i joined the metamorphosis kids for the bbq and etc! We celebrated shenna's belated birthday at sunhaven too:)
Oh yes and i was talking to aiken last night. It was good talking to you aiken:) Oh and thanks for the message. Yes we both will stay strong okay? love you loads lah! haha
Anyways mish, may, maddy and myself dipped ourselves in the pool for a while because the pool was closed. Actually i think it was alright to swim at that time because the last time when we stayed over at sunhaven, we swam till about 2am? And things were alright but i guess this time they chased us out of the pool was because some naughty fella decided to make a whole lot of noise. Thus the security guards came and chased us out. Roar
Well so we sat near the pool and talked:) It was fun lah. Time flies when you're having fun i guess? Haha before we knew it, it was already 1am. So we cabbed back. Alrights i better go bathe already before i'm late for work. Yikes
sometimes...
i just hate being around you
cos of all the things that probably happened.
You just make me feel worthless
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Hello all
I am finally back from metamorphosis camp. I loved the camp and i am very sure that i'm gonna miss it somehow. One little primary 6 girl really touched my heart:) There is something so special about her and weirdly, i like looking at her. Somehow she has found that little place in my heart even before me knowing her that well.
Ok moving on. I slept for only 1 hour last night at metamorphosis camp and i am zombified. Maybe because i am not used to the surroundings then, thus i found it real hard to fall asleep. And i'm so starting work tmr!! Oh yes i really thank God for my job because:
1. My boss is a very nice lady
2. She thought i couldn't work every monday or something, yet she still hired me.
3. I have to be at work at 12pm tmr. Which means i have time to rest and recover the lost of sleep during the metamorphosis camp.
Thank you Jesus for the job opening:)
Anyways we went to the beach to play some games for the camp. Sorry but i cannot really remember what they did on the first day of the camp probably cos i'm very very very drained now and my brains aren't functioning properly now. So i'll just blog about the 2nd day for the time being:)
I was metamorphosis's camp medic for the day. It was so scary lah. I am already a total wreck, imgaine people coming to me a few at one time? Haha but it was a good experience i guess. Oh yes now i have a rather slight sunburn on my arms:( so it is a sunburn on top of a sunburn, how fortunate can i get?
Sigh i am so tired. Mentally, emotionally and physically. Maybe because i am really that tired that somehow it triggers off all the negative emotions. Roar ok lah i better go rest already.
if you do realise
i've stopped trying
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Hello all:)
Somehow i am in the mood to blog, so i guess i better blog before my mood changes:) Well i apologise for the past few days i haven't been myself. I guess alot of things were on my mind and i could not think and function properly. All in all, i'm just feeling disappointed in that particular someone lahh. Oh wells like what they always say, expectation kills.
I am alright, really. Just feeling a little _______. Maybe cos being the high I person that i am, i am easily affected by what people do or say. Well, of course i don't get all affected by any tom, dick or harry lah. But surprisingly, it is the people whom have gained my love and trust who tend to make me feel this way? Well i guess it's just me lah:)
Another thing that i hate most is people whom i have learned to trust and love begins to treat me as some freaking substitue. Seriously, i get oh-so-affected by these kind of situations.
Especially when i gave so much of myself into our friendship. Is this what it means to you? If the answer is yes, oh wait! The answer is probably a yes, because your actions speaks louder than your words. Honestly, i don't have anything to say. So much being here for me yadaa yadaa. HAHA
Alright enough of all these nonsense:)
I went to sentosa on saturday with some of the YMers:) I'm so glad that i did go out with them because i feel so much better after going out. Haha staying home everyday with nothing to do but eat, sleep, watch tv is seriously depressing. Thank you sarah for "forcing" me to get out of my house. Haha because if you didn't insist that i come along, i think i'll be bumming around at home and being even more depressed. Haa
And yes, i am so burnt. All i wanted was just a little tann, but now, my whole body is like some freaking lobster. Haha and so dance practice was quite a challange today because many of you victims out there might know, when you suffer from a bad sunburn, your skin becomes oh-so-tight, which makes simple things like stretching seem like a challange. Haha but praise God! cos i managed to get through dance:) ok coming back to sentosa! So we left sentosa about 5pm like that to go vivocity cause we wanted to grab dinner before going off to some YMCA skit thingy.
Vivocity is ultra madness. There are soooooo many people shopping there. Finding a seat their foodcourt was already a huge problem. Haha but thank God because sarah, melissa and myself soon found a table:) The food there is pretty pricey, just like the Food Republic at town. But i guess, it's like that. Roar
Ok lets skip the rest and go to sunday! Haha
Sunday was alright i guess. Dance practice was tiring as usual, but it's good cause we were somewhat working out:) Haha oh yes the service was good. Brought my perspective back into place again:) We bought macs back to church cause vanessa had to go for main comm meeting and we didn't want her to come back alone. So we disobeyed her and came back together with her. Hee so went for dance practice at 3pm. Then we went to the studio after that and we ended dance practice about 10pm like that. After that, we met isaac for dinner at beer garden:)
Alright i better go rest already. I'm feeling super drained and i need to rest cos i'm helping out for the metamorphosis camp tmr and tuesday! and i'm starting work on wednesday too. Thus, plenty of rest is so needed:)
and no matter what i do
i feel the pain with or without you.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
forget it.
i'm not gonna try to make it work anymore
i'm just going to leave the things as it is.
no point in me trying
cos you don't seem to even bother about it.
you will never understand how painful it is.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Hello all
I'm sorry that i haven't been myself of late. I don't really know why. Oh wells life still goes on right? Haha the whole world doesn't revovle around me. Guess i just got to suck it up, brace myself and just continue walking this journey.
Don't worry about me, i'll get through it... somehow
Anyways i went for dance today. It was good i must say. Finally i learn how to do wacking. It was a little tiring, but it was good. I bet my arms would ache like mad tomorrow cos it has been a long time since i went for dance practice. I came home after dance practice and watched tv till now. It somehow feels good to just stay home and watch tv all day. It is times like these days that i like to stay home, cos i get to shut myself from everyone. I just hate all the pretence. Spare me
Haha i dont wish to sound like some drama queen, but i truly do wish to just disappear from here just like that. Maybe some people would celebrate and etc. But sigh i dont know i care anymore. Cos im just so tired. Tell me how should i react and behave?
now i wonder whats real?
Monday, November 13, 2006
it is just so sucky to lose people whom i love and i thought i could trust.
i just wish you could pay more attention.
I really don't know what to do.
I find it so hard to tell you things now.
I really have no idea on how to maintain our friendship anymore.
I'm human and therefore i do make mistakes.
Somehow because of what has happened,
I find it hard to trust people now.
Sigh
Whatever lahhh
Yea i'm that replaceable
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Sometimes i just feel that our friendship means nothing to you at all.
Maybe i'm just someone who you will only turn to when you need something from me.
it hurts so badly.
Friday, November 10, 2006
Hello all:)
WOOHOOO it's finally over! Though i'm feeling a little lost somehow, but i'm just so glad that it's finally over. Anyways after my paper ended about 5pm, i made my way down to bedok interchange and got myself the Little Mermaid DVD:) Haha
Alright i can't blog anymore cos i gotta meet the rest for supper at simpang:) Hello to more late nights and stay overs! Haha maybe i shall blog more later when i come back:)
shut up
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
haha this cheers me up after studying like madd:) HAHA
I recognized the way you make me feel
I start to think that you might not be real
I sense it now the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me
the beauty that lives within
Friday, November 03, 2006
just a little side note: NEVER attempt to walk back home from Changi Airport!
Hello all:)
If you are wondering who are the silly bums bums who did that? Haha yes i am one of them. Well, i met mish and mich to study at the airport today. We wanted to study till 11pm like that. So we sat at burger king at terminal from 7pm to about 11pm, oh and mich left about 10pm:) Anyways we felt bad being so shamelessly occupying so much space their just to study without buying food or drink other than our dinner. So we moved on to popeyes:) The queue was so long at popeyes, that we just sat down and ate. Haha so we left popeyes to catch the last bus home. and guess what? yes clever people, we missed the last bus.
So i kinda suggested that we walk back from changi airport since the midnight fare is such a killer. Haha we were walking happily, until we reached the budget terminal there. Haha we couldn't find the way out, so we decided to take a cab back home from there. Walking through dark "forested" areas are super freaky lah. But i guess overall, it was a good walk even though it was just for a while:)
Alrights i better go shower now and maybe do somemore math. Take care all you beautiful ones:)
would you even care if something did happen to me?
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Hello all:)
I went to PingYi to take my lit paper today. My goodness, the bus 608 takes forever to come laa. Haha i waited for about 30 minutes for the bus at the bus stop before the bus finally came. I almost took a cab down to pingyi sec. But i realised that i was really running late, so i took 608 to bedok interchange, then i took a cab down to pingyi sec.
I thought there will be quite a lot of people taking core lit paper. Haha but somehow i think that there were only about 10 school candidates and 3 private candidates, one of which is the truly yours. Haha well the paper was alright i guess? If i'm not wrong, it is much easier than last year's one:) but... ah oh wells! hee
So i walked from pingyi sec to bedok interchange. Oh yes the weather was hot today lah. Ok that was pretty random but... whatever:) HAHA i was walking around bedok interchange and i saw the cartoon that i wanted so badly! Haha i really want that Little Mermaid DVD so badly lah:( plus the Aladin one too. Any nice soul wants to make me real happy? HAHA
After much deliberation, i didnt buy the vcd cos it was vcd? HAHA i prefer watching movies on DVD, it's much clearer and it has subtitles:) Ok yes yes i know some people hate watching movies without subtitles, but i really love watching movies with subtitles cos i can understand what they are talking better. Haha anyways i guess i just have to bug my daddy for it, though i think he might just say i'm crazy laa. Haha
I came home after walking around bedok interchange deciding if i should get that disney cartoon. Haha i was too drained to actually do anything. I didn't go to church to study today... cos i didn't feel like it. Haha then don't know how my brother and myself started playing X-box:) It was quite fun lahh. Haha it's the first time that i used the X-box can. Haha it was something that i would never touch, but somehow after today. HEE it would be a different story;)
Ok lah. i think i better go do a little math then i shall go sleep. I'm feeling so tired:( Usually i'm quite happy when it's like friday all. BUT... this time i'm not that excited for it to come because my math paper 1 is on monday. Roar
You said you'll be here no matter what
but..
where did you go?
sigh